Where am I?
Where am I going?
I saw myself walking all alone in the dark, but where on earth am I going and why? I asked myself
A dark road
A dark place
Out of nowhere I feel pain Ahhhhhh I yell,
I yell because I don't even know why and what caused this freaken pain, I yelled for help but no one came for my aid
than the pain got worse OK now I'm yelling, why am I painin- ahhhhhhhh i couldn't finish my sentence because of the pain
it's really really getting worse ,my entire body is in agony but no one is hearing me ,
is anyone even here I thought to myself
Out of nowhere I couldn't move I couldn't move I couldn't move I couldn't freaking move i cry repeating the words in my head,
why couldn't I move? I asked myself s*** I cursed under my breath
I'm definitely scared now and I never get scared,not anymore ,
But my vision slowly became blurry
wait no no no
am I going blind
but when I felt something warm running down my cheek I curse again
Just great
I realised I'm not going blind but im actually crying,
I try to stop crying but I couldn't,
I-i just couldn't
I sobned even more knowing that I'm showing the very same signs I hated ,
signs of being weak which was tears , fear stupid emotions i curse,
why am I weak
Why am i this weak I ask myself
Suddenly I wake up still with this freaking tears running down my cheeks, i than quickly wipe this stupid tear away while sad laughing
here am I crying, screaming in my freaken dream asking for help i know i was loud enough I think yet my lovely family is sound asleep note the sarcasm
I sigh they never cared for me they never will .
Checking my phone to know what time it is i smile knowing I have exactly three hours left to be out of this hell i call home
I stood up so I bath well shower to be precise , I love showers who ever invented showers my imaginary hat off to you my brother or sister or both you know what never mind but thank you, I'll have to Google later who invented showers because I'm that weird, I laugh abit jeez my mind noho
After finishing with my lovely shower time I got dressed ,
yep instead of my sweatpants and baggy t-shirt I wore a fitted ripped Jean and a simple t-shirt with black and white strips
Yes that's right
Your girl has changed
LOL look at me changing and all, I swear this was not me years ago, before I would never and I mean NEVER care about my appearance but since I'm going abroad to a totally different place where no one knows me,I could at least try and look ok. Haha I know ripped jeans are not a way to start but hey I never said amma dress like a perfect girl
OK I'm done
Shower check
Clothes packed check
Ticket check
Phone and earphones check
Laptop check
Chargers check
Camera check
Now I'll have to go down stairs to make breakfast for myself and my lovely family, there goes a laugh, yeah right lovely and them good one storměigh good one
After finishing making breakfast my mom ,dad , half brother, uncle, aunt , their two girls that sleeps around yet my uncle and aunt hates me? Me for being responsible and studying hard to make myself useful like really now, eitherways they came to the kitchen with their look at her stares that I'm used to by now , taking plates out for them to show respect and putting on my best fake smile on wondering why I should respect
Ah ah ah noo
I quickly zoned out of my thoughts when I heard that sound
well that right there my good people is��my lovely mom ,I ask her what was wrong because i was genuinely concerned but by the look she gave me I knew it,she looked at me with disgust and said don't touch the food you might contaminat the food i sigh but smiled and said sorry I won't touch it mama I told her which is weird since I cooked it ahh lol wait wait,wait a minute when did she even add contaminat in her vocabulary ahh mom I smile abit she is something really..
After I finished eating and washing dishes i told them I'm off to college now and they smiled at me lovingly which caught me off guard but I smiled back which later on faded because of what came out of their mouth and i quote
"if you don't die in the airplane than that will be a shame"
ahh I sigh with a smile lovely family of mine heh?
Note the sarcasm
With that I left
Airport time I said with a smile but frowned than I cursed I'm scared of heights well this will be great
yep another sarcasm there from your one and only, me
I closed my eyes shut afraid for my life when I was on board but opened when we where up in the air above the clouds didn't know that's even possible ,that only happens in movies right right?wait it's my first flight shut up storměigh I told myself than decided to take out my camera and took a picture lord I love the view ,beautiful
And took another in the night
Than closed my eyes listening to my favourite song slow up by jacob banks
What I've learnt from the ocean
Hard to dance and rejoice in the motion
Let the sun have its moment
The moon will come
What I've learnt from a soldier
Every man is a son to a daughter
And we only remember
When we see the blood
Don't grow up on me
Keep that backstroke in your Afro
Don't you grow up on me
Slow up homie
Don't you grow up on me
Keep it OG sipping slowly
Don't you grow up on me
Slow up homie
Don't you show off on me
Don't you grow up on me
Show off on me
What I've learnt from a traveler
There's no road that can lead to nirvana
There's a world to discover
But home is love
Mhm
What I've learnt from a mirror
Look too hard and you'll find you a stranger
Love is just a decision
The choice is yours
Don't grow up on me
Keep that backstroke in your Afro
Don't you grow up on me
Slow up homie
Don't you grow up on me
Keep it OG sipping slowly
Don't you grow up on me
Slow up homie
Don't you show off on me
Don't you grow up on me
Slow up homie
Don't you grow up on me
Don't grow up on me
Wear your Afro like your backbone
Don't you grow up on me
Slow up homie
Don't you grow up on me
Keep it OG sipping slowly
Don't you grow up on me
Slow up homie
Don't you grow up on me
Wear that Afro like your backbone
Don't you grow up on me
Slow up homie
Don't you grow up on me
Keep it OG sipping slowly
Don't you grow up on me
Slow up homie
Don't you show off on me
Don't you grow up on me
Don't you grow up on me
Slow up homie
I listen to the slow soothing words booming in my ears awaiting for my Destiny
Australia here i come
with that i fell asleep with a smile on me knowing I'm far away from hell...
Africa to Australia i chunt over and over I couldn't believe it,I smile again
GREAT