Where i was headed to I had no idea
All I knew was that
it was dark
Dark as my life
Dark as my soul

How ironic that I always end up in a dark place every single fucken time I mean can't I be in the light for once
Only people who are worth it stay in the light
Ouuuu right, I forgot that I'm worthless there abit
I walked for a while, feet cold and bare with blood all over ,I wondered why I was barefoot
I walked and walked and walked i had no idea where I'm going but I simply walked just because
I saw a light than started running towards it, I ran Like I never ran before
Just abit more storměigh I tell myself
Once I reached the source of the light i found a knife, pills,a gun,a rope, a blade and a letter, so I opened it with words written choose your death on it so I did as it was written i chose
So storměigh we have a knife, pills, a rope,a gun and a blade i told myself
What is the easiest way to die I asked myself
I've tried most of the things before
I tried rope already
I tried knife already
I tried blades already
Never tried a gun or pills though
With pills well I hate them that's why when I get sick I don't take tablets ever
But a gun,I never had money to afford it so I guess I'll take the gun to end myself than
It's settled
So I took it damh it's heavy than pressed it against my head than pulled the trigger while closing my eyes shut
1
2
3
Nothing
Ou I forgot to remove it from safety, stupid me
OK safety off now it's time
1
But dear,
There is sun after rain
Love after pain
The fuck is that
Who said that I turned around still with the gun in my hand looking for the source of the voice
Is there anyone here I call out
The sad thing is that nobody ever really knows how much someone is actually hurting , we could be standing next to someone who is really broken and is hurting and we wouldn't even know like yourself storměigh
Who the fuck are you and how do you know my name
Show yourself fucker
I know from the outside looking in storměigh it is hard to understand and I know from the inside it's hard to explain
I know, I have been there and I'm there still but I feel like you going through the most please let me help
I stopped talking about how I felt because I knew no one cared so what makes you think I'll trust you to help me I asked the unknown voice
I care
You are worth so much storměigh please stay strong and fight for you
I left out a tear run down
I don't think you understand how stressful it is to explain what's going on in your mind if you yourself don't know shit
When I shutdown I shut all the way down
I don't want to talk
I don't want to be surrounded by anyone
I don't want to answer my phone
And I don't want to be bothered
So please let me be
You are not a burden storměigh you are special
You are worth it
If only you could see yourself through my eyes ,you'd see you shine
I've learned in love and death ,we don't decide
So remember who you are and how the dark don't even know you
Call upon HIS name (jehovah )
Keep your eyes above the waves
Your soul will rest in HIS embrace
For you are HIS and HE is yours storměigh
So may spirit lead you
when your trust is without borders
Let you walk upon waters
Whenever HE will call you
Take yourself deeper than your feet could ever wander
And your faith will be made stronger
In the presence of our SAVIOR
Please open your eyes
I let few tears down till I was full blown crying now
I'm worth it
Someone thinks I'm worth it
All my life no one said that not even my family, so I just thought that was what everyone thought but whomever the unknown voice is said I'm worthy
I'm not a burden
The scene changed, I'm now it the ocean

Wait what happened to the forest, why am I in the middle of the ocean
And it's dark , justttt great note my sarcasm
No wait I can't swim
Fuck
So I automatically swing my arms up and down trying not to drown but that didn't help
I felt my body sink in the ocean, I went under I couldn't save myself I was drowning now
Slowly going down
I failed myself
I even failed the unknown voice
Tears came even though I was about to die how stupid right
I closed my eyes shut allowing myself to just die
Minutes later I felt two strong arms on my body carrying me while swimming
I gasped for air while coughing out the water
Looking at my surrounding I was met with two beautiful eyes I've ever seen, I don't even think having that shade of blue was legal
The sky and ocean gat nothing on them
Unknowns POV
It has been weeks since the 4th of April and I'm a bit worried
Storměigh is far away now so I can't save her anymore
I'll always find her in a pool of blood or hung herself with a rope
I know she suffers but my uncle and her family which is mine too will never let me talk to her
I've always drop her off the hospital and left her there
going back home hoping she is fine
I was there that day
I was there when I saw everything
I was there when-
I can't even say it in my mind that's how bad it was but what was even worse is that I let it happen i couldn't save her I'm useless
Now that she's far away i can't even communicate with her
I hope she is still alive
Derëk's POV
I've been here almost a month and it feels sad really since that day, the in counter with Pedro's friend I've never been the same, I see her in my dreams, I get flashbacks of that day almost every single day
I've not seen her for days but Pedro has ,he goes there every single day , she is lucky enough to have my cousin as her friend but as for me I don't know
It still feels weird , I mean I just met her well not meet meet because I found her in a freaken pool of freaken blood
I've been thinking of visiting her today, I don't know why but my heart don't feel right maybe because I pity her maybe that's the reason
So I told Pedro I'm going to visit her friend
Mateeeeeee really he said with a smile from ear to ear
I smiled too because his smile is that contagious
Yes mate I am if that's fine with you of course
Mate don't be stupid of course you can go even without my permission i wouldn't mind he said happily
OK mate thank you
Sure mate but what changed your mind , you'd usually not want to see her
That's not the whole truth , I'd go there secretly but I don't know why though, I just felt like being with her and when I hold her hand my heart beats twice as fast which I had no idea why it does that but it does, and I never told my brother about it because I feel embarrassed saying I went there secretly in the first place
Uhm mate just because I-I mean it's your friend and I'm just worried that's all
So you waited for weeks to go just because you cared he asked with a raised eyebrow
Yes mate , I don't know, I was just scared I lied
Clearly he did not buy my lie but went with it thank god
Sure anyways I'm off to school, good luck
I rolled my eyes good luck really Pedro I asked
YES, I KNOW YOU CARED ABOUT HER SO I HOPE SHE WAKES UP TODAY AND HOPEFULLY YOU THE FIRST PERSON SHE SEE he yelled
I froze in my place , he thinks i like her,
No no no no the fuck I don't, I just helped her or save her life whatever you Call it but not love ,I don't fucken love her
That would be silly, right, right?
I showered than got dressed
Than took off to the hospital
Hello Mr Iétś how are you today the receptionist said while flipping her hair , I mean lady it's not the right time to flirt right now
I'm great mem'
Is it visiting hours now?because I came here to see Ms Pattěn-Baćh
She looked at me still flirting but I ignored
Ou yes it is
You may go to her room Mr Iétś
I nod than left
How awkward was that ,she obviously didn't get the hint that I'm not interested, jeez ladies can be something really
I opened the door and entered
Than set at my usual place next to her bed

I looked at her for a while, her petite feature, her messy hair, her full lips I wounder if I could heal her just by kissing-
No man get it together Pedro's words are messing with your mind , why would you want to kiss someone you hardly knew
Get it together mate
I was hesitate on holding her hand but I did and out of nowhere my heart was beating twice as fast then I dropped the hand
Fuck I could have hurt her,stupid stupid stupid
So I took it again
This time ignoring how fast my heart is beating
Hey storměigh it's me derëk well I know you don't know me but I'm Pedro's cousin, well you might also not know who Pedro is but his the brave kid that tried to befriend you and actually saved your life
I've heard or read somewhere that when a person is in a coma they can actually hear you well not everyone but some so I hope you can hear me
I've been coming here everyday secretly and talking to you, you have helped me find a purpose and that purpose is to help you
I want to help you fight this inner battle you have going on inside you
I have been there but my battle was mostly lack of love
Growing up with rich and famous parents it's rare to find them at home , so I never got that love, all they do is send money and give me freedom that is all but with you i feel like your story is deeper , darker and you have lost all hope ,but I want to be your hope
I want to be able to help you get on your two feet
I'm not gonna lie i have thought of suicide, I felt like if I died my parents wouldn't care , they'll just make my burial super fancy with media news and camera crews everywhere
But I took myself to therapy and it was successful hence why I'm still alive but I left that centre and vowed to help anyone in need and right now Storměigh you are in need
But my dear
There is sun after rain
Love after pain
The sad thing is that nobody ever really knows how much someone is actually hurting ,we could be standing next to someone who is really broken and is hurting and we wouldn't even know like yourself storměigh
I know from the outside looking in storměigh it is hard to understand and I know from the inside it's hard to explain
I know, I have been there and I'm there still but I know you are going through the most so please please storměigh let me help you
I care
You are worth so much storměigh please stay strong and fight for you
You are not a burden storměigh you are special You are worth it
If only you could see yourself through my eyes ,you'd see you shine
I've learned in love and death ,we don't decide
So remember who you are and how the dark don't even know you
Call upon HIS name (jehovah )
Keep your eyes above the waves
Your soul will rest in HIS embrace
For you are HIS and HE is yours storměigh
So may spirit lead you
When your trust is without borders
Let you walk upon waters
Whenever HE will call you
Take yourself deeper than your feet could ever wander
And your faith will be made stronger
In the presence of our SAVIOR
Please open your eyes
I know i don't know you and you don't know me but my heart says a different story
My heart wants to help you
I want to help you
I really do care ,because fighting this battle alone will be hard
Just give me a sign any sign that you are listening
Please
I sigh than looked at her than froze
Sh-she a-sh she gave me a sign
Tears flowing at the side of her face
Sh-she she's crying
Meaning she can hear me ,she can actually hear me I said happily
He-hey storměigh it's still me derëk, I know you can hear me, I'll be here the whole day for you
Yes i know you find it weird that a stranger is talking to you and telling you that they will be here with you the whole day
I hope you wake up soon because you've been here for a while now and my brother is worried sick about you, he really cares about you and I hope you both become good friends because you deserve someone like him to look out for you maybe even me if you want
Lol my brother said you very rude but mostly to your bullies so I hope you take it easy on us when you wake up
I- Before I could finish my sentence storměigh moved her hand in mine
My god you about to wake up ,please wake up storm please wake up
Looking at the hands again they didn't move
I sigh
Please storm please
Seconds turned into minutes, minutes turned into hours and still no sign of storměigh waking up beside the signs she showed hours ago
Looking at the time I sigh it's almost dark
I actually stayed here the whole day , Pedro is probably worried about me so I sighed and stood up to leave
Cough-cough
Wait who's coughing because it was not me
Cough-cough
Wait a minute
I turn around only to meet gray eyes and froze like an idiot
Storměigh is awake
I still stood there like the fool that I am lost in her gray beautiful eyes
Who the fuck are you
Where the fuck am I
Why the fuck are you here she said abit annoyed
I see what Pedro meant by rude
So I said Well firstly beautiful lady I'm Derëk Iétś I'm Pedro's cousin a guy who wanted to be your friend at school
She looked confused than shocked
I guess she remembers him
And you are in the hospital uhm because well because we ,my cousin and I brought you here after your you know your attempt to uhm get well kill yourself i said while whispering the last part
And I'm here because I came to visit and I care
I tried reading her face it held few emotions before it ended there was confession ,shock,processing the information she got to anger than it turned cold
I stupidly added
We even clean your house, bought new things there and fixed abit I said with a smile thinking she'll appreciate it but she wore her cold face staring at me
Moment of silence
I cleared my throat
Uhm i-
Why
She asked before I could finish my sentence
Why what I asked because I was confused
Why we saved her life or why we cleaned her house or why we took here to the hospital
Why the fuck did you save me
Wow there language I joked but nope she's not having it
Uhm because it's the right thing to do an-
Right thing my ass ,why didn't you let me just die,you can clearly see i didn't want to be here but your stupid asses didn't fucken get the memo she spat angrily
Wait hold up ,my cousin and I saved your life and this is what you say I asked annoyed at her action
And who the fuck said come save me
What really storm-
Wait how the fuck do you know my name she asked abit shocked
I sigh like I said earlier my cousin is from your school , so he knows your name and told me I said
She just stared at me
I sighed again
So no thank you I asked
I don't know maybe thank us for saving you
How about fuck you instead
Sassy and stubborn, this will be interesting
OK storměigh you don't have to be rude I'm simply trying to-
Fuck youuuuuuuuuuuuu and stop saying my name it's annoying hearing it from you
Not gonna lie that hurts
Her words hurts
I sigh
I saw her trying to stand up but I ran and stopped her
Where are you going storměigh I asked
You not my mom
I know that but you can't leave yet you just woke up from a coma
I'll call the nurse wait here
Is there anyone there, nurseeeee I yell
I saw people running towards the room so I went back to Storměigh's bed
I was staring at her
Lord her eyes
you can get lost in them
I never knew Storms are this beautiful
I-
You called ou Mrs storměigh is awake
They stormed off to her checking her
Well I can see you are fine and healthy there's no problem at all you'll be discharged tomorrow
Your boyfriend here and his brother can take you home by tomorrow
You a really lucky girl
Your boyfriend here saved your life just in time the doctor said
Crap I forgot about that lie
Looking at storměigh she looked at me shocked and confused plus angry
I shrugged my shoulder
I'll explain later I mouthed but she was not having it
Doctor his n-
Babe we'll talk later ok I told her
She rolled her eyes as a response
OK and storměigh we'll have to talk about your attempt later on the doctor said
She than snapped her neck looking at me and luckily the doctor saw and saved me
No no young lady he did not tell me I simply put two and two together im a doctor remember now leave the poor boy alone he said laughing at her expression
I lifted my arms in surrender
This doctor will get me killed
With that he left
Before I could explain myself the door opened and in enters Pedro
Mate you still her- storměigh here said
She sighed
You awake my brother said
No shit sherlock
She said
There she goes again
Hey I'm Pedro an-
So I've heard she said abit irritated
Well -
Just tell me why the fuck is he my boyfriend and how do you know where I live and how on earth did you get in my house
Pedro and i both looked at each other
I sighed
Boy this is gonna be a long ass night