PREVIOUSLY
I'm in the dark again
Confused I ask myself where am I
Where am I going
Why am I here
Out of nowhere I felt pain
Ahhhhhh I screamed
The pain is too much but
Why am I in pain
Why
Than I felt something down my legs
With that the pain increased i felt like I was about to die
I started panicking
So this is how I'm going to die
Die of a pain i hardly knew what caused it
I felt something hard
Very hard
I couldn't anymore
I felt weak
I had no energy to fight anymore
Every move I made the pain did not stop
Ahhhhhhhh-i woke up screaming
I couldn't breath
I really couldn't breath
Isn't it what you wanted the voice in my head said
With that I sob even harder until they got low
My nightmares are back
Current
It has been months since I moved here,
My nightmares are back and every night I have them,every freaken night
I hardly sleep but when I do it will be a good 2-3hour sleep
I have bags under my eyes but that does not stop me from my studies or tests or even assignments shockingly enough I'm A'sing it
and at school is the same old story , I have no friends, I'd sit alone which I've always been used too,I'd be made fun off but since I've been having nightmares I hardly sleep which caused me to be a bitch at school
eventually people stopped bullying me because they became scared of me scared I might snap on them which could happen considering my act pervious months ago
I had my usual nightmare that day and I was totally in a bad mood and some fool took a wrong day to bully me so I released all my anger on the poor fool causing me to go to the head masters office
Luckily he understood me and was angry at the boy for bullying me but he also did not like my approach considering the fact that I accidentally purposely broke the bullies nose and arm and destroyed the school's equipments in the process
So I too got punished by staying 2 peaceful months at home
I was grateful for those two months
I had time to think of alot of things
I was told to go to therapy or anger management classes but I refused
I'd rather face my demons alone
Thank you
So 2 months are finally up,today is the day I go back to school
I stood up from my bed than lazily dragged my legs to the bathroom and took a shower, I had another nightmare and was too exhausted to even enjoy the shower
I stood there in the shower letting the cold water run down my body not caring if I froze to death
In this two months i was given
i had time to process everything even time to think of ways to kill myself but less painful of course
I mean no one cares about me
I got out of the shower
Applied some cream and wore a jean with a fitted gray shirt and my black wig
If I'm going back to school I'll go back as a bad bitch and ain't nobody finna tell me shit I'm done with the bull
Arriving at school
I cat walk to my locker with the usual gossips and mouths an eyes wide open in shock
Look she came back after what she did to that poor boy
Poor boy my ass I said in my head
Hot
Uhm the fuck is wrong with this hormonal shits
Look at her ,disgusting
Bitch I could give you a mirror if you want
How can she live with herself
Well since you asked I enjoy my company hence answering your question how I could live with myself
I mean look at me hunny I'm at whole snack
Lol
I heard footsteps approaching my locker so I closed it and looked up
Great
It's the gossip bitch and her army
So I walk the opposite side to avoid the bitch but was stopped
So I stopped
Face your demons you say in your mind and in this case the demon you should face is the bitch right in front of you
So you look her in the eyes so she can talk
She began
Why don't you go back to Africa you black bitch and leave us alone you slutty toothpick
Or better yet why don't you kill yourself
It will do you better anyways
I mean who would want to see themselves look like you
I almost and I mean almost punched her
Once she was done
I continuously looked at her with no emotions
Then said you know before threatening someone at least brush your teeth one
She gasp
Two I'm sure you saw what I did to a guy that's 6 foot imagine what i can do to you
Three come close to me one more time bitch with that I took two steps towards her than said I'll end you , you hear
Than stared at her army , I figured you all heard me
With that they all ran
Like I gave a fuck
I smiled
With earphones on
I sang the lyrics I'm listening in me head
I'm that bitchhhhh,
Still that bitchhhhh
Will forever be that bitchhhhh
Hahaha Megan Thee Stallion got me hyped up at times
I should probably stop smiling because I kinda look insane now
Of course I did not mean any of what I said I just said it to look badass
I mean that's my new persona now
4 hours of class
Next class will be an hour later so that gives me an hour to relax
So I went to the only relaxing place here
My secret hide out
Well it's not a secret at all but I love this place and no one hardly comes here which is a big shame since its really breathtaking
Just look at the view
So I take my sketchbook and start poring my feelings out in a form of a drawing
Yes I know how to draw
I can draw pretty well I must say
But hey , I'm not that perfect incase you get disappointed
Plus this are my raw emotions,
my emotions I keep inside me
My emotions I hardly let out
The same emotions once exposed will explode
I had plenty of emotions and plenty of time so I stated working on my drawings
Was so busy drawing I did not notice someone behind me
Unknowns POV
Yo Pedro what are you looking at
Pedro kept quiet and his friends followed his gaze Oooo the new girl they all said
Hey I'm Pedro
I'm majoring in education and
I'm from Namibia which is in Africa
I'm Cuban but my dad is Namibian
This is technically my last year at this university but I've not seen so much racism here except for this year when the new girl arrived
I'm African too but I guess they won't say anything because of my skin colour
The new girl has been here for months, and no one bothered to befriend her
My heart ache for her
I feel bad for her,
I tried approaching her Once or twice though but she'll never look my way
She'll simply stare at my shoes
it's like thats her way of seeing if there's someone in front of her
Once she notice that the is someone in front of her
she'll always walk away
Plus she always has her headsets on so even if I spoke she would not hear me
Two months ago I got to see her ugly side well that's what I think because she'd usually just stare at her bullies with no emotions but I'd see her put her hands into a fist
But on that day she changed
It's like something went off
she snapped and I have never seen her like that before not because I don't know her at all besides her name but because I've studied her reactions to her bullies and I guess that day she woke up on the wrong side of the bed
I mean she is was furious
She actually broke a 6foot guy's nose and arm
And I was scared
dang
she can actually fight
But that got her suspended and it has been two months
Now she is back
And I must say she actually looked fine but im not interested in her like that , I simply want to know the school's mystery person as they say and I was curious
Than sasha and her minions approached her
lord I hate them
They the one's that caused her pain too by bulling her alongside the school people too
I've known sasha just abit to know she is a spoil rich brat that belittles everyone
Why don't you go back to Africa black bitch and leave us alone you slutty toothpick
Or better yet why don't you kill yourself
It will do you better anyway
I mean who would want to see themselves look like you sasha said
I was about to defend her finally than I took few steps to where they were
But storměigh looked at her with no emotions as usual
Then said you know before threatening someone at least brush your teeth one
She gasp
Than I laughed
Damh girl
Two I'm sure you saw what I did to a guy that's 6 foot imagine what i can do to you
Three come close to be one more time bitch with that she took two steps towards her than said I'll end you , you hear
Than she stared at her army , I figured you all heard me she said
With that they all ran
Damhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
Than I saw her smile while walking towards her class
She hardly smile or show any form of emotions so I was shocked when I saw her smile for the first time
That gave me hope
meaning her heart is not so cold like people say
I saw her go to her usual place
No no you got it all wrong I don't stalk I just observe
She loves going there
I've noticed alot too
She always takes out a book and a pen or pencil
I guess it's her diary or something
My friends told me it's ok to be friends with her they won't mind
They too have seen how people treated her
So today I won't lose this chance
I went to her private hide out
Once I reached there than stood next to her
Oooo she draws
Wait the fuck she draws
She is really good
But what she was drawing was sad and gloomy
I wouldn't blame her though
People made her life a living hell here
I cleared my throat so she notice my presence but she didn't move
So I tapped her shoulder than she looked up and I met her eyes and froze
She does have beautiful gray eyes
She looked puzzled and confused
OK ok 3 emotions you saw today from her
So I cleared my throat
Uhm hi I'm Pedro
With that she went back to her work
I tapped her shoulder again
She looked up again but went back to her work than said
The fuck do you want from me
Uhm I froze, she actually responded even though she sounded irritated I'm glad she talked to me
Uhm I want to be your friend if that's fine with you of course I looked down because her beautiful gray eyes was burning holes at me
Friends she asked abit confused
Uhm yes I said
Than she smiled which I didn't expect but she later on asked why after staring at me which felt like hours
Because you interesting
And I hardly see you with people soo I just thought
Her smile faded and went back to her usual cold face
Dang I swear this girl could kill someone with her cold glare
Ou shit I probably said something to tick her off
She than stood up and said she don't need anyone than left
I stood there all alone feeling stupid
What did I do wrong now?
Storměigh's POV
Friends huh?
Someone wanted to be my friend
Pfft I guess what that guy felt is pity that's all or maybe he's just curious
He's cute though
But his not my type
Once I was done with class I went straight home
I continued sketching in my book though
Tomorrow is 4th of April I spoke
4-4
The day I changed for the worse
The sketch replicates how I felt that day
The day that gave me nightmares till today
I'm not even sure if I should go to school because I might end up hurting someone out of anger
I'm afraid I might hurt myself too
I'm just afraid
Finishing my drawing I later on finished my assignments no im no nerd i simply work hard for myself plus I have a scholarship
I don't want to ruin it
I then went to my room than laid on my bed
my mind and eyes refuse to sleep so I simply started at nothing in particular
My mind was blank
I felt numb
I felt no emotion what's so ever
Tomorrow is the 4th
My eyelid felt heavy around 3am
I dreamt of nothing thankfully because my mind remaind blank
With that I fell asleep