Chapter 15 - CHAPTER 14 : Boys only use...

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[𝚆𝙰𝚁𝙽𝙸𝙽𝙶, 𝚃𝙷𝙸𝚂 𝙲𝙷𝙰𝙿𝚃𝙴𝚁 𝙼𝙸𝙶𝙷𝚃 𝙲𝙾𝙽𝚃𝙰𝙸𝙽 𝚂𝙴𝚇𝚄𝙰𝙻 𝙲𝙾𝙽𝚃𝙴𝙽𝚃, 𝙽𝙾𝚃 𝚂𝚄𝙸𝚃𝙰𝙱𝙻𝙴 𝙵𝙾𝚁 𝚂𝙾𝙼𝙴 𝙰𝚄𝙳𝙸𝙴𝙽𝙲𝙴𝚂.

ᴘs. ɪ ᴛʀɪᴇᴅ ᴛᴏ ᴍᴀᴋᴇ ɪᴛ ᴀs ᴀᴘᴘʀᴏᴘʀɪᴀᴛᴇ ᴀs ᴘᴏssɪʙʟᴇ, ᴘʟᴇᴀsᴇ ᴅᴏɴ'ᴛ ᴄᴏᴍᴇ ᴀᴛ ᴍᴇʜ]

(ಥ﹏ಥ)

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You were in your room, watching a paranoid Jimin through your laptop screen.

Namjoon had come up with the idea of placing a camera in Jimin's room, to keep an eye on him, and locking the door from outside because Jimin insisted himself.

He was sitting in the middle of his bed, hugging his own knees to his chest, darting around at the corners of the room, from time to time.

You couldn't see him like that. It hurt. That's why you had to go to that tower and get rid of that necklace to get this pain over. You knew Jimin couldn't even trust himself anymore, that's the reason he begged the leader, not opening his door, to lock him in his own room until things get better. But they wouldn't get better. Not until the memory in the piece of jewelry is shattered.

[𝙱𝚄𝚉𝚉]

You look over at the side table, at your phone, picking it up.

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Kookie:

Y/N, are you still awake?

YOU:

yeah

Kookie:

Go to sleep, it's fine, I've got it. I'm watching over him

YOU:

Nah, it's okay, I can't sleep. 2 is better than one anyway. Did the others end up falling asleep or something?

Kookie:

Maybe. I don't blame them, They were probably really tired.

YOU:

Is your back feeling better...?

Kookie:

Yh. But you know, Y/N... I'm still angry at you. No. I'm still angry at your choices.

YOU:

OPPA. Didn't you see what happened to Jimin oppa? Things will just get worse if nothing is done.

Kookie:

But why do YOU have to do this?

YOU:

Because no one else will, don't you see that? Are you that blind?? UGH. You know what, I just need the toilet so I'm going to go. Goodnight, Jungkook oppa.

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You turn the phone off, annoyed, not even waiting for his response. But you didn't lie when you said, you needed the toilet. Quickly getting up, you almost run to your toilet, your bladder being full.

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Jungkook sighed, resting the back of his head on the chair he was sitting on, after reading your message. "Great..." he thought, he ended up pissing you off. He wasn't planning on doing that.

"Y/N... you stubborn little muffin.."

He found himself smiling.

"My stubborn little muffin..."

Closing his eyes, he couldn't help but have a picture of you in front of him.

It was hard. It was always hard for him to hide his feelings.

From the moment he saw you, he knew you were different. He would be lying if he said he hadn't dreamt about you, he didn't even care if it was just a fantasy.

You made him fill with intense, overwhelming optimistic emotions.

He didn't understand it either, it was as if he was left feeling like a giant dose of joy just hit him straight in the heart.

But then he found out that his best friend, Taehyung liked you too. And even though he thought over it again and again, in the end, the only thing that came in his head was to let you go... Since it turned out you liked Taehyung back.

He wanted to see you happy. And that didn't work out when you were him.

So he gave you up.

It wrecked him, of course, it did. It caused a big hole in his heart to form.

But, every time you smiled at him, every time you laughed with him... Everything turned into slow motion. There would be no one else there except the two of you. He wouldn't be able to look away. That hole would slowly be refilling.

It came to the point where he could say he was used to it. He was numb to the pain of you not being his. At the end of the day, for him, just your presence there was enough.

But now. There was no Taehyung. It was more complicated for him to keep his heart to himself now since there were no more excuses. Even if he manages to control his heart, how could he handle himself?

He wanted you.

No.

He needed you.

You were the cause of his euphoria.

But he still thought of this as wrong. He felt like, in a way, he was betraying his best friend.

He knew how much you loved Taehyung and how much Taehyung loved you back.

But he just wished that you knew how much he loved you... And how you didn't love him back. He lifted his head that was looking down at his lap, suddenly feeling weary. He sensed heaviness. All of a sudden he wanted just take a nap. He shook his head.

"Y/N is the only one awake... I shouldn't..."

As if he was going to pass out, he felt dizzy, his head was stumbling and before he knows it, he basically faints on his table.

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You wash your hands and walk out of the toilet, thinking that you might have disrespected Jungkook. Even though it was a bit irritating, he was only worried and concerned about you and he had every right to be. You were lucky that you had someone like him, someone that cared for you, this much. You glance at your phone that lay on your bed, abandoned.

You hold it up, reading the text "Goodnight Y/N..." from him and then wait, thinking of the right words to apologize.

You start to type...

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YOU:

Oppa... I'm sorry. I'm a bit frustrated. Didn't mean to hurt you...

Goodnight ♡

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You wait. And wait. And wait. But he doesn't come online or sees it.

𝘔𝘢𝘺𝘣𝘦 𝘩𝘦 𝘦𝘯𝘥𝘦𝘥 𝘶𝘱 𝘥𝘰𝘻𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘰𝘧𝘧 𝘰𝘶𝘵 𝘰𝘧 𝘦𝘹𝘩𝘢𝘶𝘴𝘵𝘪𝘰𝘯 𝘭𝘪𝘬𝘦 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘰𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘳𝘴...

You chuckle at the thought, he said "I've got it. I'm watching over him"

𝘤𝘶𝘵𝘦~

By "watching over him" you remember...

You turn your head to your laptop, getting startled by Jimin, now, standing right in front of the camera, glaring, looking like he was staring into your soul.

He tilts his head, then pulling his phone out.

[𝙱𝚄𝚉𝚉]

Within seconds, you get a message. You slowly grab your phone, part of you resisting.

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ChimChim:

Y/N, you're awake?

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Looking back at your laptop screen, you question if he was asking if you were awake or stating that you were awake.

You didn't know what to do.

As much as you wanted to answer back, something told you it wouldn't be a good idea to.

But you couldn't ignore that text. You couldn't ignore him.

You promised him, you wouldn't let him get hurt. So... wouldn't it hurt him if you didn't answer when he needed someone.

You sigh before typing back...

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YOU:

Yes chimmy oppa, are you okay?

ChimChim:

I feel really alone, Y/N...I just needed some company... I know you probably don't trust me.. But I really need someone right now.. Could you please come...? Only for a bit... Please?

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Your heart clenches. You just couldn't say, 'no'.

Without thinking twice, you get up, slowly walking out of your room, tiptoeing to Namjoon's. Making sure you don't make any creaking sounds caused by the floorboard, you freeze in front of his door, thinking of an excuse of what you were doing, in case he was still awake because you were sure he would ask.

The door was a little open already so you didn't have to worry about the noise turning the handle would make.

Taking a deep breath in, you push lightly, revealing Namjoon asleep on his desk.

You creep in, your eyes darting the keys next to the open laptop which screen showed Jimin waiting impatiently, sitting on his bed, waddling his feet, back and forth.

Grabbing the keys, you leisurely and quietly pace out, finally breathing.

You look over at Jimin's door, walking towards it, putting the key into the keyhole but hesitating to turn it.

A pained Jimin comes in front of your eyes and automatically, you turn the keys, deliberately turning the handle and the door unlocks.

The room was empty.

Confused, you step forward, walking in and look around.

Suddenly, someone hugs you from behind, making you gasp, scaring the living lights out of you.

"Sorry... Didn't mean to startle you..."

Jimin mutters, his voice muffled because he had his face buried in the side of you neck.

"It's fine..."

He let's go and you stall to his bed, sitting on it, facing him. He swiftly shuts the door and then sits next to you.

"I'm sorry you have to go through this, Jiminie oppa... I promise things will get better.. Just a little more wait..."

Jimin stays silent, gazing down at his small hands. You rub his back, he lifts his head up at you then looking back down.

"It... It was with these hands... I was strangling you, Y/N... I didn't even say sorry.."

He mumbles, his voice cracking. You quickly shake your head.

"You don't have to be sorry... It wasn't you who did it..."

This time he shakes his head.

"You don't get it, do you...? It was...

It was me..."

Your eyebrows crash together as your brain analysis his words. You swallow hard and as smirk appears on his lips.

Instantly getting up, you run for the door but he grasps on your wrist, pushing you with a great force on his bed, then sitting on top of you, provoking you to shriek. Your eyes meet ones that weren't his, he chuckles hard.

"աɦʏ ɖօ ʏօʊ ƈǟʀɛ ֆօ ʍʊƈɦ ǟɮօʊȶ ȶɦɛֆɛ ɮօʏֆ??"

("Why do you care so much about these boys??")

He asks, in a chilly voice. It was a mixture of a female and Jimin's, except a lot more hoarse. You couldn't even scream or cry, neither could you lift your arms, as if someone was harshly holding them to your sides.

"ʟɛȶ ʍɛ քʀօʋɛ, ǟʟʟ ȶɦɛʏ ɖօ ɨֆ ʊֆɛ..."

("Let me prove, all they do is use...")

All by itself, your shirt starts to unbutton.

"N-No! Please! O- OPPA!"

You yell out but before you could say anything further, he roughly presses his mouth onto yours. His lips were as soft as you would expect, only, it had a frigid touch to them that you knew didn't belong to him.

Once again, you were dumbfounded, as much as you wanted to jerk him off and move, you couldn't.

Your lips part open and you feel something from his mouth, warm but cold at the same time, enter in yours. You almost choke on the thing that slowly goes down your throat without a warning.

Jimin takes his lips off yours and goes down to the side of your neck, placing violent, wet kisses all over, sending chilly electric shocks up and down your body, probably causing marks to form. A small moan fights through you as you feel your heart pounding in your chest.

You wanted this to stop.

You wanted to wail and shout.

But something didn't allow you to.

Something wanted you to suffer through this and feel consumed.

Used.

Right now you were staring at the ceiling, unable to move as Jimin played with your torso, painting it with bruises of remorse. Your eyes widen, eventually showing a reaction as you feel your shorts slide down.

𝘰𝘩 𝘴𝘩*𝘵

Yanking yourself up, you grasp on your shirt covering your chest before you kick him but instead he briskly grabs your leg.

"CUT IT OUT!! PLEASE!"

You howl out, loud enough for your voice to reach the nearest rooms. Jimin pouts.

"But... I'm not done f*cking you yet..."

He whines in his normal voice but with not so normal eyes.

You pull yourself back before he gets on top of you again, clasping tightly onto your neck, suffocating you. Your feet thump on the bed as you frantically move, in attempt to get off his grip and be able to breathe again.

Hearing the loud banging on the door, gives you hope.

"HYUNG ITS LOCKED FROM INSIDE!"

"Y/N! GET OUT OF THE ROOM!"

"ռօա.. ȶɦǟȶ աօռȶ ɮɛ ɛǟֆʏ..."

("Now... That won't be easy...")

Jimin giggles out, letting go and you wheeze, catching your breathe.

"O-OPPA! HELP!"

You cry. Loud banging noises are heard until the door jerks open with Jungkook bursting in.

"Y/N-"

He couldn't do anything, he falls straight to the ground and so do he others behind him.

" ȶɦɛʀɛ... ռօա ռօ օռա աɨʟʟ ɖɨֆȶʊʀɮ ʊֆ..."

("There... Now no one will disturb us...")

Jimin throws himself on you and you find yourself in the same position from before.

He snatches your shorts of, takes his off and yanks your legs open, a loud whimper leaves your lips as you feel- You feel his- You feel it go in you- ( chdyrdrydrudry oh God I can't right now I'm so sorry iNeednamjesusAndHobiWatr and so do you )

"AaaaAAaah- J-Jimin, p-please aaghh- s- stop..."

You plead out, gasping while he- while he hIpThrUstS. He groans, going, so bad~ so hard~ please bABy~ CAlm dOwn~ (*house of cards plays*)(yeah ok I'll stop)

He groans, going too hard for your first time as you wail in pain.

This really wasn't how you imagined losing your virginity. You didn't know that just like this, your purity, your innocence would be snatched off you.

By now, you were panting and shivering, feeling weak like never before.

"J-imin... Aaah... plea-please... If not- if not for me... T-think how much- Aaaag.. how much T-Taehyung would be hurting... P-please... Aaaaarrgh I-I beg you... Don't let her con- control y-you..."

You manage to mumble out, then moaning at the unexpected, rigid stop.

Slowly lifting your head up, you see Jimin's wide eyes as he pulled himself away from you, gaining consciousness, he falls off the bed. But he doesn't get up, he lays there on the floor just like you lay there on the bed, sobbing.

With shaking hands, you wear your shorts again and just after, you notice Jungkook shifting. Holding his head, he sits up, confused, but his eyes find you and without wasting any time he picks himself up and runs to sprints to you.

Holding you up, firmly but so gently, his eyes widen as your shirt swings to your side, exposing all he Hickeys. You look down at the floor in shame, weeping, holding the shirt back together. Standing up, you feel extremely sore on your lower body and lose control over your legs almost falling but Jungkook carries you.

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[ 𝙸 𝚊𝚙𝚙𝚘𝚕𝚘𝚐𝚒𝚜𝚎 𝚒𝚗 𝚊𝚍𝚟𝚊𝚗𝚌𝚎 𝚒𝚏 𝚝𝚑𝚒𝚜 𝚌𝚑𝚊𝚙𝚝𝚎𝚛 𝚎𝚗𝚍𝚎𝚍 𝚞𝚙 𝚝𝚛𝚒𝚐𝚐𝚎𝚛𝚛𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚢𝚘𝚞, 𝙸 𝚔𝚗𝚘𝚠 𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝚝𝚑𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚠𝚊𝚜𝚗'𝚝 𝚛𝚎𝚊𝚕𝚕𝚢 𝚗𝚎𝚌𝚎𝚜𝚜𝚊𝚛𝚢 𝚋𝚞𝚝 𝙸 𝚝𝚑𝚘𝚞𝚐𝚑𝚝 𝚖𝚊𝚢𝚋𝚎 𝙸 𝚗𝚎𝚎𝚍𝚎𝚍 𝚝𝚘 𝚜𝚙𝚒𝚌𝚎 𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝚝𝚑𝚒𝚗𝚐𝚜 𝚊 𝚕𝚒𝚝𝚝𝚕𝚎- 𝙰 𝙻𝙸𝚃𝚃𝙻𝙴?? 𝔸ℕ𝕐𝕎𝔸𝕐𝕊, 𝙻𝙴𝙼𝙼𝙴 𝚐𝚄𝚊𝚛𝙰𝚗𝚝𝙴𝚎 𝚢𝚘𝚞 𝚝𝚑𝚊𝚝 𝚝𝚑𝚒𝚗𝚐𝚜 𝚕𝚒𝚔𝚎 𝚝𝚑𝚒𝚜 𝚠𝚒𝚕𝚕 𝚗𝚘𝚝 𝚑𝚊𝚙𝚙𝚎𝚗 𝚒𝚗 𝚏𝚞𝚛𝚝𝚑𝚎𝚛 𝚌𝚑𝚊𝚙𝚝𝚎𝚛𝚜... 𝚖𝚊𝚢𝚋𝚎. 𝙸 𝚑𝚘𝚙𝚎 𝙽𝚊𝚖𝚓𝚎𝚜𝚞𝚜 𝚌𝚕𝚎𝚊𝚗𝚎𝚜𝚎𝚜 𝚢𝚘𝚞𝚛s 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝚖𝚢 𝚎𝚢𝚎𝚜. 𝚐𝚘𝚘𝚍𝚋𝚢𝚎 𝚖𝚢 𝔹𝕦𝕟𝕟𝕚𝕖𝕤~]