i start rolling in a sweet pain. which was she giving me right now a sweet pain in stomach with a tickling sensetion.. its really making me mad about her. my body giveup on myself to fill this moments..
ah while laughing and filling this sensetion, my stomach start aching so much now.. i start roll on ground i cant bare this pain anymore.. i told her to stop but she said try to make her stop i start try to make her stop by grabing her hands but she defended it easily and make more tickling sensetion. i huge her to stop her hands.. and suddenly she stop tickling. suddenly my heart skip beat when she huge me i quickly huge her back (my heart atart getting crazy she is warm and make me fill secure.. like my mother.. after my mother she is only person make me secure and protected from this world i dont want anything after getting into her huge )i saw down.. she was busy to burry her face towards my chest.. near to my heart and start comparing our beats i know that both of our hearts are beating so fast cause they both get crazy when we both are with each other cuse we both are have fillings for each other. i can see her soul from her eyes what she thinks from her deep eyes..actually her eyes tell me about her, and right now her deep eyes are telling me that she qas thinking about something which stoping her from herself she want someting but she dont know did ahe desurve or not..
suddenly we hear sound of kai..
she push me and get stand to get inside, (really? to get inside or again. give up on me. why dont just she clear this.. that she love me or hate me ..) i grab her hand to stop her,)
here.....
i get stand to leave him but he stop me by grabing my hand. and ask me.
he : did you hear our heart beats.( he said in sad but worried tone)
me : no! (i should act innocent, ) why should i need to hear your hearteats. by the way lets go to eat i am sure your also hungry.
he : how much time your gonna act innocent like you dont know about anything , why are you hiding this?
me : what am i hiding from you, and iam not acting inoccent. its my real personality. .
he : ha ha what the joke. ha ha you better learn this from your family or is this your ability who you got when you born. to act innocent in serious things also.
me : i dont understand, what are you talking about but listen you jerk.. dont take my family between us. and lets go to eat. get up fast and leave my hand.. i turn back to relasemy hand and saw him crying.. were his fist on his lap is tighten.
me : lets go, get up fast.
sit here and lets clear today about this..
me :" about this"! there is nothing else to clear here.. so lets go.
he : why you act like this.WHY!
me : like this! what do you mean huh.
kai : did something happening here.
me : oh so always something should happend huh when we both are alone.. or you want to said that your not here so something should happen!
kai : why are you shouting on me. i just come here to take you both for dinner.
me : okey.. lets go and take him also.
he : am not hungry and am not coming.
me : come or else.
he : else what ?.
me : then..
he : hum.. then,
me : then stay here like this..if one night sleep with empty stomuch not make you die.
kai : TRUPTI ! it was to hursh. dont you talk like this about someone
(i leave from there without listening. (cause o dont have courage to face him.
yah he was right i am acting like this cause....
not him or nor me desurve each other.(he was perfect and i have lots of imperfections in me)
i am putting a defance wall between us up who stop making me fall for you.
i get inside to eat but he didnt come. i wait.....
(did i am to hursh on him, i never ever talk that he didn't get die with empty stomach, why i say that i am really out of my mind that time. i.. am hursh. i should control myself, ) he didnt come here...
he was hungry..