My heart raced. Will my desire come true? Will he propose to me? My heart started to yearn but I told myself not to be greedy. He got into trouble once and I didn't want him to get into trouble again because of me.
"Day before yesterday what made you to so busy?" I asked him.
"Nothing big, Thesika" he replied.
"If it is not big then why you don't say tell me?" I asked, challenging him.
"Ok just promise that you won't get worried and come running to my house," he said.
"Alex you are scaring me. Just tell me what happened" I said.
"You have not promised me yet, Thesika," he said. Tears almost gathered in my eyes but I could not say no to him.
"I will not come to your house unless you call me Alex, just tell me what happened," I said, worried.
"I met with an accident, Thesika. That is why I was not able to call you yesterday," he said.
"What? When? How? Why you didn't tell me Alex?"
I almost started to cry. My fear became true. This could not happen. If it had happened while he was talking to me riding on his bike then I wouldn't be able to forgive myself.
"Nothing happened to me, Thesika. I am fine, just some bruises. Don't get worried. I am fine. Just fell down because I was not able to balance my bike. I accelerated my bike on a heap of sand," I tried my best not to cry. "It happened after talking with you on the phone," he said. I started to cry. I broke into tears.
"I am sorry Alex," I said, sobbing.
"Thesika, are you crying?" he asked me.
"No I am not" I said, trying to control my emotions.
"I know your voice, Thesika. I said nothing happened to me. I am fine. Just don't cry," he said.
"I am sorry, Alex. It is my fault I should not have called you. I am really, really sorry Alex," I said.
"Hey!! It is not your fault. It happened because of my carelessness, not because of you. You will know nothing happened to me once you see me. Stop crying and sleep now. I will call you later. Just take rest and stop your crying," he said and the phone went blank.
He is getting into trouble because of me. I am not worthy of him. He is getting into danger because of me. I should not have desired for something more than what I deserve. My heart broke and I spent the remaining night crying and asking his forgiveness repeatedly