Why does every one care about my size. Why can't they see me as something more than that a number. Don't believe me, fine I'll prove it to you.
Too skinny, anorexic or just a slut looking for a good time. Finding a super daddy sounds nice right? No you are wrong! I have no conference in my own skin and always feel fat, and that's why I decided to quit eating. Not true! I'm noth injng like that. I work my butt off to be the best I can be, but no one see that l.
Me being fat by choice or doing nothing to change myself for the better. I mean I am trying my best to change. And it's not for other people that I'm doing this. I do this for myself, but no one can see that and I hate it.
I don't do this for someone in mind. I do it for myself, I try my best but no matter how many smiles I show or how many times I say I'm fine people still say I'm not and everything I am doing is for nothing. Well I want to tell them how wrong they are.
But some times all that hate brings me so down and sad that I just want to give up in myself and in life. Is it wrong to live my own life and not having to worry about what other people think about my next move. All day every day is the same thing. All I can do is hope that tomorrow will be a better day and that someone somewhere will see the real me.
Love J.