Hindi ko alam kung tama ba ang ginawa kong "confession" sa kaniya kanina. I flopped over my bed and face-palmed when I got inside my room. My thoughts rolled repeatingly inside my shithead and I was like, "Damn! Bakit mo hinalikan Loki? Aamin ka lang dapat ng feelings mo, hanggang doon lang. But, you freakin' jerk crossed the line!" Muli akong umahon sa pagkakasalampak sa aking kama at umupo na naka-lotus position. Buti na lamang at mahimbing ang tulog ng mga buwisit kong mga kaibigan, kung hindi pagkakaisahan na naman ako ng mga ito, lalo na si Calum. I drew a sigh and ran a hand through my hair. Yeah, I kissed her, but I didn't took an advantage of her. Sinunod ko lamang kung ano ang itinatakbo ng isip at puso ko. And, that kiss. My kiss was pure and it was really meant for her. Actually, my heart raced wildly matapos ko siyang halikan kaya saglit ko lamang siyang natitigan sa mata, then I fixated my eyes everywhere. That mixed emotion crappy thing hitted me earlier. Magkahalong kaba at takot ang naramdaman ko na baka ma-turn off siya sa akin at i-reject niya ako, but he just smiled brightly at me kaya mas lalong dumagundong ang puso ko. Gusto ko sana siyang halikan ulit, pero nilamon na ako ng hiya at baka isipin pa niya na umaabuso na ako.
Sa totoo lang, No Girlfriend Since Birth ako. Kahit alam ko na maraming nagkakandarapang babae sa akin sa academy, hindi ako nag-abala na patulan sila, kahit si Alice Whittaker na nagpadala pa ng mga chocolates at face-to-face na nag-confess sa akin last New Year's eve of 2018. Kaya siguro, ganoon na lamang ang approach niya kay Mira, dahil parati kaming magkasama. Probably, kaya I continued to reject those confessions from other ladies, it was because, I am dredging something from a girl, and I found her coincidentally in the human world. That grotesque girl. Pero, I admit she was kind of attractive and ravishing in some ways, not only her physical features, but also her attitude. A smile lined on my lips as I pictured Mira's face on my mind. However, there were things that I wanted to cleared up. I knew in the first place that Rincewind had his eyes set on her. Kailan? Simula noong unang training session namin ni Mira. That time, hindi pa masyadong umuusbong itong pagtingin ko sa kaniya, and I saw him talking and spending time with her. I learned also that he unsealed Mira's hidden magic that time. Siya lang naman kasi sa amin dalawa ang nakamana ng kakayahan ni lola kaya hindi na ako nagtaka kung bakit nakapaglabas ng magic si Mira noong unang examination niya. Kaya heto, sa araw-araw na nagkakalapit si Rincewind at Mira, may kung anong pumipiga sa dibdib ko at gusto ko silang paghiwalayin. Oo, nagseselos ako. Until this damn jealousy preoccupied me and later on, it turned out to be love.
Hanggang sa nalaman ko mismo kay Lancelot Irvin at sa kanilang dalawa na anak siya ng reyna. Matagal ko ng kutob 'yon pero hindi ko iyon binigyang pansin. Oo, galit ako kay Lady Minerva at sa kaniyang asawa na si Lord Willow. Kung hindi dahil sa kanila, hindi ako mauulila ng maaga. But, I need to learn this shitty acceptance thing and I should not let anger corrupt my heart and my mind. Pinakawalan ko na lahat ng sama ng loob ko, dahil kung hindi ko iyon gagawin, my love for her will turn into frustration and hatred, and I don't want that to happen. Isa pa, someone will take her away from me kapag ako ang lumayo. Lumingon ako kay Rincewind na mukhang mahimbing ang pagtulog. Kahit pinsan kita, I will never give you the chance to be with her. If I will do that, Mira Luna will be my greatest regret that ever happened in my life.
Napabuga ako ng hininga. Then, I lifted my right hand and stared at my blue-stoned ring. In fact, this ring was given to me by my grandmother. Presumably, you know her. Honestly, she gave me this last New Year's eve, matapos kong i-reject ang confession ni Alice sa akin. She told me that this ring belonged to my father, at dagli ko naman itong isinuot. Bukod doon, ipinaliwanag din sa akin ni lola ang tungkol sa babaeng ipinagkasundo sa akin noong sanggol pa lamang ako, at may kinalaman ito sa singsing. Sabi ni lola, once this ring glowed a vibrant light, itinuturo nito kung sino ang babaeng ipinagkasundo sa akin. In short, ang babaeng pakakasalan ko. Tatlong beses lamang itong magliliwanag at hindi na mauulit pa, so I should pay attention to it everytime I met "ladies". Fortunately, hindi pa naman ito nagliwanag, not until I met her in the human world. Akala ko naman may ibang kakayahan pa ang singsing na ito dahil nagkataon na nagliwanag ito noong tinalo ko ang hellhound sa human world. Kaso, I realized na kasama ko siya that time, ngunit, hindi ko iyon inintindi. This time, after we shared that fleeting yet indelible kiss, kahit para siyang tuod noong hinalikan ko siya, I noticed my ring gave off a wisp of vibrant light. I glimpsed instantly at her innocent and charming beauty. Could it be you? Mira Luna Crescencia?