I was born blind, the doctors told Mama I would never see. But that night I saw clear as day. I was young and sick when I first saw him, I was walking outside with my sweater. It gets cold in Gena, I knew that but for some reason I was out. I took a turn into the playground and there he was. Standing there, tall with olive skin, without a care in the world. Even tho I was standing right there, he didn't notice me it was like I was invisible. I begin to feel a loneliness creep up on me, like something I've never felt before.

The closer i get the more i can feel a warmth radiate off him. It was like a sudden surge of energy, it was overwhelming. Yet i couldn't help myself but think that he was the most beautiful creature i've ever seen. I was in awh at how calm and collected he was in the cold. I'd starred at him for what felt like an hour. Untile sudden he turns around, looking me dead in the eyes. And although he said nothing at the time his eyes said a thousand words. Telling a story of how he knew the pain I was going through. How he would protect me and take me away so that I could just fall apart in his arms. He started to get closer letting the light reflect off his skin then I realized that he was actually a she. And that she was even more beautiful than I thought. I gaze into her eyes with hope and full hearted love. Even tho I was young I could tell there was no mistaking it. She got closer and pulled me in , hugging me tightly as she whispered "it's all gonna be ok".

At that moment I can say I honestly felt safe. I didn't care about how when I'd get home ,I'd get beaten and yelled at. I was happy and safe in the beautiful strangers arms. I'd begin to suddenly close my eyes and drift away. Then before I knew it i was in bed at home. 6 years have passed, I'm 15 and I'm discovering myself. I found out that I'm lesbian and because of my abuse,I have what you'd call a head space. It's considered a little space (age regression) it's when you go back to a smaller age. It's a way to cope, there's a whole communication and no it's not sexually. Although some people's are mine isn't, just gotta make that know. Anyway my age regression is from 2-5. I don't have a mommy or babysitter but, I do have lots of friends who have a little space. Welp let's hop into the story of my life.