(Trying something new for motivation)
After school kaden gave me a big hug that made me feel lighter. If I'm being honest I was on edge, I'm only 15 so I wasn't supposed to take the test yet. Well at least not without permission, but I wanted to find out. Fully aware of the consequences that came after. When I get home I feel my stomach sink in as I, slowly open the door. I try my best not to make a sound and run up the stairs. But I'm stopped mid-way by a big bang. "ALEYONA GET DOWN HERE NOW",the sound of her screaming weakens me. I slowly walk down the stairs and find my mom sitting in the kitchen. I get closer preparing myself for the worse, "why didn't you tell me?". "I-I was g-going t-to.." "WHEN?NEVER?", I stand and listen. Flinching with every movement she makes waiting for the hit. Until ~slap~ she hits me out of nowhere and it stings. She sends me to my room and I quickly run there.
When I reach my room I lock the door and fall apart. Hot tears fall down my face as I lay crawled up on the floor. "Why..do I have to go through this", I cry out hoping desperately for no one to hear. I'm so scared and alone it hurts, the aching pain in my chest grows tighter. I close my eyes trying to go to my happy place but I can't find it. I start to panic and wrap my arms around me. Then I start to feel them, her arms. Wrapped around me, playfully making circles,telling me everything is ok. The sound of Kadens voice sooths me and I slowly calm down. Before I know it my eyes grow heavy and I fall asleep.
~Kadens pov:
Once I let go of aleyona I feel this sense of lost. I could see the fear and worry displayed on her face. I so desperately wanted to hold her, if nothing more to comfort her. I know she's worried if we're fated. I know her anxiety is getting to her, and I know she didn't ask her mom to do the test. Which fears me the most, I know and it hurts. You see I've know aleyona since we were kids. She may not remember but I met her once. She was so small and fragile, covered in bruises . It was obvious what was happening to her ,anyone could tell. But no one said anything, she just suffered. At the time I was just visiting family so I wanted to see gena and, how mysterious it was. I had passed her on the street, her eyes were glossy as she struggled to catch up with her mom. I was told to mind your so I kept walking even though, I wanted to turn around. I went out again at night to soak in the moonlight, knowing I should be home. I didn't care really though, it was like someone was waiting for me. So I stood there, in the park for what felt like an hour. Until she stumbled upon me , I noticed her but I said nothing. She just stared at me saying nothing for awhile. Then a feeling of longing took over me and I turned around. And met those eyes, those glossy eyes, craving affection, needing attention. She was so close I could feel the heat off of her, I wanted to..no needed to help her. I was quite for awhile, not sure what to do. All I wanted was for her eyes to be clear, for her to feel safe. I'm not sure why but I could feel every inch of her pain, as if it were mine. Then i hugged her and almost fell apart with her. The over whelming pain I felt that night stayed with me forever.
I was unable to back then but now I want to protect her. When I get home I get a snack and go to my room. I lay on the floor taking in the silence of the big empty house. I can't seem to get her of my mind, and I'm alone with my thoughts. "Huhuhu", this is bad..I don't like this..this fear, this overpowering loneliness when she's not here. When I can't see her and know she is or if she's ok. What is this? it's...I don't want it but..I want her. I'm so confused I just wanna protect her, so why..why does this hurt so much?
After what felt like an hour of painful thoughts I take out my phone. I got to my explore page and request to follow aleyona on ig. After what felt like hours she accepts, at that moment my heart grew light. I'm happy! I wanna talk to her, but I don't wanna seem pushy. Seeing how to her we only just met a day ago. I wait and then"ding" she messages me, I open it and read. ~Hey it's me aley haha um just wanted to talk to you if that's ok?~. With that I can tell she seems nerves and that if I dont reply right away she'll delete it."Haha how cute" I reply and from there we start talking. She told me about how she was feeling honestly, once I asked. I was sad, not gonna lie I wanna be there for her. Other then that we talk about anime and life. Just finding any reason to talk to each other.
As we talk I ask to video chat, we don't have to turn on the camera if she didn't want to. She agreed and we did, uh it's so nice to hear her voice. I can hear how happy she is and become more relaxed. She tells me how she was coloring something, she drew and wanted to show me. When she did I'm amazed, at how talented she is "good job aley". When I say this aley's voice slips up" t-thank wuw", it so cute ^////^. There's a pause then aley say " I ment thank you ". As she speaks I can hear the embarrassment in her voice. And for some reason I wanna hear it again, I get this urge to teas her. Wait no..don't fall into desire ok, I bite my lip and look up. Try to distract myself with the now green wall. It was..was it white? I just cant see anything but light greens and maybe blues.