Kard and I's date night went well. I can't seem to really digest that he's so much more romantic that I have ideally seen in my mind.
Pagkabukas ko ng pinto sa aking kwarto sa The Kingdom, nakita ko agad na natutulog si Alfred sa kama at nakahiga sa kanya si Kari.
"They played a lot when Kari was awake." Balita sa akin ni Ryn Do.
Tumango ako at lumapit sa kama para kunin si Baby Kari. I kissed her forehead and let her be carried by her father. Pagtapos pinitik ko ang noo ni Alfred.
"Hina Yu..." pinataas ko ang aking kilay sa parang mura ni Alfred nang maalimpungatan siya.
"Ah nandito na pala kayo," sabi niya nang mahimasmasan siya.
"Larga na kayo ni Ryn Do, gabi na." Tumango siya pero bago siya makaalis sa kama, I unconsciously embraced him.
He went stiff and magsasalita sana siya pero inunahan ko na. "Thanks, Alfred, you did well."
Bago pa ako kumawala sa kanya, binulong ko sa kanya na: "I love you too with all my heart, Alfred." I finally looked at him and he seems shocked.
Natawa ako ng konti at nginitian si Kard.
"Tara na, Alfred chicken." Nang magka-wisyo na si Alfred, tinignan niya ako.
I looked at him with the same gaze as he was doing to me.
Mukhang may hinagpis at pagka-sayang na emosyon ang nakita ko sa kanyang mukha.
The eyes never lie and right now his eyes are questioning me. 'Bakit hindi naging tayo hanggang huli? Sana tayo na lang ang mag-asawa ngayon.'
Napalunok akp nang maisip ko ang mga yun.
Gusto ko maiyak dahil mahal ko na siya, hindi ko sigurado kung kailan ko napagtanto.
Yung kanina, nagmula yun sa inner thoughts ko na dapat hindi ko na isinatinig sa kanya.
Mukhang mali talaga. I am already married to Kard Saige. My dream guy since highschool.
I thought if I get to marry him, and have his child, magiging masaya at kuntento na ako.
But, here I am having doubts. Still, I can never undo my past. All I can do now is be a good wife and mother. Kari has changed the way I look at life. I cherish her everyday and I want to give her a complete family so I decided,
"I think we should sever our friendship, Alfred Beet."