I pre-recorded a video starring me and my confession. Pwede ko naman siya gawin in person sa harap ng mga employees pero that would stop my brain from working.
I have fear of crowds and public places kaya sobrang gusto ko lang talaga na kayanin lahat na hindi masyado nagpapatulong kahit kanino.
I didn't record this video to make myself as a proud person I made it to make others understand why I am who I am.
I gave the video to William.
"You don't have to do these you know."
l smiled at him, "I feel the need to, at least I need to let them know where I'm coming from." He nodded and he sent a copy to his assistant's computer. "Invite every employees to one of our conference room that could accumulate them or better yet just let them all be at The Hall instead. Prepare a projector and screen for them to watch the video."
I left his office as soon as he was done telling his assistant everything he needs to do.
I was kinda relieved yet nervous if I'm going to be alright after all this trial.
Days later, I was surprised that almost all the employees I encountered that day, was greeting me with, "Good day, Mistress!"
And I just nodded at them.
"I was there when they watched the video."
William told me when we had our one-on-one meeting. Although his assistant was there to take minutes. I just considered it as just the two of us kasi kami ang nag-uusap and nag-iinteract.
"You were there to clarify for me?" I asked not even hesitating the idea.
"Well yeah, you know kasi people are kinda difficult to educate about others' personality and traits, lalo na kung katulad mo."
I pouted yet didn't say anything.
"Ayos naman, na di mo sila kinikibo pero they are unlike the both of us... and Keanu here."
I looked at Keanu. He nodded and continued typing the minutes. Gosh! Pati ba yung tungkol sa out of work info, itatype niya?
"Don't worry Mistress, hindi ko ilalabas kahit kanino ang nangyari dito sa conference room."
Napangiwi ako at napatingin kay William. "Uh, tapos?" I'm still on my mini panic attack right now.
"Keanu, you may leave first, send me the minutes of our conversation about work and just save the personal one to your computer."
He closed his laptop and finally left the room.
"Water?" He pointed a styro cup filled with water in front of me. Earlier, Keanu the assistant, gave us a cup of water.
I was kinda pre-occupied to take a sip.
So now, I am sipping some of the water.
After that I breathed some air. "Feeling better?"
Tumango ako. "So as I was saying, karamihan sa atin ay marunong makisama sa iba at makipagkaibigan."
I looked at him still. "Pero kailangan rin pala natin kumibo for them to not feel like they are ignored just because we are educated more than them." I bit my lips inward. "So you're saying that I need to be kind to them kahit na I see them as nuisance when I let them see me work?"
He blinked at me twice, "You don't need to, kasi from now on kahit gusto mo ikaw ang gumawa, sa iba ko na ipapagawa."
I smiled, "To avoid conflict." I like my boss.
But never in a romantic way. I am platonic with him. "So, date tayo?"
I rolled my eyes, "Heh! Si Martina yayain mo, gusto ka nun, never ako."
"Pogi naman ako ah?" he insisted.
Tumawa na lang ako at tumawa rin siya.
Simula nung araw na yun nag-continue ako na maging iwas sa mga employees ng The Kingdom. Although, they acknowledge me every time they see me.
"Ayos ah, para ka pa lang royalty dito huh?"
Si Ryn Do nung one time na dumalaw sila ni Alfred Beet. "Hindi naman, nagiging polite lang sila sa akin kasi napagsabihan na sila ni William."
"Iba kasi talaga tayong mga may kaya kaysa sa kanila kaya na-iintimidate sila."
May point si Alfred sa nasabi niya. But, well I couldn't care less, as long as I'm happy with what I do, others' opinion doesn't bother me unless pinagchichismisan na ako. Tapos nasa hearing range ko pa. Dun tlga ako nabibwisit at gusto ko sila patulan.
Pinipigilan ko lang kasi I know better.
Buti at ginawa ko yung video na yun at kinlarify ni William ang tungkol sa ugali ko.
I have a temperamental issues kaya naman pili lang talaga ang nakaka-interact at pwede makipag-usap sa akin.
During one of my medical exams, they examined every part of me.
They discovered na my brain is normal and I'm physically healthy.
Yet my psychological exams almost failed me. "According to the IQ and EQ tests you took, your IQ is average and EQ is very high.
You need to take care of your mental health more because you might have mood swings more and anger issues." I let the Doctor in charge, talk more, "Well, you have high empathy. You just need to be aware that we doctors are always concerned about our patients' health."
I nodded, "So what will be my problem?"
He cleared his throat, "You are a candidate for Psychopathic and Sociopathic tendencies."*
*foot note: I researched about psychopath and sociopath through watching vids related to them. So I cannot guarantee that what I learned is true or not. Basta if curious do your own research. I'm just telling a story and how I perceive the character and her possible flaws. This is purely fictional.*
"Ah, I understand." After ko matapos sa doctor's appointment na yun, muntik na ako mabuwal sa sahig dahil sa nalaman ko.
"Mistress, I'm here, you'll be fine."
I looked at Dimitri. "Yes, let's go back."
Right now, I have experienced life as difficult and unfair, but I kept on fighting.
I have my special people to lean on, so I can't go berserk fully. It's just that today is again too overwhelming.
"Hi Raine Quelly!" I looked up at the person who caught my attention.
"Did you miss me?"