Hillary's POV
I and Sky are classmates in all subjects. Tss. Something keeps on playing with us, but whatever, I no longer care! It's been how many days that I'd continued avoiding him. Yes, I'd decided to be in this kind of setup. I'd decided to stop asking Veia to befriend with Sky again. I give her Sky's whole attention like what she wants. I do greet him, I smiled at him, but I no longer want to have a long conversation with him. I'll stick to that kind of scene until I graduate. In Medical School, I don't want us to be in one place again.
Tama na.
I want to live peacefully, I want to study with enjoyment, and not this kind of situation I've been these days, so stressful.
"Gold," Clarkson called me. We're now at Sweet Berry's cafe, waiting for Andrei, we'll have a short discussion for our report by next week.
"Hmm?" I replied as I sip my Cappuccino.
"Sky approached me earlier," he uttered. I looked at him and he's staring at me so serious, "asking me if he did something wrong," he added.
Inalis ko 'yong paningin ko sa kaniya. Hindi ko alam kung ano 'yong sasabihin ko.
"Gold, you're making him feel so confused. You two were fine, tapos biglang iniiwasan mo na naman siya. You should tell him your reason why you're avoiding him para naman mapanatag siya," he said.
"Hindi ko kayang sabihin sa kaniya 'yong reason, Clarkson," I replied, honestly.
His brows knitted, "ano ba kasi 'yong reason, Gold? Dahil na naman do'n sa Veia na 'yon?" he asked.
I nodded, "he'll forget this soon," I replied.
"You think so? Kasi para sa'kin 'di niya 'to agad makakalimutan, Gold. He seems so affected of your doing. I always caught him staring at you, tapos napapabuntong-hininga na lang siya. Gold, I can feel it, nasasaktan siya ginagawa mo. I may not know Sky that much, I haven't seen how he valued your friendship, but I'm certain, Gold, he doesn't want to end it up like this."
Nakakainis naman 'tong si Clarkson! He's damn messing my mind!!
"Ikaw na rin naman 'yong nagsabi, 'di ba, that you're with each other for a long month sharing the same feelings-pain, sadness, and happiness. Kaya, Gold, Sky is now attached in you. At sobrang hirap sa kaniya na iniiwasan mo siya at 'di niya alam 'yong rason."
Nahihirapan din naman ako, ah, pero I am doing this for everyone's betterment.
"Kung gusto mo na talagang tapusin 'yong friendship niyo baka naman sabihin mo muna sa kaniya 'yong rason mo."
"Natatakot kasi ako Clarkson. Natatakot ako sa kung ano ang mangyayari kapag sinabi ko 'yon sa kaniya."
"Sa'n ka ba natatakot, magalit siya sa'yo dahil sinunod mo 'yong gusto ng best friend niya without him knowing o magalit siya sa best friend niya for telling you to avoid him?"
"Both."
"Gold, lilipas din naman 'yong galit, the important is he knows the reason."
"But, I am not sure if he'll agree with my decision na tuluyan na nga siyang iwasan dahil 'yon ang gusto ko."
"Huwag muna 'yan ang isipin mo ang isipin mo kung sasabihin mo ba 'yong rason o hindi."
ARGH!!! I DON'T KNOW! I REALLY DON'T KNOW!
Pwede bang pakirewind na lang 'yong mga panahon na hindi ko pa pinapansin si sky?! Mas gusto ko pa 'yon kaysa sa ganito, eh!
Sky's POV
I am at my room, lying in bed, staring at the ceiling.
'What have I done?' I asked myself again and again.
We're totally good. No'ng debut ng kapatid ni Andrei nagtatawanan pa kami and we'd talk a lot. Tapos after no'n, wala na! We became nothing again. I'm so damn confused! Ano bang nagawa ko?
I didn't notice that my tears are now falling. Hillary's a good friend, I valued our friendship so damn much! Aren't we in the same boat? Didn't she value our friendship?
Damn!!
"Sky," Mom knocks afterward, then she went inside, "tara na, let's have dinner before you sleep," she said.
I took a deep breath, "Mom, I'm sorry, but I'm not hungry," I replied.
"Bakit? Kumain ka na ba?" she sat in my bed.
I shook my head, "wala po akong gana, Mom," I uttered.
She suddenly held my forehead, "you're not sick, but it seems like your eyes are so sad, Sky, what happened?" she asked so worriedly.
Naupo na rin ako sa kama and I hugged her too soon, then I asked, "why are girls so hard to understand, Mom?"
She laughed as she messed my hair, "ano ba kasing gusto mong maintindihan?" she asked.
"Why she's avoiding me," I replied. "Two weeks after Sky's burial, Mom, she started avoiding me. Tapos naging okay na kami after four months. Tapos ngayon iniiwasan na naman niya ako and I don't even know why! I've been trying to open it up with her, pero kapag nag-uumpisa na akong magsalita aalis na siya agad," I added.
"Hmm, baka gusto ka niya at kailangan ka niyang iwasan kasi baka may nasasaktan and she doesn't want that person to be in pain," she said.
I shook my head. Hillary likes another man, and that's Andrei. I can clearly see it through her eyes that she's now accepting his feelings. They're damn sweet these days.
"Eh, ano?" Mom's getting confused, too.
"Iyon na nga ho, 'yan 'yong 'di ko maintindhan."
"Wait for the right time. Mapag-uusapan niyo rin 'yan. Everything has a right time, Sky."
Kailan pa? Eh, nahihirapan na ako ng sobra!
"But for now, you really need to eat, Son," she then smiled at me, "I'll head first, sunod ka agad," she then went out after kissing my hair.
I sighed for the nth time!
I'm rooting for that right time! Sana naman dumating ka agad.