"Are you sure that you are ready for this? I mean, you only got here today. I honestly don't know anything about you and you know nothing about me other than the fact that I am the Alpha here. You don't know the other pack members either. What if you don't like them? What if you are not comfortable around them?"
Even though Nicolas didn't mean to scare Amara away but his words were indicating the same thing.
"I can't tell where I am going to like them or not if I don't meet them first," Amara said while playing with her fingers.
By this action of hers, Nicolas could guess that she was feeling nervous and he assumed that the reason behind her getting so nervous was his words.
"You can say no if you want to. I won't mind plus the pack members would never question anything I do. They have enough respect for me and they also trust me enough to know that I would never do anything wrong. At least intentionally," Nicolas said with enough confidence.
"I honestly don't know. I just came here. I am a stranger here and after getting betrayed by the people I was so close to, well my father and the packs top important persons since it was their responsibility to protect me,to keep me safe, I don't know if I would be able to trust someone this soon," she paused.
"If I go before the others now, all I am going to see is faces of strangers who won't even try to save me if I am dying. Plus I am afraid that if the people I ran away from finds out about me somehow then they are going to kill me. I don't want to die yet. I still want to live, I want to see this entire world, find happiness within this nature, have a family of my own. I have so many to dreams to complete."
She was looking down while saying all of these. Nicolas could sense that she was feeling sad. He didn't like her being sad.
Even since he has met her, she was either scared, sad or emotionless. He didn't like these emotions on her but then again, these were her emotions.
He had to accept her with everything inside of her and that includes her trauma, sadness, anger, happiness, anxiety and the list goes on.
He has to accept her shortcomings and also her perfections.
Yet he didn't like her getting upset. He wanted her to smile.
He wanted to see how she looks while smiling. She is already so beautiful without smiling, she must be more good-looking while smiling is what he was thinking.
"Your dreams will surely get fulfilled. I will help you as much as I can. You don't have to worry so much and about being protected here, you are under my wing now. I will die fighting for you if I have to. If anyone wants to hurt you, they have to fight with me first," Nicolas said with a serious look.
Amara couldn't help but blush and wonder why he was giving her so much priority at the same time.
They have only met each other today. They didn't ever know about each other's existence before that, not even sure whether someone with their name existed or not.
But whatever it was, she was happy. She wanted to gain his trust. She thought that it was going to be super hard given the rumors she has heard about him.
According to the rumors, he is so cold-hearted that he could kill anyone without giving much thought about it. It was also said that he once killed a old friend of his father because he was caught betraying them.
He was well-known for his unforgiving nature. It was also said that he never trusts anyone easily. It takes a long time for someone to actually gain his trust.
As a summary of everything she has heard about him, it could be said that she has entered into the lions den.
If he catches her before her mission is done then the chances of her getting killed without getting any chance to explain herself was higher than anything else.
He might give her the scariest death possible since she also belongs to the enemy pack.
She was kind of scared for her life but the decision has already been made. She can't go back now.
It's either kill or get killed. Either way, she won't have any regrets left because she knows that she has tried her best.
At least, she is going to be happy with the fact that she has fought till the very end.
"And what if you actually end up getting killed because of this entire scenario?" She asked.
For some weird reason, she liked him yet hates him at the same time.
She is here because she hates but his behavior isn't letting her hate him.
He doesn't smile much is what the rumors said.
He doesn't care about others emotions or what they think is what the rumors said.
He isn't softhearted and won't bother trying to understand what others are going through. He would directly force others into doing what he wants them to do is what the rumors said.
He doesn't think twice before killing someone if they enter his territory is what the rumors said.
He don't bother trying to save someone unless they belong to his pack is what the rumors said.
Yet she hasn't been here for more than one hour and all of these turned out to be rumors.
The moment he saw her, he knew that she was carrying danger with herself yet he didn't kill her.
She could see this in his eyes. She knew that he knew she wasn't here because some pack members chased her or tried to se*ually a*sault her.
He knew that there was something much bigger going on here.
Yet he ignored all of the red signs to keep her here.
She didn't know whether to call him a genius with different motives or a stupid for ignoring the red flags she was literally carrying with herself.
Whatever it was, she was grateful.
"I won't mind dying while protecting you as long you are safe," he said, intensely looking at her eyes.
His gaze was so strong that she felt a strong urge to look away yet at the same time she didn't want to.
She couldn't decide whether she wants to look at his eyes forever or never look into his eyes again.
Nicolas cleared his throat.
"Um, I mean you are under my wing now since after breaking all of the connections with your previous pack, you are a rough now. Until you join another pack, you are here, right? It's my responsibility to protect you. It's also a matter of my reputation," Nicolas said while scratching the back of his neck.
Both Nicolas and Amara knew that it wasn't his responsibility. Hell, he was doing her a favor by letting her stay here at the first place.
As a rough, she was danger to the society. She shouldn't be allowed to roam around like a butterfly yet she was living here, in her pack's enemy pack.
"What are your plans for the future? I mean, you can join another pack if you want to. Or you can simply live like other humans which is a little dangerous for you since you have wolf blood in your veins. They will never stop searching for you," Nicolas was now fully serious.
The mere idea of someone hurting her was already messing with his whole system and they have met only for one hour for the sake of love.
"I don't know. Roaming around alone obviously isn't easy and I know that danger will always follow me around like shadow. But what if I join another pack and is treated like an omega there as well? Being dead is better than carrying that title again. I have suffered enough. The daily taunts, lack of sleep, not enough food to fulfill my nutritional requirements, getting used as a punching bag that can't speak up against all of these injustice."
By the end it looked like she was going to cry. Nicolas understood that she was traumatized by everything that has happened to her.
He wanted to get all of the ba*tards who hurt her in the past and give them ten times more pain and trauma.
"You don't deserve to get treated like a slave, you deserve to get treated like the queen you are. Whoever treats you less than what you are, doesn't deserve to have another glimpse of you," Nicolas said while holding her hands in his.
His hands were colder compared to her ones yet they bought her an strange type of comfort.
Comfort that she wasn't ready to accept yet. Or maybe never will be.
The feelings she was getting around him was already scaring her. She wasn't used to feeling this safe. It was almost too comforting to her.
To think that you finally have someone who would take care of you, who would die trying to save you, who would fight against the entire world just to keep you safe.
To think that you finally have someone who appreciates you and treats you like how you deserve to be treated, Who sees your inner value.
She felt like she could finally let her guards down and sleep peacefully since someone already promised to save her.
She felt like she could finally stop the war against her heart and brain. In this battlefield called life, one has to work really hard to keep up with the others, to fill up their own stomach, to have a shelter over their head.
She was no exception. She always knew that she has to take care of her own needs and for that, she would work twice hard.
Her own father couldn't even give her this level of surety.
Even though she was eventually going to find out that his sweet words were lies, she would have loved to hear his sweet lies either way.
It must be good to know that your father would do anything to protect you. That's the level of comfort one seeks from their parents.
Especially when they have only one parent just like Amara.
"But I don't look like a queen, I don't have a queen's crown, I don't have the things a queen have. I wasn't born with royal blood either. I am just a normal human being," Amara still spoke out her insecurities.
"You don't need to have royal blood to be a queen. A crown isn't the most necessary thing either. All you need is the confidence of a queen who doesn't care about what others think. If she thinks something is right, she will do it. She does whatever she wants to do as long as it doesn't hurt others. She's confident and kind. These are the things that makes a normal human being a queen," Nicolas said and Amara kept looking at him.
A question was roaming in her mind.
"What about the non-confident girls? Aren't they queens? Or are they normal humans?"
"They are also queens. They are the unaware queens. They aren't aware of the powers they have. They don't know how much their voice matters, how much they can help everyone around them grow. If they knew how amazing they are then this entire world would be more self aware, a far more better place. But at the same time, Everything needs a balance. Hence, we are going to call them princess."
"So am I a princess then?" Amara asked and Nicolas wanted to say no.
He wanted to say that she was his queen but at the same time he didn't want to scare her away. Hence he decided not to follow his heart.