"Don't ever feel like you are doing anything wrong by sharing your feeling. If the person before you isn't capable and sensitive enough to understand what you are going through then they don't deserve to hear your thoughts at the first place," he said, again holding her hands and giving it a light squeeze.
Amara nodded her head.
"Whatever you went through wasn't your fault. It was their fault for not being good enough. It's their misfortune that they couldn't see the goodness in you and the other omegas. If anyone should be embarrassed for their actions then it should be the pack members, not you," Nicolas gave her a encouraging nod and she again nodded her head but this time a smile was playing on her lips.
She was happy that she met him but at the same time she was feeling like it was a curse.
If he continues to act like how he is doing then she was scared that she might not be able to finish the task she came here for. She didn't came here to fall for his behavior.
He shouldn't have been like this in the first place. She was wondering whether someone else was the said Alpha and Nicolas was just playing around with her.
He wasn't the most jolly looking. He looked dangerous enough for someone to mark him as a criminal but at the same time, his behavior was also tender enough for someone to mark him as a flower boy.
His looks and behavior were opposite of each other.
"I know yet deep inside I don't think that I will ever be able to forgive myself for not speaking up for myself when needed. If only I were braver than maybe I would have been able to save myself from lots of things," Amara said looking down, sorrow clear as the daylight in her eyes.
"What has happened is already in the past. You couldn't do anything in the past because you didn't know how to fight for yourself. But now that you are here and you have decided to be a part of our pack, I will make sure that you have enough space to learn how to fight. You can start fighting with our other newbies starting tomorrow, if you want to,of course," Nicolas said and Amara's eyes started shining.
She was already so excited about this. She was more than ready for this.
"That's what I have wanted to do since the very starting. I would love to. In fact,thank you so much for giving me this opportunity. I really can't thank you enough for doing so much for a mere stranger," Amara said with a grateful look.
Nicolas wanted to say that she wasn't a stranger. She is his soulmate but again,he couldn't.
He just gave her a tight-lipped smile.
"So what genre are you picking?" He asked.
"Even though it was the most tortured genre for me but I still love rom-com the most. I prefer them separated as well," Amara's cheeks were covered with small circular red tints.
She was trying too hard to stop herself from blushing but her skin decided to betray her.
It wasn't really clear though but if someone looks at her with concentration then they are definitely going to notice them.
In this case, Nicolas was looking at her with all of the concentration he could gather.
His entire focus was now on her red-tinted cheeks.
He bites his inner cheeks to stop himself from smiling. He didn't want to embarrass her further but the idea of teasing her was too tempting as well.
He found her reaction really cute.
"I have a movie in my mind. It's the funniest movie I have seen in my entire life. Should I play that one?" Nicolas asked, he was a little nervous.
He knew that he was speaking really high of the movie he has seen. And it was indeed the best comedy movie he has seen till now but he wasn't sure whether Amara would actually like it or not.
We, humans, have different taste. One might think that a book is the best book of the entire world while another human can have different thoughts on the same book.
They might not like it and think that it was over hyped.
There's nothing wrong with it and nobody is forcing everyone to like the same thing.
Yet, he wanted her to like his favorite movie.
Yes, it was his favorite but he wasn't ready to admit a movie as his favourite yet.
"Sure, I would love to watch your favorite movie," Amara said with a lovely smile and damn, Nicolas's heart melt.
She indeed looked more beautiful while smiling. He loved all of her expressions but smiling Amara was his favorite.
She was looking so perfect at that moment that Nicolas wanted to take out his heart, cut that, cook that and serve it on a golden platter, only for her.
He thought that she was going to be a tough nut to crack since she has been through so many things but she was just like water.
She was mixing perfectly with everything but then again, water never mixes with oil.
Maybe the oil was on the way.
Whatever it was, Nicolas was happy that she was ok with watching his chosen movie.
Watching someone's favorite movie with that person seems like a very intimate thing to do. It was really cute and Nicolas couldn't help but feel like a teenager again.
In his heart, this was like their first little date together. He couldn't hide his excitement and Amara could see this through his smile.
The movie started and Nicolas's judgement turned out to be perfect because after that, it was now their favorite movie.
This realization seemed too intimating and left both Amara and Nicolas breathless.
Imagine someone watching your favorite movie with you and that movie becomes their favorite as well.
And cherry on top, that someone is now your favourite person aka your soulmate.
Sounds like an absolute dream, right? That's the dream Nicolas was living in.
What seems like a dream to everyone has become his reality and in a few hours, he has become a lovesick puppy.
But today wasn't a happy day for Nicolas alone. Amara was over the moon.
She was so happy that she felt like dancing and singing in a flower garden.
For the first time, she could watch a movie without having to suppress her emotions.
She could laugh as much as she wanted to without thinking that someone was going to bully her.
She wasn't worried about crying later if she laughs now.
It was such an normal and small thing for others but to her, it was her first taste of freedom.
Freedom to express her emotions, to show others what she feels, to not have the burden of hiding her emotions on her shoulders.
She was so grateful to Nicolas that she wanted to thank him but stopped herself thinking that he might think she has lost her mind if she tries to explain the reason behind that thank you.
She knew that what was new to her and important as hell was seen as normal and silly by others.
She just decided to enjoy her time here, or her entire lifespan.
After finishing the movie, Nicolas realized that he was supposed to let her choose the movie.
He mentally started cursing himself, something he has been doing a lot lately, for forgetting that.
After hearing her side of the story, he has understand her point of view.
He knew that it was such a big deal for her and he also knew that she was feeling extremely happy.
It could be seen by the way her face was glowing. It seemed as if someone has thrown heavenly light on her face.
He was looking at her the entire time rather than watching the movie.
He absolutely loved her uncontrollable chuckles. Her voice would go too high and sometimes low.
At some point, she couldn't even breath due to laughing for too long. He loved every bit of it.
He realized that even if the moon goddess hasn't tied them together, he would still fall in love with her.
She was simply that lovable to him.
"Do you want to watch another movie?" He asked after clearing his throat.
Amara nodded her head.
She was loving this.
"This time you are going to either suggest a movie or you are going to find a movie. I hope you won't fail to meet with my expectations," Nicolas said with a dramatic expression.
Amara wanted to laugh at his face.
"I will try my best not to disappoint you," she said.
"I believe that you won't disappoint me," Nicolas said with a smile.
Amara could see sincerity and trust dancing in his eyes. He really was believing her.
She didn't really like it. She was here to win his trust but him trusting her so easily was messing up with her system.
She was already feeling weak towards him. She didn't want him to give up on his guards so easily, she didn't want him to surrender so early.
She wanted him to put on a good game. She wanted it to be challenging. She wanted him to hurt her, to torture her like she expected he would.
She wanted him to hurt her so much that she would start hating him but here, he was doing the opposite of what she needed.
She didn't want him to be so easy. It was becoming a wall in front of her hatred for him.
Hating him would make things easier but he was making hating him harder.
He was treating her the best she has been treated this far in her life but poor her, she didn't realize that it was the bare minimum.
She deserved to be treated like this by everyone in the first place and that's how everyone should be treated.
We are made for getting love, to love. But everyone has abused her so much that this little was too much to her.
They have messed up her self-esteem. They didn't let her know how precious she was and unfortunately, she never tried.
For had she tried, she would have known that she was no less than the stars,moon, sun,flowers and all the good things.