He gave me a confused look."Girlfriend? Who was talking about a girlfriend?" He laughs. "No, it's my best friend. We moved in 2 years ago. And he's actually a guy"
A sigh of relief almost escapes my mouth, but I realize early enough to hold it. Why am I so socially awkward?? I cry inside
"Oh, sorry I thought- whatever." I laugh sheepishly "But you have a girlfriend right?"
"Why do you think so?"
"I mean, you're pretty" attractive, no jesus, I'm gay. I can't just tell him he's attractive. "talkative, and neat…"
"Oh well, I wish girls liked me for that. Anyways, I'm single. But do you have a girlfriend?"
"What do you think?" I smirk and chuckle
"I think yes. You're so cute, and shy. Girls love that."
I wish you liked it too. "Well, I'm gay actually…"
Hoshi sips on his coffee, and almost coughs it out. "I wouldn't tell!"
He's so surprised. We both laugh about it, and continue to dish about things until 9 PM.
I'm starting to get a bit sleepy, and yawn.
"We should go home, what do you think? It's getting late…" He smiles, assuring me that It's okay.
"Right." I smile back "But this time, I pay!"
"If you insist…" He keeps on his relaxed smile
We leave the cafe together,entering the empty room.
We're alone here. Not many people visit this place at this hour.
The moon beams shine here. I go closer to one of the windows, get in the moon shine and just watch it.
"The moon is beautiful, isn't it?" I say, fully realizing the meaning of the sentence, giving it to him. Because no matter who he is, he made me feel loved, at least for a while.
"It indeed is." He says, standing beside me with a calm face, as if I didn't just tell him I love him. "Do you know what the phrase means in Japanese?" He looks me in the face, light smile on his lips. I must be blushing like crazy. He leans in.
"No." I answer shortly, and quietly
"It means, I love you ~" He answers my lie, with some thoughtful tone in his voice. "You shouldn't waste it on a person like me…. Unless you love me." He laughs
I do not regret saying it. I do think I love you.
The fact that he's leaning so close to me makes my heart rush. His lips are so close, and I'd just love to sacrifice my first kiss to him. I'd love to kiss him by the moon, hug him, and never let go of him. Make him the special person.
He is breathing with his mouth, since his nose is stuffed. His breath smells like the coffee he's been drinking a few minutes ago. He is looking down on my lips, but then he pulls back and looks me in the eyes.
"I'm sorry, I could've gotten you sick, being so close to you." He says with a serious tone, but I can see some kind of confusion shining from his eyes.
"I wouldn't mind getting sick…." I mumble underneath my breath
"Hey! I heard it." He giggles "You didn't mind did you?" He smiles
I'm in a trap, I have to admit it. "Just, don't do it again please. You know I like guys….. So don't be teaseful."
He blushes "Does that mean…. you liked it….?" He says in a low voice, a bit tenseful, expression on his face.
"Are you trying to seduce me or what?...." I say shyly. He laughs.
"You're so endearing you know?"
"Yeah girls like that. And I wish you did too…." I say the last part quietly.
"Maybe I do. I just didn't know I liked the boys. " He says, purposely in Korean,(So I don't understand it) paying me back for my mumbling.
"Was that Korean? What did you say?" I ask, pretending I didn't understand, except I understood every single word of it.
"I just said…. that I'm getting sleepy." He looks out of the window."Shall we go?"
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We walk, until our ways have to separate.
"I loved tonight Hoshi. Thank you." I smile. kiss?
"I loved it too, Nikko. Can't wait to see you again!" He chuckles. kiss? "Text me when you're home…." kiss? - just a lovely wave. And I love it.
I wave Hoshi back, and do as he said. As soon as I get home. I text him.
"I'm home! Are you home yet?" Hoshi sends a pic. It's him, street lamp behind him, and a tree. He's doing a thumb up pose,
"Almost there."
"Okay then, excited to see you tomorrow. Good night Hoshi-san!:D"
After a while, Hoshi responds with a photo of him holding his cat. "We wish you a good night too Nikko! See ya!"
I smile at the screen for one last time today, and go to sleep.
Falling in love requires a lot of subconscious effort….