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Chapter 9 - Avery POV

I wish I knew how long I spent staring at this man who seemed to embody perfection, but my concept of time was greatly skewed. I wanted him more than I ever wanted anything in my life. I wanted this man to drown me in his scent, to mark me as his. I wanted to surrender everything to this stranger.

 "What… What do I do?"

 It was so quiet I could barely hear it over the sound of my heart pounding, and I am not even sure if he meant to say it out loud. Either way, this was my chance. Lying completely bare before him, I moved my hand to cover his and stared into his eyes.

 "Touch me."

 The words came out more as a command rather than a simple answer to his previously posed question, and as soon as I said them his face looked pained, as if there was an internal war being waged inside his mind. I opened my legs slightly, wanting him to see me, wanting him to want me. His pheromones got more intense as soon as I started stroking myself, and when I looked down I could see him twitching inside his pants.

 I repositioned myself on my knees and crawled a little closer to him. Oh, he smells good here too. Clumsily I tried unbuttoning his pants, and after a few attempts I emerged successful. The entire time he didn't try to stop me, remaining still as a statue.

 "Touch me, hngh, please" I begged, all the while taking his length into my hands. He twitched constantly within my grasp, but this was just the first step in my mission.

I wanted to taste him, and I wanted him to fill me up until I couldn't take it anymore. Will I even be able to fit this in my mouth? I've never done anything like this before, so I had no clue how to even start, but I was determined. I opened my mouth, stuck out my tongue, and started licking the tip of him, taking my time to taste him. I'm so happy. I started releasing a steady stream of pheromones, and it felt so good to do so.

After what may have been a minute or two, I opened my mouth wide and put as much of him in my mouth as I could handle.

"Huh, huh, haaa… Mmmm."

He started breathing harder and I could hear what seemed to be the start of a moan escape from him. Taking my right hand behind my back I slid a couple of my fingers inside myself. He started releasing his own steady stream of pheromones, and between his smell and him being inside my mouth I became even more sensitive.

Thrusting in and out, I couldn't help but let out small moans. Every time I made a noise his dick throbbed inside my mouth. It must be the vibrations. Soon I felt something large, hot, and rough sliding down my back. It was his hand, and he started from the base of my head and lightly worked down my spine. He touched me as though he was afraid to break me, and his fingers stopped just before my hole.

I took my mouth off of him and sat up on my knees. I scooted closer to him so that our torsos were touching and began kissing him slowly. I put my left hand on his chest, and I could feel his heart racing. Looking into his eyes there seemed to be a mix of lust, confusion, and still a hint of sadness. With my right hand I grabbed his fingers and led him to my entrance.

"It's okay."

I started kissing him again, sucking and biting on his lips, and lightly ground myself against him. I wasn't sure if he was going to touch me the way I wanted him to, but I knew one thing for sure – I was an omega in heat who desired the alpha before him, and I was going to find a way to fulfill these desires.

Just as I was beginning to grow even more frustrated than I already was, he slipped two of his fingers deep inside me while holding me around the waist with his other arm. He started kissing me back while touching me from behind, and it felt so good. His mouth easily covered the entirety of mine, and he clumsily put his tongue in my mouth. His fingers started moving faster, and then he added another one.

"Ah! Mmmmmm, yeeeees!" I am not sure how he found that spot so quickly, but it felt so good. He started rubbing it harder while kissing me deeper, and it wasn't too much longer before I felt a sweltering heat rising from my belly that shot through my entire body.

"I-I'm gonna… Hng, I'm c-cumming!"

He put another finger in immediately in response to my declaration, and I came all over his shirt. He took his fingers out of me and brought them between our faces and up to his mouth, then wrapped his lips around each finger, sucking them clean one at a time.

"Delicious" he said while staring into my eyes. His voice was so deep, yet it was light on the ears. It was a sound I could listen to all day and never get tired of. He tightened his grip on my waist, leaned down to kiss me again, and laid me back down onto the bed. I could taste myself on his tongue, and the thought that he wanted me as much as I wanted him got me hard again.

He moved from my mouth to my chin and then my neck. He licked and kissed me there before moving down to my chest, then my stomach, then my waist. He put my legs over his shoulders, and then wrapped his mouth around me and started sucking. After a couple minutes he slipped his fingers back inside me, and the stimulation from both the front and back was too much to handle. He touched me mercilessly, and I came so many times I lost count.

He wouldn't relent no matter how many times I begged him to put himself inside me. He would move from sucking my front and touching my back to licking and sucking my back while touching my front. It felt so good, but I still wanted more. He never came once, nor did he touch himself the entire time he was pleasuring me. He didn't even make a noise. The entire space was filled with a mix of our pheromones and the sounds that I alone made.

I came again, and the soft whispers of him apologizing to me while stroking my head were the last things I heard and felt before passing out.

"We'll talk about this later. Right now, I just need to get him home."

"Just let me better explain-"

"Kai, I promise I am not mad, but right now I need to get Avery home and try to get him to take an inhibitor."

"…Okay."

I hear the alpha that I met talking, and I recognize the other guy, but I can't quite place him.

"C'mon Avery, let's get you home."

"Who-?"

I don't know how long I was passed out for, and the person waking me up was not my alpha. I slightly opened my eyes and tried to focus on the face in front of me.

"M-Micah?"

"There he is! You little sleepy head. Are you okay? Let's get you home, hm?"

"…No"

"I didn't quite hear you; you need to speak up. What did you say?"

"I said no!"

Frantically searching the room I found the face I was looking for.

"Y-you! Sir, don't make me leave. I'm sorry, I'll be better, I didn't mean to. Please let me stay."

What did I do wrong? Was I not good enough? I don't want to leave, please let me stay. Please say that I can stay with you. 

"…You need to go home with your brother now. That's what's best. This wasn't meant to happen to begin with, nothing good will come from you staying here."

Why would you say that? You are clearly in pain saying those words, they are hurting me just as much as they are hurting you. So why?!

Those words hit me deep in the chest. Is he… Rejecting me? Does he not want me? I started bawling, and probably looked like a toddler throwing a tantrum. I didn't want to leave. Every fiber of my being said that I belonged to this man and this man belonged to me.

Micah carried me out of this man's apartment and drove me home. He laid me on my bed and covered me with my blanket. He didn't say a single word to me on the drive home or when he brought me to my room. He just held my hand or held me in a hug while I cried, and I didn't stop until I cried myself to sleep.