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Chapter 8 - Kai POV

It started raining a little harder as soon as I left my apartment, but I just slid my hood up over my head. I didn't want to deal with taking the umbrella out now, partly because I am still embarrassed I couldn't find it… As silly as that may sound. The pitter patter of the rain hitting the ground was soft, and it wasn't hard enough to get me wet through my hoodie. I started walking down the second to last block before reaching my bar and took a deep breath to smell the rain while waiting for the crosswalk sign to change.

 The rain smells so good. Wait… Why does the rain smell this good today? Taking in deeper and deeper breaths as I started walking across the street, I realized what I was smelling. These are pheromones of an omega in heat. What is an omega doing outside in the middle of their heat, much less on a day like this? The scent kept getting stronger the closer I got to the bar, and soon I felt something like fear tug at my chest. Are these from those pheromones?

 I could tell that this omega in heat was afraid, and without giving it much thought I decided to follow the scent. I wasn't sure what I was expecting to find, but the sight before me was one that I was not prepared for. I quickly pulled out my phone and called Micah.

 "Hey Micah, it's Kai. I am almost at the bar, but something just came up. I am not sure how long it will take me, but I have to go back home. I know the bar isn't technically open yet since it's only 6:55, so if you don't want to run it alone you can close it for the night."

 "Wait what? What do you mean go ahead and close the bar? Is everything okay?"

 "Look I'll pay you either way, so close the bar or don't, it's up to you. I don't have time to explain right now, I'm sorry."

 "Okay, no worries. With this rain I doubt it will be super busy anyway, I will go ahead and keep it open, but I'll close it early if I need to. Let me know if you need help with anything, hope everything is okay!"

 "Sounds good, thanks Micah!"

 I hung up the phone and walked down an alleyway to an unconscious and naked omega. Having spent many years managing my rut on my own without any medicinal aid, I was rather confident in my ability to withstand these pheromones. I didn't want to do anything untoward or invade this person's privacy, but I wanted to make sure they were okay before calling for help.

 As I got closer, I could tell that this omega was in extreme pain. His shirt and pants were off to the side and his underwear was down at his ankles. I lightly looked over his body, trying to be as respectful as possible, trying to see if he suffered any trauma or injuries. I could see what looked like cum on one of his hands, and it seems like he bit his lip pretty hard, but I didn't really see anything that would make me think he was taken advantage of.

 After making sure that he was breathing and not in serious danger I called 941, the emergency number for those needing medical attention due to their heat or rut.

 "Hello, you have reached the crisis center. My name is Amanda, are you in a safe location?"

 "Um, well, I am not calling for me but someone else. I happened to find an unconscious omega in heat, are you able to send someone out here?"

 "First thing, can I have your name please?"

 "It's Kai"

 "Thank you Kai, can I also have your last name?"

 "It's Barrett, Kai Barrett."

 "Thank you. Okay Kai, do you know the omega you are with?"

 "Uh no, I was on my way to work and I found him while I was walking."

 "Does he have any injuries that need medical attention?"

 "It looks like he bit his lip, the bleeding seems to have mostly stopped now."

 "Anything else?"

 "Umm, no, not that I can tell."

 "Can you see if he has a wallet? Anything that might be able to help identify him for the report?"

 "Sure, give me one second."

 I walked over to his pants and searched for his wallet, but there was nothing in his pockets. I looked around where he was laying, but I couldn't find a wallet or a phone.

 "There's nothing, I can't find any identification or a phone."

 "Okay, are you in a position where you can stay with him until help arrives?"

 "Yes! Yes I can. Do you know how long it will be? We are outside and it is starting to rain. His clothes are soaked."

 "There should be a unit to your location within the next hour to hour and a half. Just hang tight."

 "That long?!"

 "I understand your concern sir, but seeing as he is not in immediate medical danger, he doesn't take priority over our other calls."

 "I live nearby, can I take him to my place and call you back?"

 "You sure can, but I will have to cancel this dispatch now and start the process over again when you call back."

 "…Okay, go ahead and do it. I need to get him somewhere warm and dry him off. I can get him some inhibitors so hopefully that will help. Thank you."

 "No problem at all, thank you for your call. I will cancel this dispatch, please call us back immediately if the situation worsens."

 Well fuck. I slid his underwear back up and put the hoodie I was wearing over him since it was already warm. Sliding one arm around his back and the other under his legs I got ready to pick him up, but the movement must have woken him up.

 "Ah, who… Who are you… Stop, take me… Ngh… Take me home."

 I was shocked to see that he woke up so quickly. I know firsthand how hard it is on the body to deal with things like this alone and without meds.

 "Shhhh, it's okay. My name is Kai, let me get you somewhere safe, hm?"

 Fixing the hoodie to make sure it wouldn't fall off I picked him up and held him firmly against my chest. Every time I moved I could feel his body flinch.

 "Ngh, ahhh, please… Please stop."

 I know little one, I know just how uncomfortable you are right now.

 "What's your name?"

 "A-Avery."

 I could hear him sniffling into my chest, and almost out of instinct I released my own pheromones to try and calm him down. Avery, huh? That is the same name as Micah's younger brother. He has blonde hair too, and judging from his tall yet petite frame, I'd say they are around the same height too. Surely… This can't be his brother… Could it?

 "No… Please. It's... Cal-calming"

 I had slowly stopped releasing my pheromones. I could feel the tension leaving his body, and I didn't want to make things worse by emitting them if they weren't needed, but clearly he begs to differ.

 "…Okay."

 I must admit he is acting a little cute right now. Avery started wiggling slightly in my arms and then nuzzled his face into my neck. I could feel him taking in slow deep breaths as I held him, which I didn't mind… Until he started licking my neck.

 "Avery, try to control yourself a little bit. I know it's hard, but we aren't quite inside yet."

 He did not seem very responsive to what I was trying to say.

"I'm taking you back to my apartment that's just around the corner. I can't afford much more than a cheap motel, and I didn't want to leave you alone in a place like that. I won't force myself on you, you're safe with me. When we get to my place I will let you use my phone to contact someone if you need to. If you end up needing to stay the night I can sleep on my couch."

 Avery still didn't respond to anything I said, I don't even know if he heard anything I said.

 "The elevator is out of order right now, so I'm going to have to walk up a couple flights of stairs. It's not going to be a very smooth ride for you, but just hang in there, okay?"

 I'm… Not quite sure what I said that triggered this sudden change in behavior, but he somehow managed to move on from licking my neck to… Sucking on it. Undeterred, I started walking up the stairs to my apartment. I could feel Avery slightly jolt with every step we took, and my shirt and pants started getting slightly damp from how wet he was getting. His heat must be really strong.

 "I need to set you down, Avery. I need to grab my keys, can you stand? Lean against me if you need to."

 I slowly set him down on his feet next to me and gently released my arms from around him while making sure he would not fall. As soon as his two feet were firmly planted on the ground, he took his arms and tightly wrapped them around my torso. As soon as I unlocked the front door, I picked him back up and headed for my bed. Shit, I never changed the sheets. Oh well, this isn't the time to be picky about it.

 "You need some inhibitors, let me go grab them at the store next door."

I laid him down in bed and made sure he was okay before leaving. As soon as he was free from my grasp he started burrowing in my pillows and comforter. That's kind of cute. I ran quickly down the stairs to the corner store next door and purchased the strongest heat inhibitor that they had. I ran back upstairs and poured Avery a glass of water.

 "Hmmm, ungh… Haaaa"

 Just what is he… Doing in my bed? I'm not upset, but rather those noises he's making… Are getting me riled up. Slapping my cheeks with my hands, I pulled myself together before walking over to the bed. He is a stranger, an omega in heat, possibly my employee's younger brother. I need to suppress my urges and take care of him.

 "You need to take inhibitors, I have some here for you."

 "S-sir help me"

 Is he crying again? I can't tell if it's that, or if his voice is just shaking from his current state.

 "I am helping you. Take these inhibitors and get some rest. I will help you contact your family when you're better." 

 "Those inhibitors, ngh, they won't work."

 Please, do not fight me on this.

 "I know your instincts are telling you to give into the heat, but you need to take these meds or else it will get worse."

 "I'm… Dominant"

 When he said that, he looked at me with eyes that were the brightest blue I had ever seen. His hair was messy and sticking to his face, and his eyes were slightly red from all the crying. His lower lip was starting to bruise from where he had bit himself earlier, though I am glad that since I have been with him he hasn't resorted to biting it again. He looked at me so calmly and so intensely, as if he was trying to memorize every feature on my face that he could see. Suddenly his pheromones came bursting out, filling every inch of this tiny studio apartment.

 "Make me... Ahhh! Help me, please!"

 "Let me help you to the restroom so we can get you in the shower. They will be big, but I have a clean change of clothes you can wear. Let me carry you to the shower and you can hop in."

 Avery eyed me, carefully watching my every movement as I walked up to him. I felt chills run throughout my entire body, and despite knowing that I wasn't going to do anything to him, my body couldn't help but react. I leaned down to scoop him up into my arms, but instead he wrapped his arms around my neck and leaned in to kiss me.

 I was so shocked I didn't know how to react, not only was this the first time I ever kissed someone, but this is an omega in heat. Even if he thinks he wants to do it now, nothing good will come from it. Not only would the pheromones of a recessive like me leave him unfulfilled, but consenting to a stranger while in heat is not consent.

 He started grinding his hips against me while kissing, and I stayed there frozen in place, unsure of what to do. Eventually Avery pulled away from the kiss, and I was able to lean back a bit, giving us a little more distance.

 "I am not an alpha you need; I'll be no good for you" I whispered while stroking his hair.

As soon as those words left my lips, I felt a deep sadness rising within me. Looking at this guy, he was nothing short of adorable, pretty, beautiful, mesmerizing, breathtaking, all in one. I couldn't bear to take my eyes off him, but I couldn't bring myself to do anything more than look at him.

There was a part of me, one that I spent my whole life trying to get rid of. A part of me that I completely forgot existed. A part of me that longed for companionship, to be actively loved, to be held and cared for. A part of me that this little omega somehow managed to bring out in me. I couldn't tell if it was from the pheromones mixing in the air, or knowing that this guy was coming onto me because he was in heat, but either way… It took every ounce of strength I had not to give in to his whims.

He desires an alpha right now that can take care of him, and I am not an alpha that can do that. Even if he was interested in me on an ordinary day, I can't bring myself to ruin his life like this. We won't see each other again after today anyway, so the best thing I can do is wait until he is calmed down enough to give me someone to call and come pick him up.