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Chapter 4 - Avery POV

I woke up to the rain being blocked from landing on me, and something warm being placed over my body. I seemingly passed out at some point, and I have no idea how long I have been out. I remember that it was still daylight, but it's clearly dark out now. My body aches, and every movement is like torture. Wait… Movement? Slowly coming back to my senses, I could tell someone else was there with me. Fear of being found like this and what was going to happen to me filled my mind, but I barely had the strength to open my eyes, much less move.

 "Ah, who… Who are you… Stop, take me… Ngh… Take me home."

 "Shhhhh, -okay. My name- let me- safe, hm?"

 He reached down and made sure the jacket he put on me was secure before picking me up. Ugh, I hate this. I can barely make out anything he is trying to say to me. I am scared, and alone. I have no way to contact my parents. I don't have the strength to fight back, and the worst part of it all… I can tell this guy is an alpha. Wherever he brushes against me seems to cool my skin, and the more I smell him the more wet I get. My body is betraying my brain and that is the worst part about this. I ran away from one alpha, only to find myself in the arms of another.

 "Ngh, ahhh, please… Please stop."

 Holding me firmly against his chest, I could hear his heart beating. Rather than erratic, it was calm and steady. He doesn't seem… Excited. For some reason, that brought me a lot of relief.

 "-name?" He asked. His deep and gentle voice made me feel a little safer. I didn't hear everything he said, but it seemed like he was asking for my name.

 "A- Avery." That was all I was able to muster. I started crying, making the most noise I've had in the last few hours. My body hurt and ached, and it reacted to this man which made it worse. I am scared and confused, yet part of me wants to trust this random guy. I don't have a choice in what he's going to do either way, and that lack of control is eating away at me.

 Mmmmmm, that smells so nice. He's releasing small amounts of pheromones, but I can tell he's doing it to try and calm me down. I feel like I'm being caressed by a giant fluffy blanket fresh from the dryer. He smells warm and slightly sweet, like being in a field of flowers on a sunny day. Slowly my tears began to stop, and I released the tension I was holding, relaxing into his arms. When he realized I was beginning to relax, he started to decrease the amount of pheromones that he was releasing.

 "No… Please. It's... Cal-calming"

 "…Okay."

 It was one word, a measly acknowledgment to my request. But… It sounded so sweet coming from his mouth. Before I even knew I was doing it, I had nuzzled myself in his neck. It smells stronger here. Taking slow deep breaths felt so good. My heart rate returned to a regular pace, probably because I was also regulating my breathing better. I still ached deep inside, unbearably so. But it was different now. Instead of being overcome with the need for something, anything, to make me feel better, all I could think about was him. I kept thinking about how much I wanted him to make me feel better.

 "Avery, try- quite inside-"

 Every time this man opens his mouth it makes me want him even more. If he didn't want me, he wouldn't have picked me up from that alley… Right? It wasn't until he tried to say something that I realized I was even licking his neck. What does it matter? He tastes so good.  

 "Taking you- apartment that's- corner. I can't- motel, and I didn't- you alone. I won't- myself on you- my phone- stay the night- couch."

 He seems somewhat decent, though I can't for the life of me make out what he is saying. I would have thought that if someone found me like that, they would have taken advantage of me right then and there, but he at least is taking me somewhere else.

 "-order right now- walk up- stairs. -Smooth ride- hang in there…?"

 For fucks sake, I am tired of trying to understand what this man is saying. He has a nice voice that is soothing, but I'm frustrated by all the talking. Trying to shut him up I decided to move on from licking and kissing his neck to sucking on it. Just as I was about to put my lips on him again, he started walking up a set of stairs.

 Every step slightly jostled my body, and I became hyperaware of where he was holding me, and where my body was touching him. The slightest movements felt good, and my body started getting more and more excited. Little sighs and grunts that I tried to suppress managed to slip through my lips, and I could tell he heard them by the way his heart seemed to flutter at each sound I made.

 After two flights of stairs he cleared his throat, "- you down, Avery. – keys, -stand? Lean against me-"

 He started repositioning me and I loosened my hold on his neck. If he wants to reposition me, I can't really argue. Suddenly I felt my feet touch the ground and I wrapped my arms as tight as I could around his torso. I opened my eyes slightly and saw him unlocking a front door. His hands are huge, I want him to hold me with those hands. I want to suck his fingers. I want to feel- Interrupting my thoughts, this man tried speaking to me again as he picked me back up.

 "- some inhibitors. let me- them."

 I could tell that he was saying something to me about inhibitors, but I was in even more of a daze after entering his apartment. His scent was everywhere, surrounding my body and warming me from the inside out. I took the jacket that was covering me off and tried taking my shirt and underwear off as well. He must have put it back on me when I was passed out earlier. I was still in this man's arms, but he wasn't helping me undress. Instead he laid me down on his bed before walking away to another area.

After finally stripping down I got underneath his comforter. I took deep breaths as I pulled the blanket to my chest and burrowed my head in his pillows. I have never felt this way before, I wanted every part of me to smell like this man. I never wanted to leave.

 "Hmmm, ungh… Haaaa" I was getting wetter by the minute, and it felt so good to touch myself on this stranger's bed. Sliding my fingers in and out, I imagined they were his as I kept rubbing. Frustrated that I couldn't go inside far enough I started tearing up.

 "-take inhibitors- you."

 "S-sir help me" I said through shallow sobs.

 "I am- inhibitors- rest. -Family- when better." Is he trying to get me to take inhibitors to stop my heat cycle? I guess that would be ideal… However being a dominant omega I need prescription strength inhibitors in order for them to have any real affect.

 "Those inhibitors, ngh, they won't work."

 "-instincts- the heat- meds- get worse."

 "I'm" Fuck it's so hard to talk right now, "dominant" I managed to say.

 For the first time since my initial encounter with this man I was able to see him clearly. He was as tall as he was handsome, with slightly wavy dark brown hair that fell just below his ears. His skin was only slightly tanned, and his muscles were extremely well defined. His mouth was beautifully shaped and his lips were a dark pink, and while his facial features were sharp his bright green eyes seemed to be an endless well of kindness.

Taking in all of his features one by one had me short of breath, and without even realizing I let out a wave of pheromones.

 "Make me... Ahhh! Help me, please!"

 "-Let me- restroom so- shower. -clothes you- wear. -hop in."

 I couldn't take my eyes off him as he walked up next to the bed. Did my pheromones seduce him? Is he going to help me? All my anxiety washed away when he leaned down over me. Finally, he's going to touch me! He wrapped me up in his arms, and in response I stretched my neck out and met his lips.

I have kissed people before, but damn this feels amazing. I could feel my dick throbbing and my hole twitching just by the taste of this man. I started grinding my hips against him, but the comforter was still in the way. I pulled back from our kiss and threw the comforter off so that we could be even closer.

 I could hear him let out a long exhale and mumble something under his breath. He started gently stroking my hair, and when I looked in his eyes, he looked almost... Sad. I instinctively wanted to make him feel better, just as much as I wanted him to make me feel good. It was an amazing feat that I was even able to hold on to a shred of sanity long enough to recognize my situation, but I decided to let it all go. If surrendering to the insanity that is my natural instincts will let me be with him, then that is exactly what I will do.