it's 11 in the morning, generally that's way past the time i naturally wake up. my busy schedules never espouse me to sleep after six. eve is sleeping right next to me, both of us tangled under the same white blanket, totally naked, without any barrier. our skin still humming from the night before. The room is quiet, the kind of peaceful silence that only comes after a storm. Eve, her face soft and deep in sleep, her breath steady and calm. She looks so vulnerable, cute. she's so adorable it makes me want to bury her in my chest. she's so utterly at peace, and I'm struck by the fact that she's here, beside me, trusting me with everything she has, something she really shouldn't do. because im not the kind she should trust. Her hair is a mess, spilling over the pillow in wild curls, but it only adds to her beauty. The curve of her bare shoulder peeks out from beneath the blanket, tempting me to reach out and touch her, but I don't want to disturb her sleep.
as im still laying here with eve a giant surge of guilt hits me, makes me submerge in my pillow. my heart aches as i think about the fact that how im betraying her, how im playing with her emotions, how i don't deserve her. only if those incidents never happened, only if i could be in love with her without any worries. my insides are burning. i turn around, i can't stand looking at her directly now that everything..my thoughts exacerbate.
then i suddenly feel a warm hand touching me from my back. it's eve, her fingers trace lightly along my side." are you still asleep?"
i turn back, her glowy eyes glowes brighter when she wakes up, her lips are more than kissable now. " no, love"
she leans closer to me, hugging me tight. her warm and smooth skin gently pressing against mine, makes me turn on again, im grabbing her back as my mind cant stop thinking about how my actions might make me lose her someday. my grab tightens from the thought of never seeing her. a part of me wants to live this moment forever, cuddling with her is the best feeling ever. another part of me reminds me of what her brother did. why i cannot possibly forgive him or any of the members of the family.