I was rebooted all over. The weekend turned out to be surprising and amazing with loads of sex. Unexpected and welcoming. With a huge smile on my face, I entered my cabin and was shocked. It took a few minutes to hit the reality of what was going on in my life and the person's oath.
Everything was replaced. I was enraged, and I did not know how to control myself. I inhaled and exhaled a few times, trying my best to be in control so I could handle the situation. I immediately dialed my secretary and started scolding, not giving her a chance to speak. Within the next few seconds, she was in my cabin, scared like hell, and I was still burning in anger. I was trying my best to control myself, but as the seconds passed and when I glanced around my cabin, I couldn't.
"Who the fuck permitted for this nuisance?" She was scared to say anything because this was the first time I exploded this way. I can't fucking help it after seeing this fucking scene. She was too stunned to speak anything, and my anger was reaching the boiling point. "Speak the hell up." She shivered at my loud words. By shuttering she replied. "Your father." I shouldn't be surprised but yet for a few seconds, I was stunned. That's all it took to further burn with fury. I was not getting why after everything. Why the hell are they not getting my feelings and emotions? How can they do this to me after everything that I went through?" "Sir." I was in a daze to respond to anything, and everything was deprived within me. I was feeling so many things, and everything was overflowing. "Sir."
"In the next 10 minutes, I need my cabin as it was. I want you to remove every fucking thing." By shuddering, she replied as ok and ran from my cabin. I closed my eyes to divert, but the smell of lilies was not letting me. I love lilies, especially their smell, which always amazes me, but now seeing them all over my cabin only irritating me.
My secretary came back with housekeepers, and she was instructing them. Still, my eyes were closed, and I didn't bother to acknowledge anything. "Sir, there are letters too in every bouquet." Only annoyed more. Like seriously, what the hell was he fucking trying to prove through words? As he meant fucking any of it. She was expecting some answer from me, and I glared at her. "Ok, I get it." Was her reply. Better not to mess with me anymore, or else she is digging herself the path to pour whatever I am withholding.
What a start! My cabin is back to how it was, except for my mood. I dialed my dad's number, and he answered within two rings. I guess he was expecting my call. "Hi, hi, you are back. How was your weekend?" Only if my mood was normal to answer his question. I cleared my throat. "Dad why are you and my mom not getting that I don't want to get back to him. I am mature enough to handle my personal matters. Please stop whatever you both are planning. I am not getting back, and that's my final decision." There was silence after my outburst. They should know when to stop. I am not fucking 18 anymore. "Asher visited us last weekend and had a long conversation with both of us. He explained everything and where things went wrong between you two and, and." "And what, Dad?" Again silence. By clearing his throat, he spoke. "He accepted his mistake and wants to start over. His words were stronger, Ralph, and you should think over it."
I don't know what to say anymore. What the hell is he fucking up to? "Dad, this was not the first time, and you know it. He never keeps his damn words." "His fame and everything have played a big role in his personal life, and he learned his lesson, Ralph." I was frustrated trying to explain my reasons, and they were not even thinking about what I was trying to explain to them. "Dad, he will always fall out of love and be easily distracted from his diversion. He is even more famous now, and I don't want to take any more risks with him. I have learned my lesson; please stay out of it. I am begging you. Both you and mom. I don't want to get back to him, and I am done with him."
Again, silence and my energy was drained. If things went this way, I would be frightened about the coming days. "We both know Ralph, as we never let you alone deal with your breakup." "Yet again, you both are pushing me to the same well, knowing the consequences." "He was truly sorry, and he showed us through his words." "He never meant whatever he says; I know him better." "I, we know Ralph; we know what you are afraid of, but you never moved on with your life, never dated again." I was agitated. For fuck sake, they should mind their business for once, sparing my personal life. "Dad, it's been only a year and a half, I guess." "You haven't dated one guy in these many months, and we are worried." "That doesn't mean you will push me back to hell, and I am not getting back to him. Please, both of you should get that and stop patching us. I am done with him." "Can't you think over at least? Who doesn't commit mistakes these days? He knows where he went wrong and wants a fresh start with you. We are not forcing and will stop mending your relationship with him, but just think over it. Just talk to each other; that's the best solution, don't you think?" "I don't know anything anymore, but the only one thing I am sure of is that I am not getting back to him. Nothing matters anymore. I am done, and you guys should give up, especially Mom. Please remind her that I am her son, not him." "Ralph, you know she loves you." "But she adores him more than me, and I am not getting the bloody reason behind it." He sighed. "He is a good kid, Ralph; his stardom is blindfolding him and forcing him to do things that he never actually meant." "Are you done, Dad?" "I am sorry." "All I am asking is please stop this nuisance and respect my decision. It's my life; let me lead my way." "Ok, once again, I am sorry, but nothing wrong with having a one-to-one conversation clear the air forever." "Ok, I will think about it, but not a word to Mom about it, Dad, please." "She will be definitely happy, and her hopes will be high. So no, I won't make that mistake." "Hmmm." "Take care and keep me updated on everything." "Yes, Dad, I will, take care." "You too, son, and I am sorry for involving too much. Sometimes we don't know when to stop, especially your mom." "I bet on that." We chuckled. "Bye. Take care." "You too, Dad."
By closing my eyes, I recalled the conversation and stuck to my dad's suggestion. Clear the air forever, and I thought I did it already when we broke up. What is more left?
I tried to divert my mind by occupying myself with work. It was afternoon, and I was starving. My secretary entered the cabin with the lunch, thank God. She started placing the items, which was like never-ending. The lunch could be served for more than five people. Why the hell did she order this much? I was watching her intensely, and it took her a few seconds to notice the same. "I didn't order, but it was delivered. I thought it was from your home." My mom would inform me prior if she was sending me lunch. "There is a letter." Oh god, I need a fucking break from him. It's been a fucking day, and he is triggering me every fucking second. "Clear the table and order something else." She was perplexed and checked the boxes. After checking every box, she spoke. "It's your favorite Italian." "I need a break from you, and from the sender, please follow my bloody orders without annoying me." "Sorry, and I will order something else for you." "Clear the table before doing anything." "Ok." She started packing back every box, and I had enough for the day. I needed a damn rest. "Cancel my appointments. I am heading home." "But." "Do you want me to remove my annoyance on you? You know you are giving good reasons for doing the same." "Sorry, I will cancel your appointments." "Good see that was simple." "Take good rest, Mr. Roland. I will see to it no more flowers in your cabin or any shitty things that annoy you." By nodding my head, I gave her a thank-you smile.