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Monday, October 16, 2017, 10:06 pm
Dear mom,
I am sorry for allowing the things I have said in the past. And what I did. But I never meant any of it. I am still hurting from when I said those comments. But Mom, I miss you so much. I wish you didn't have to leave. I miss you. I am just glad you are okay. And not in pain anymore. But just know I will always love you. And you will always be my momma bear. I love you and I miss you so much. Suppose I could see you one last time. That would be all I could ask for. If I could say one last goodbye and I love you. That would be all I could ask for. I love you and miss you, mom.
Haley
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October 1, 2013
It was honestly kind of weird how time works here, but it has been a month and I am currently staying in a motel, but I at least was able to get a job at the grill. Till I can find my way back home anyway. I've been trying to look for a way but I have begun to grow accustomed to it.
But right now I'm on my way to work and the dress code is at least lenient, but i was able to strike a deal with Matt, he said if i came after closing and deep cleaned every night he would pay me 100 bucks per night, and so far that's been able to get me a little bit of food, not that i eat much anyways anymore. But it at least gets me a temporary roof over my head.
Work schedule: 7 days a week- closing time to 6 am
Mystic Grill: closing
I went inside and it was two minutes before closing and it was dead empty. I saw Matt and Jeremy, "Hey.." Matt replied, "Hey, so it's the same as normal, but there should be a shipment coming in, sadly they are late though. Should be here in half an hour or an hour."
I nodded, "Okay, I can organize if you need." Jermey replied, "Yeah that would be great honestly." I responded, "It's no problem it keeps me occupied." Matt walked out and I asked, "Hey Jeremy, tell Matt I said thanks." He nodded and bid him goodnight.
Midnight
I was singing along to Motionless in white, then stopped what I was doing because I got an idea for a set of lyrics, " Cut the ties and hang me high, you left me to bleed dry, took my soul and burned my hope." I heard a faint noise and took out an ear bud and it was just the AC kicking on. I put my earbuds back in and continued what I was doing.
3: 30 am
I was pretty much done but got a bit hungry so I went inside my purse and while I was trying to search for my gum packet- I saw that same little bottle from when I was in the ER. "Don't fail me now, Aladdin." I did what would be rubbing a genie bottle, "Nothing. Kinda figured. No one can take me to a fairytale." Then again im in fucking g*d damn mystic falls.
I turned around and saw a tiny female sitting on the pool table, " Hi love, took you long enough." I was in flight or fight mode but all i could say was, "Oh fuck."