4 years later: The Lavender Emerald
Ariel's pov
Work seemed like just another day, you get up, do the daily routine, go to work, come home, and sleep repeatedly. " Hey Ariel, are you doing okay?" i gave her the look of Just leave me the fuck alone. " Hey, we all miss her. You're not the only one." " I know that, but it's not like her to just disappear, and it's not like the police are doing anything, all they do is sit on their asses all day dealing with other cases. Yes, I know they are trying to do their job, but shouldn't they have found something even remotely similar by now!"
Meredith sighed, she knew i was right, i know we all miss her but it is just not like her to do this. Yes, it's been what may be 4 and a half years. But even still. It's like everyone has just forgotten about her. Like she just became a ghost. I just miss my best friend. I just want my friend back.
Back at home
Haley's pov
As much as I love what I do, I miss home, I miss my friends. But even still this all just feels like a fever dream.
Monday, May 13, 2017
Today I will be a bit busy, besides finding a new job. I still have yet to buy furniture and home appliances. And over the 4 years, I've saved up a lot between working at the grill and well the amount we agreed on. Temperance explained the rules:
Wish rules:
Can't bring anyone back to life ( pets included)I can't wish for any more wishes than the 21 givenCan't wish for death for anyoneYou can want to for money (max {per month} $100k)Cannot time travel
Amongst the others rules to a fairy godmother or genie. But she was able to stretch the rules a bit. Granted that was only a one-time thing. But between the necessities and also I still need to buy a few home appliances I was able to swing into another small house, so this way I would be able to travel easier. But it feels like I'm drowning again. So that's fun. This is metaphorically speaking anyway.
Depression is a bitch. So is anxiety. You doubt yourself so much every day to the point where depression comes in and says let's have a rager with your demons to make things worse.
And then when you try to ask for help you realize that oh they just gonna be like the rest and judge you for everything and even when you have that small circle of people it just comes out as a voiceless scream, a silent cry for help where your inner child is screaming at the top of their lungs crying for help and on the outside you just smile and say, "I'm fine."
The pills don't help, therapy sucks and hasn't done shit except keep a few nightmares away. I've isolated myself again which doesn't help either. Honestly part of me just wants to get hit by a car. Then again, another part of me just wants death to kill me now. In all honesty, if I were in a car accident I wouldn't care, if I die I die. If i don't i guess i got another try at the death.
I do know that today I am making a trip out to a tattoo artist I found, and it's a few hours drive but I was able to schedule a few things today, a few tattoos and getting my piercings done today. But I did ask Temperance if she could keep an eye out for a few packages at the warehouse today.
I was able to get a warehouse for cheap but this way I can start stocking up and also move my small business over there. This way it's easier to ship out and I can spend a few nights there if I need to. But i do know that i have to change cuz the tattoos I'm getting are more towards my leg and hip, and i might see if we are doing my ribs today. I brought boob pasties just in case.
Skin Display: Tattoo & Piercing Shop
I parked my car, and I still love it but I do have a few things coming in the mail soon. Just a few interior details like the car seats and the outside are new brakes and I gotta get an oil change and new wipers anyway.
" Welcome." I gave a light smile and went over to the front desk, " Hi I'm sorry to bother you but I had an appointment today I think her name was Carmilla?" The nice lady replied, " Oh yeah, Haley right? She should be done here in a few " I nodded, '' okay, I got the other half of the payment. I can do it now if needed or after whichever is easiest." She said, " Oh that's no problem, you may have to ask Cami."
I nodded, " okay, my bad. I'm sorry." She said, " It's okay, you don't gotta worry if you want you can sit here in the waiting area, she should be no longer than 5 to ten minutes. She's finishing up a bit of ink." I nodded and sat over by the waiting area and got a notification on my phone. It was just simple junk, between Temu notifications for the millionth time. There were a few game notifications and instagram, Twitter, and Facebook. But it was just simple junk mail.
"Hey, you must be haley." I looked up and saw a really pretty woman with blue and green ombre hair, gorgeous brown eyes, a beautiful complexion, and something about her that just seemed welcoming. I nodded, getting up to shake her hand, "It's nice to meet you, I'm Camilla but you can call me Cami." Do you ever meet someone that you have never met before? When you first meet them you just get this warm fuzzy butterfly feeling.
But then you also feel like a safe comfort almost but don't want them to think you're a psycho. " It's nice to meet you cami." She explained a few things, " I got a few of the pictures you sent and I like them, but I think we might be able to do it all in one go if you're up for it." I nodded, "Yeah that's fine, I don't mind honestly, but I don't want to take up your entire day."
She brushed it off, "Oh it's fine, i honestly got a lot of energy as i had this weird concoction i made, it was like a 5-hour energy mixed with a Red Bull." I giggled a bit, she and I walked back and Cami asked, " Well this is more secluded so you have privacy as we are doing what I would think are more invasive tattoos I guess, and some are not confident and don't want to be half naked on the table. But we can start with piercings if you want or whatever makes you comfortable."
I am glad i am not the only one who rambles, to be honest, i said, "I'm okay with either but we can start with piercings this way it's out of the way." she nodded and started to prepare what would be needed, as she did so she said, " imma need you to take off your shirt. I know that you would have to do that in a minute but this way you would be able to adjust."
I nodded and did but as I did I apologized, " I'm sorry, I got too many scars so it's kinda a big flaw of mine, and I know concealer doesn't help me hide them and I didn't put any over them today." for context, between my stretch marks leaving scars but these past few months i have gotten into a very dark habit again. And I'm going to be honest, I am not proud of it, I'm genuinely disappointed in myself for doing it again.
But between the alcohol, and well when that doesn't help, i kinda resort to another measure when it seems like my head is on overload.
I resorted to cutting again, and that's why I wanted to cover it as I've been trying to get help. And about 2 ish years ago… I did something else that I regret, and it will haunt me to this day. I tried to jump. But before I could, I got attacked, it was by a random vampire and that's where I was found half dead, weak pulse, and I didn't care if anyone found me. If I bled out I didn't care.
I was just hoping that death would take my corrupted soul to wherever lost souls go. But after a few days of recovery, i got sent home, and well therapy slightly helped but it didn't help me much so i resorted to alcohol and which seemed to numb it, but things got so bad i started to drink and i started to cut myself again, but i did it so no one would see and that was on my thighs and stomach and part of my ribs.
I'm slowly on my way to recovery, but I'm doing decent. But I got a decent support group. But there are days when it sucks and is taking all of me not to do so again. But I resorted to something a bit- still harmful but probably would kill me in 40 years rather than have me bleed out.
So that is vaping or smoking, depending on which one i have at the moment, but for now, i got a blueberry cart. I got a bit left, it was a max pro. " Also I have a question, do you smoke or vape?" " Yes, I got a blueberry cart but it can wait and I can keep it in my car if needed."
She turned around, "It's okay, i got a cart too but i thought to ask, you can smoke in here but all i ask is not excessive. But I got snacks, fidgets, books, whatever makes you feel comfier." She gave a warm smile, and the outfit she wore was pretty but not revealing well not too revealing.
It was a corset top with a pair of skinny jeans or what might be leggings, but even then with the Demonia boots, she just looked so perfect. Great Here's me describing a random stranger I just met. I know that I got a little bit of ink done before I came here, but I do know that I will have to get a bit of a touch-up with my others.
Next day: may 14,2017
I can say that I am sore, and hurting. But I did at least get her number. Camilla was nice to talk to and she was the one who asked me for my number but we switched as she wanted to talk more, and we have been talking nonstop but i did open up a little bit and told her a few of my scars, but she said that we would be able to do a neck tattoo next time and i schedule one for July on the 17th and i told her that she has creative freedom with it.
I honestly can't wait to see her again. And honestly, I'm tempted to delete those dating apps on my phone because I will be honest. They are crap. So I think imma do it even without the thought of Camilla. But those dark brown almond eyes of hers, they are not forgettable. I know today, I will be getting a visit from Elena Stefan, and Damon. Stefan and Damon have been more reasonable than Elena.
But i know she means well, but honey please choose which dick to fall on, i know they're both hot but seriously we do not need another Kathrine situation. She is kinda cute though. So I don't blame them for falling for her. But Damon fell hard for Katherine, like falling face first on the concrete of a 10-story building.
*phone dings* " Hey sorry we can't make it, something came up." Well, there goes my day. I wonder what Bekah is up to.
Conversation: haley and Rebekah
H: hey bekah.
R: What's wrong?
H: nothing, just sore from yesterday.
R: how did that go?
H: Good, I got another session in July.
R: That's good, hey imma send over Elijah to check in on you. I am on house arrest thanks to my idiot brother.
H: That's bad huh?
R: yes, between the whole Elena hybrid bullshit im over it.
H: ( laughing emoji) I see you're learning modern slang. It is kinda funny but suits you.
R: don't start or i will send over Kol
H: i can't answer that with a straight face bekah
R: gross haley, gross.
H: it's a weird friendship but he's been helping me though, you all have after what happened. And have been more understanding than baby Kat.
R: lemme guess she canceled?
H: bingo. So imma be trying to distract me from my demons, so Ben and Jerry's ice cream and horror movies.
R: sounds fun. We need another sleepover.
H: Absolutely yes. But imma going, for now, the TV is calling me to binge-watch horror movies too i never did finish True Blood.
R: The amount of chaos within you is the amount of normal here.
I put my phone to sleep and went to the kitchen. You know you don't need it. Just ignore it, and it will just hopefully go away. They hate you. I hate this so much. No one wants you around. But every time I even try to talk about it. You're just a fat worthless bitch. They get worse.