I was woken from my sleep with a bit of a fright as I saw a light coming from the opening door and Jungkookie falling to the ground suddenly.
"Did find drugs again? Are you drunk?" I giggled, that being the first thing I assumed seeing Jungkookie try to crawl to my bed. Word being try, he didn't get far.
Seeing how worried taehyungie seemed I soon realised something else was probably wrong as he would never have this reaction to Jungkookie plainly being drunk and\or high.
"Jungkookie! No, you know you're not allowed to fall asleep." I could hear the panic in taehyungie's voice, it made me scared so I got up and tried to keep Jungkookie awake along with him.
I put Jungkookies legs on my lap to elevate them while Taehyungie desperately tried to gently slap Jungkookie awake, tapping his fingers onto his cheek to try and keep his eyes open. But Jungkookies whole body went limb, I could see his eyes still open slightly but, they weren't my baby brother's.
Jungkookies eyes were fogging over and they completely went dead, it's as if they held no life behind them. I was panicking more and more, his jaw hung open and no matter what we did he refused to respond to us.
Then he did it, he stopped breathing. I could hear his already slow and soft breathes slowly decrease, Taehyungie noticed it too as he started giving him mouth to mouth to try and force him to breathe. It worked temporarily but seeing the frozen in panic expression Taehyungie held when he was checking Jungkooks pulse finally made me burst into tears screaming, "Make him fucking stop this!!!" Prying to dear god that he's just playing some sick joke on us.
But a joke won't stop his heart, I saw at the corner of my eye that Namjoonie had rushed into the room, probably hearing my cries for help and thinking something had happened.
I looked up at him with a pleading face full of tears, I didn't know what to do with my hands as they twitched between grabbing Namjoonie and Jungkookies legs. Theyre trembling greatly as I began to sob begging incoherent plea's for Jungkook to be alright.
Taehyung did everything he could go make Jungkook wake up but nothing, when I saw him pause and slowly back away covering his mouth with his hand and holding back cries I completely lost it.
I panicked and started hitting his chest as I screamed for him to wake up and come back, Taehyung and Namjoon brought me away from him forcefully as I screamed. Complete horror and utter shock consuming my body.
Instead of begging I went to cursing him to the after life, shouting the most vulgare words at the top of my lungs and trying to guilt trip him into coming back. I didn't know what else to do, I was being forced out of the room even though I used all my strengths to try and stop them.
Nothing I did helped, I was weak and pathetic while my baby brother layed dead in front of me. Why couldn't I be stronger? Why didn't I protect him? It's all my fault, if I hadn't gotten so mad at him I wouldve stayed. But I didn't, and now he's done god knows what to himself and he's dead. I killed him, I killed my baby brother.