James continued walking home and to school with me everyday and our relationship grew stronger.
First period today we had P.E and played partner dodgeball where the guys protect the girls from getting hit. We picked a random paper with numbers on it from a box and it's supposed to show you who your partner is, if you have the same number. I had 12 and of course I got partnered up with James. I'm not sure if this is a coincidence anymore. Every time he caught the ball that was going to hit me, my heart fluttered, I refused to believe these feelings I'm getting are real. Maybe I ran too much in the morning, since we were nearly late.
After school I had to go to a Café with James to discuss our science experiment we did together. As James talked and wrote down stuff I couldn't help but stare at him, his pretty big eyes and just then he looked straight at my eyes, and I looked quickly down at my paper. "Is my beauty distracting you too much?" "What? You're crazy, you're not even good looking. Your eyes are not even that big and nice!" "Then you wouldn't mind concentrating, right?" "I told you nothing is distracting me." "Sure." My heart was beating so fast and loud that I thought he could even hear it.
We studied until it was dark out, when we got outside he offered to walk me home, as I was about to reply, a pretty girl came up to him. "James? Right?!" "Oh Hey Julie! Long time no see." He seemed to look happier just now when she came. "Who's this? Your girlfriend?" "No, she's a really good friend of mine." Friend.. of course we're just friends, what am I thinking. I then spoke up because it was getting awkward, "You guys seem busy, I should get going." "No, wait." I turned around and walked away before James could finish his sentence.
All night I couldn't stop thinking about who that girl was, I saw her uniform was different, she didn't go to our school. I never thought about how he would have already had a girlfriend, it never came to mind. But why does it bother me? I don't even like him. It's okay Celina, let's just sleep the thought off. Even after minutes of trying I couldn't seem to sleep. It keeps popping back in my mind….
I made sure tomorrow morning I got up really early and bike to school, so I wouldn't encounter James. That's exactly what I did and got a text from James 'Are you still home?' I replied 'No, I got to school early today.' 'Oh alr' Today James arrived a little later to school and didn't even look at me. He then turned around and asked for a pen "A pen? Oh sorry I don't have any left, only enough for me." I felt so stupid after saying that, Stella even gave me a weird look and handed James a pen. She whispers to me "Are you okay?" I replied "Of course I am." "Alright if you say so…"
At break, James didn't even talk or look at me. I mean this is what I wanted to get distant knowing he probably has a girlfriend, but I felt slightly disappointed. After school I decided to go to the convenience store and get myself food and snacks to cheer myself up. As I was waiting for my noodle to cook, someone familiar sat next to me. It was the same girl from yesterday, she looked at me and said "Oh hey, it's you from yesterday, the one with James!" "Hi, my name is actually Celina." "What a nice name." "Julie is nice too." Things went quiet, I had a lot of questions for her, but didn't want to ask because it'll probably make her feel uncomfortable.
She started talking again, "Are you guys really just friends?" "Yeah, why?" "James never liked anyone his whole life, to the point I started feeling sad for him, he's been a loner since forever." "That's why I thought maybe you guys were dating because he looked so happy." "He's never dated before?.." "Apparently he has trust issues with girls, I'm not sure if I should tell you but since you're his friend I will, when young his mum got caught cheating on his dad and that's why they're divorced and ever since James thought every girl were the same."
"Damn, I never knew.." "If I got to be honest, at first I thought you were dating James because he looked really happy when he talked to you." I said, wondering how they knew each other."Nah, James and I are childhood friends and so far you're the second girl I know he'll talk to." "I see." "It was nice talking to you, hope we talk more sometimes, but I gotta get going now, bye!"
I waved goodbye to Julie, I was still in shock of everything she just told me, it makes me wonder what James would think of me now, after I acted so distant from him today..
I didn't even say bye to him, I should text him. 'Hey James'
*Delivered* Okay now I just eat my noodles and wait for a response.
*Delivered 10mins ago* :)….. My Patience can't handle this any longer, should I send another text? Or wait, if I do send another he might think I'm annoying, what if he saw my text but ignored it??? It's okay by the time I get home he'll prob text back. Okay now that I'm home I should check my phone, actually after brushing my teeth.
Now I should check, maybe after a cup of water, now I should. *Opens phone* *Delivered 32mins ago* :)) Now I really think he's ignoring me, I've done wrong, it's okay, tomorrow I can talk to him.
Okay when I walk out this gate I should see James, I walked out and looked both directions but no James to be seen, I was disappointed and walked to school alone. When I got to class James wasn't there yet, the bell rang soon. On the first break I went to his table and sat next to him, he looked at me and didn't say anything. "Is it just me or are you avoiding me?" "Says the one who avoided first." "Okay but I'm not avoiding you now." "Neither was I ever avoiding you." "You didn't even say bye to me yesterday." "Because you were avoiding me?"
"Okay but how about the text messages yesterday I sent you?" "Yesterday? At night?" "Yes." "Last night I went to sleep early and I didn't check my phone in the morning." "Where were you in the morning,I didn't see you passing by.." "I went a little later than usual because something came up." I felt so stupid thinking he was avoiding me, but anyone would've, right? "You weren't avoiding me then?" "Yeah I wasn't." He started laughing "You're really slow you know that?" I just smiled and continued eating my food. I was happy knowing that he didn't avoid me and his perspective about me hasn't changed.