I had to calm down. I just did not cheat! That was all I was telling myself as I was changing. This time, I didn't have to dye my hair at I hid it in a bun, inside the full veil. Though the other dye hadn't disappeared fully, some black and red overtook my hair.
I cheated on Calix! There was no difference between me and Verbena, she is under influence while I was not!
Who was that man in the first place? What did he do to me?! Why am I like this? Ah, I've turned into a little cheap shit! I might be the first lady to do that out of will. Ah, what am I even thinking?
I shrugged as I walked in the house and headed for the stairs. I could still hear some moaning and my bed creaking from the other end of the corridor to my room. They might be full of energy. Walking closer, I saw some servants by the corridor.
"Why is she ruining her life? She could just live quietly with her father's title."
"Maybe it's in her genes, or maybe she learnt alot from her mother."
"But I have never heard of such a thing. A thing so disgusting. She brings two men into her room while her family are not around!"
"What if this wasn't the first time. I mean, how bold of her to do this in her father's house if it's her first time!"
"What should we do? Count Edgar and his family will be returning."
"Should we call Lady Verbena?"
"She shouldn't see such a thing! Let the Count come and see it for himself. Besides, what if Lady Verbena tries to hide it for her?"
"It's getting louder!"
The last one was a shriek. These servants were actually not that bad, they were not that disrespectful towards me, remove the part where they drag my mother into this. Otherwise, nice job. But they were poor judge of character. How did they possibly think Verbena will hide it for me?
"The Count and his family are here!"
"What should we do? What should we do?"
"How about we tell the Countess to inform the Count?"
"That's a great idea!"
I got out of their way and walked into Verbena's room. I got inside her bed and almost felt like never getting out of it. Why was it so comfy? I get it's because a lady's bed should be like this, but still!
I threw the comforter over my body. I wondered where Verbena's personal servant was, did she send her away as she did this plot on me? Bad idea coz now, no one can save her.
"How is she feeling?" I heard Myrcella ask from outside the room.
"She is overreacting! Tell her to get back to normal by tomorrow," was father's words. Then the door to the room opened, footsteps following.
"Verbena," father called out. I rolled my eyes.
"Is she asleep?" Myrcella asks. There was rushing footsteps and then silence. Wait for it. "Wh-what?!" there it is. "This-this is, wah, unforgivable!" Myrcella cried out. She seemed genuinely surprised.
"What is it, mother?" that was Sena.
"Unbelievable!" went on Myrcella.
"Out with it already!" snapped father.
"I-it's Astoria. It's Astoria.... she..... is with... currently she is with two men in her room!"
"What? Are you sure, little girl?" asked Sena.
"Yes, we are sure of it!"
"Outrageous!" father thundered and stormed out. There were more footsteps following until it was silent.
"Your did it Verbena. That little slut can't take your place now. I told you to belive in big sister to make things right for you," Sena told me in a hushed whisper before she also ran out.
After I was sure everyone left, I sat up with a slightly angry laugh. "It's the noble woman's idea again," I hiss and stood up from the bed and went to my room. The servants had dispersed, maybe because of an angry father. In the furthest end of the corridor, I could see the three outside my door, listening to what was going on. I could see father losing it more and more until he finally opened the door roughly, making the two ladies flinch. When they all got in is when I rushed to sneak my head in to watch.
"T-that's....." Myrcella gasped. Of course she was surprised to see her own daughter, in pleasure with two men. Sena looked drained of life as she witnessed what was before her. Father immediately looked away, almost catching me.
"What is this Myrcella?" he demanded. Myrcella didn't look like she was going to speak anytime soon, and so was 'devoted big sister'. I could have laughed if I wasn't in a sour mood myself. I still felt dirty. "Where is Astoria?!"
I rolled my eyes, he wanted me to be the one caught by him, not his beloved daughter. I guess now he was feeling like I was the cause. Like I said, I am the cause but I am not at the same time. Oh Verbena you asked for it.
Sena looked around panicked.
"What is it, father?" I yawn, making my appearance. I rub my eyes as I walked in. I look at them in confusion, before pretending to notice Verbena in my room.
"They are two men now?" I pretend to gasp. Father arched an eyebrow.
"What do you mean?" he was harsh as rude in his question but I didn't care, his daughter just wasted herself. We should focus more on that. As if Verbena realised herself then, she immediately gasped, calling for our attention. Noticing our presence, she immediately rushed to pull the beddings to her shamed naked body.
Panic married her features. And it dawned on her, she got queened. She must be feeling like the shit that she is now.
"I-it's not w-what it i-it seems!" she whispered.
"You know I had to sleep in your room because of this," I accuse. No one even gave a hoot about me though, they pretended as if I did not say a thing, or rather as if I wasn't even there.
"What is going on?!" finally Myrcella shrieks, making me roll my eyes. Wasn't it obvious? If it were me, I wouldn't have had a chance to talk at all. The double standard is really obvious in this world.
I caught Sena sneakily look at me as if confused and also looking for some answers. Yes girl, I did that and I heard what you told me in Verbena's room. I wink at her. She immediately looks away and back to her sister who just pushed the two men off her bed with a cry.
"YOU!" she thundered at me, pointing her finger at me. Her gaze turned murderous instantly and that's when everyone noticed my presence again. "You did this to me!"
I scoff. "Like I would care about your existence girl. I did nothing to you, you were the one who did this."
"What did you do to my daughter you daughter of a prostitute?!"
You see, that type of a statement is what makes me lose my mind and start doing things that will make me regret later on. Why is Shireen getting dragged into this?
"This daughter of a prostitute is here and she is also the daughter of your husband who fell for the prostitute while you were still alive!" I snapped but I ain't taking back my words coz I fucking meant it.
"You..... what?" Myrcella breathed. I roll my eyes again.
"That is-" Sena wanted to start a lecture but I wasn't here for it, the spotlight should be Verbena's, not mine.
"Verbena is ruining the image of my bed, and how could I have done anything to her, and if I did, why would I bring her here to my room?" I counter.
"You had these men bring her here!" snapped Sena who might have lost her cool after I snapped at her mother, who in my opinion totally deserved it.
"And she would have yelled for help but the only sound that came out of her mouth was what brought servants here," I point out, finally calming down after the insult on Shireen.
"You-" Sena had nothing more to say. I had shut both parents up with the fact already.
"I don't even have money to offer to these men now do I?" I went on.
"You probably offered something else to them," cried Verbena who still felt violated. I could have been in her position right now I swear, and I didn't like the thought itself.
"You are the one in bed with two men, why are you all pointing a finger at me?" I ask, feeling the irritation caused by the clear favoritism.
"Verbena, get out of my sight right now," growled father. That was it?
"B-b-b-b-b-but father!"
"To your room, and don't let me see you ever again!" he repeated loudly, making the ladies flinch again. I shrugged, oh well, I tried atleast. But atleast she is out of my way now. But I'll still point it out.
"If it were me, would you blame anyone here for setting me up?" I asked, looking dead serious into his orbs. He looked taken aback and I scoffed. "She does this in my room, why? Why does she have to taint my room? And Myrcella, I might be the daughter of a prostitute, but your daughter is the prostitute here," I said descendingly and disgustedly.
"What did you just say to my daughter?!" Thundered Myrcella.
"It's obvious Myrcella, open your eyes. You and your daughters may try to destroy me but my mother is watching over me. And the more you try to destroy me the more it will backfire, now all of you get out of my room," I explained with a scoff.
"How many times do I have to tell you, don't you ever speak like that too me again!" Yelled the Count. The frustration of this evening trailed his tone.
"You won't have to tell me, no one seemed to tell you, respect is earned," I started as I stood Infront of him. "And you'll never get it from me. You can as well as just kill me," I said in a loud whisper.
These people should know by now, I have no interest in living. And whatever interest I may have had just disappeared each day here. I even finished myself in my past life, what more should scare me? I have already died once, second time doesn't seem that bad.