Next day morning like as usual I woke up all tired and exhausted, because of work I did in my nightmares for example, running or fighting with enemies. I mean these nightmares seems to be quite stupid to me but don't know why I see them and get tired by them. However, putting my thoughts aside I get up from the bed, pick up my phone to know the time which is six in the morning, (O yeah its becoming a habit, at night falling asleep getting difficult and if by chance I fall asleep then it becomes difficult to sleep for so long).
I put my phone on charger, start getting fresh and later after taking shower I come back in the room the and start getting ready to meet that Vihaa girl. Though our meeting set around eight in the morning but now that I have get up early so, I don't think there is any harm in getting ready and then wait. After twenty minutes, I leave the room and go to kitchen and start boiling some milk for me to drink plus preparing bread butter toast as no one is there at this time, probably they all must be sleeping till now.
In around fifteen minutes my breakfast got over and by this time mother father, granny and aunt woke up too as I can hear shuffling voices coming from inside the washroom. However, after completing breakfast I leave the dining hall and reach my room, there I check the time again which says I have more than an hour to pass my time so, I pick up the novel, plug my earphones in and later sit on the chair facing towards the balcony, watching sunrise and start reading my book.
A sudden yelling voice from my mother, break my trance
Mother: Siya, its time to go
Siya: (Yelling back) Yeah going mother.
After saying this I keep my book back on the table, unplug my earphones and keep them on the table too. Then I just pick up the phone, keep in my pocket and leave the house. I walk straight for fifty meters approximately then I took a left turn and I walk for ten to twenty meter more, in that lane the fourth house is the one where I have enter. The moment I stand at the front of the door, I take look of the house and the whole house has two color combination that is peach and dark brown and don't know why it give me the feeling of warmth.
However, keeping all these thoughts aside I ring the bell of their house which has two floors and a terrace too. Soon a lady comes outside with orange colored hair, which is quite of a rare one, I mean usually people use black or brown hair colors. It take her around a minute or so to come near the gate and open it, she open the gate with big smile, somehow, I can also feel some warmth in that smile. Her voice break the trance of my thoughts,
Mrs Uma (I heard mother saying her name quite often): Hey come in dear.
Siya: (Mumbled and nod my head in agreeing) Okay
The moment I come near that lady I can feel some powerful authority energy and yet I can feel warmth and calmness in them. However, the more I move forward and enter inside the house all I am feeling is that no one can hurt or harm me, in just other words I can say that I am in some sort safe zone type place.
The lady start moving in front of me, she showed me the dinning hall area, where there is a L shape cabinet attached to wall on which many show piece kept but majority of it has soft animal toys plus bears too and unknowingly this brought a smile on my face, the wall has peach paint on it with dark brown color doors. The whole house give the feeling of warmth, it relaxing me and I am smiling a little.
However, soon a strong calm yet confident voice break the train of my thought and I become serious suddenly,
Girl: Smile suits you, do smile more often please.
Siya: (Tuned towards the direction from where the voice is coming from and replied a hesitantly) Umm hey, thank you.
The girl smiled in appreciation, come forward and stand in front of me, just five steps away, she extended her hand towards me and initiate the conversation,
Girl: Hey I am Vihaa
Siya: (I forward my hand too in her direction, we shake our hands) Hey I am Siya
With this we shake our hands and her touch provide warmth plus comfort too, soon we parted our hands. Then she show me the place where I have to sit, I sit on one of the chair of the dinning hall and she sat in front of me, looking at me intensely and I started to feel nervous. After five minutes of waiting or more she initiated the conversation,
Vihaa: (Confident yet warmth filled voice) So, tell me what brings you here?
Siya: (Trying to play it cool) Mother wanted me to meet you.
Vihaa: And why so?
Siya: (Irritated) she thinks that you can help me in passing the exam which I failed because of my careless nature.
Vihaa: (After thinking for sometime) You know there was this time when I used to talk to people rudely or I used to be aggressive or irritated because I don't want people to see what I am actually feeling plus may be somewhere I used to fear that they would judge me.
As I listened to her, replay sometime in my head then only it clicked that she speaks what I was actually feeling and it surprised me but my mind warned me immediately,
Mind: Hey bro, don't you think to go soft just because she understood what are you feeling. Just stay strong and determined.
And I decided to remain cool, irritated and rude.
Siya: Its nothing like this.
Vihaa: I didn't mentioned you in all of this situations.
Siya: (Embarrassedly rubbed my back the neck, look at my laps) Okay
Vihaa: (Pinching my cheeks) You are so cute.
And her this sentence make me smile and she smiled too brightly look at me, when I see this it make me feel proud.
Vihaa: I want to be friends with you and about your exams, we will study together from tomorrow.
Siya: Okay no problem. I should go now.
Vihaa: Okay.
And I get from the chair and start moving towards the door, I can feel Vihaa following my steps. In a minute or so, I leave her house and in five minutes I enter inside my house and my mood changes from happy to sad because I started feeling as if some kind of pressure suddenly dropped on my shoulder.
However, keeping all this side I discard my shoes there and go towards the kitchen, to drink the water. As I am drinking the water, my mother come stand in front of me and her hand folded on her chest. Once, my water got finished I put my glass down, initiated the conversation
Siya: She said she wants to be my friend plus she wants to teach me for my exam
Mother: That's good I am happy that finally with her you will pass the exam without failing it again.
Siya: Okay. I have some thing to prepare for tomorrow so, I am going inside my room.
And to this mother just nodded her head in affirmation then we walk away in different directions. Once I reach inside my room, I locked the door then took a deep breath then I change my clothes as in, from track pants to t-shirt and shorts. After this I got settled in my bed with my diary and pen, then I start to write my thoughts...
"today I met someone, a confident independent person, she has some kind of warmth in her which comforted me. She has a beautiful house with lots of soft toys, I so want to have those toys too but my parents won't give me I guess. I am really looking forward to be with her more, in hope that may be she can heal me and change me to be a better person.
i really wanted to be okay, please help me god"
I closed my eyes and think about, how this morning turned out to be this beautiful, it brought a smile on my face I can feel it because it is making me feel light hearted.
Just like this whole day passed and after such a long time I am feeling a bit calm and relaxed. In the hope of having such a beautiful morning again, though I have a fear too, of loosing it but I guess the rays of hope are more strong to let fear dominate.