The morning passed silently, my mood remain happy and relaxed just because I had slept a little late, I missed having breakfast with the family and somewhere I am happy about it. And another reason for my relax mind as well as happiness was the text that I got from Vihaa early in the morning. All I do whole morning is, I fall asleep whenever I got the chance because I am feeling hell tired/exhausted.
However, soon I hear mother voice yelling my name..
Mother: Siya!!!! come for lunch
Siya: (Yelling back) Coming!
I walk tiredly towards the dining hall, all I am thinking about while doing this is that, I just want to sleep as if, I haven't slept from so many days. The moment I step in the dining area, I find aunt and granny present their. They have plates filled with food in front of them.
Seeing this, I start walking towards the kitchen but my mother come out suddenly with a plate filled up with food. And at first she look at me, with the head moment she hint at me to go and sit at the table as the food is ready. After this she kept my plate on the table, I sit on the chair with surprise and confused mind.
However, keeping all these thoughts aside, I started eating my food plus I try to keep my focus on food only. Though my efforts got failed because, granny initiated the conversation..
Granny: Siya, what happened to your room? As you were sleeping in my room.
Aunt: Yeah yeah tell, what's the matter?
Siya: (Monotonous tone) Father asked me to sleep in granny's room because he said granny's is getting old, usually stays I'll and I just have to look at that she don't fall down?
Aunt: That means just because my brother forced you to sleep in then only you are doing it otherwise you won't have dare to come inside the room. I can see, you don't love or care for us now.
Granny: Why would she take care of us or love us, she has her parents and friends with her then what else needed.
Meanwhile they are talking rubbish, I keep eating my food, though my mind do multi tasking. I am listening to their nuisance talks plus eating my food and hearing voices echoing inside my mind asking me to bang my head on the table. As soon as my food got over, I got up from the seat but before I could move towards the kitchen, granny speak up...
Granny: Siya where are you going?
Siya: Going to clean my plate.
Granny: Okay
After this I hurriedly walk inside the kitchen, clean my plates, once cleaned the plate. I walk directly towards my room and thankfully no one stopped me. The moment I got settled in my room, I could clearly hear the voices which are echoing inside my head..
Mind: These two ladies always talk shit, sometimes I really wish to hit their head on the wall.
Mind: But why I am thinking to hit them, I should bang my head on the wall. Bro, living with such a family is like a curse.
As these voices continues, I get up from the chair like a trans state walk straight to the wall near the study table, raise my right hand fist and hit the wall with it. As soon as this happened, voices stopped I took a deep breath in and with this I come back into my senses, as slowly I am starting to feel, the pain in my wrist.
A thought pop up in my mind...
"will these things ever be ending, loud voices, people quarrels around me and they assuming me that I am a bed person, are becoming really exhausting. I am unable to sleep properly, nightmares are getting worse. somehow harming myself is helping me but I am really worried, how long it will go? wheather I would be able to survive?"
Suddenly I hear loud voice of my mother..
Mother: Siya, come for dinner!!!!
Siya: (Shocked and surprise) Yeah coming
I sit up from the bed, pick up my phone from the side table and check the time, it says its eight in the night. This surprised me because I may have slept at some time, while thinking about all those things and that means no more sleep at night for today.
However, keeping all these thoughts I get up from the bed, take out my night wear from the wardrobe and go to washroom, then start getting fresh. Once I am done with it, I walk out from the bedroom and start moving towards the dining hall area tiredly, even though I have a sleep but still I am feeling exhausted.
The moment I stepped inside the dining hall, I see father and mother are sitting with their food plates and one more plate filled up with the food is kept on the table. Assuming it to be mine, I silently walk towards it and once I settled down, I start having food. After some minutes, father initiated the conversation...
Father: So, how was you night?
Siya: It was... (Cutted off)
Father: I know it must be good
Siya: hmmm
(Mind: stupid people don't have manners to talk, and for your kind information that was the most horrible sleep I have ever go through)
Without saying anything, I resume my eating. They both have their own conversation and I tried to eat my food as fast as possible because talking is of no use. Soon my dinner get over, I cleaned my plate in the kitchen then took a water bottle go towards my room.
Once I got settled in my room, I pick up Insurgent book and start reading it with my earphones plug in. Around eleven in the night my phone start ringing, seeing it I come to know that it's father's call so, I just decline the call and pick up my phone, water bottle, ear phones and go towards granny's room.
Today's night was same the previous one, I watched movie till three in the morning. After this, I notice slight movement in granny's posture so, I look at her side with full concentration but thankfully she fall asleep again. I again pick up the phone and check the time which says its three thirty in the evening, still I am wide awake.
I have no idea how to make my self fall asleep so, here I thought to listen all the voices which I am hearing presently. And here I learned one thing that is, even though the whole world is sleeping probably but there are still some sounds that you can hear...
clock ticking
shrimp sounds
dogs barking
voice of air flowing
sound of fan moving
And I found its very interesting plus beautiful as well.
After sometime I can see the early morning effects, by this time I am feeling somewhat sleepy. At some point of time I may have fall asleep but somewhere I am concious because I can hear voice of granny waking up, things moving but I choose not to wake up.
However, I wake up when I feel someone is waking me up by shaking me. I again choose not to wake up but this person keep shaking me so, by keeping my eyes close I sit on the bed and soon listen father's voice,
Father: Wake up, Siya. You and me going for a walk. No excuses please (showing me his right hand palm).
By keeping my eyes closed only, I pick up my phone and earphones. Then I go towards my room, plug charger in my phone, keep my earphones beside phone only and then go to washroom so I could start getting fresh. While I am getting fresh, all I am thinking is..
"I don't want to go for walk, I just want to sleep but I can't because of father's force".
However, as soon as I got fresh I step outside the room, find my father all ready for the walk. After thirty minutes we come back from the walk, I am feeling fresh and hungry. I directly go to my room and took shower, after wearing my clothes. I lay on the bed on my stomach, pick up my phone to know the timing which is eight in the morning and this means I have still an hour left for breakfast. I keep my phone aside and just lay down in the position, fall asleep.
I next wake up hearing the ringtone of my phone, without seeing the name I pick up the call.
(Phone conversation started)
Vihaa: Hey Siya
Siya: Hey
Vihaa: Hey how are you doing kid?
Siya: Just woke up and what about you?
Vihaa: Just reach school, would you like to party with me?
Siya: Sure but what is the occasion?
Vihaa: I just want to eat food outside
Siya: (Smiling) Yeah sure I would love to go, tell me the time.
Vihaa: We would be meeting in XYZ mall around six in the evening.
Siya: Okay cool done
Vihaa: Yo Cya
(Phone conversation ended)
Just like this, with her or talking to her.. I smiled plus now I am helll excited for meeting with her in the evening. With smiling face, get up from the bed and go towards the the dinning hall, in the hope of a beautiful evening.