***Taylors POV***
I follow Matty out holding onto his hand. Jay follows behind me and I glance back at him. He looks slightly down and I wonder what's going on. He eyes me warily and then looks away again.
We sit far away from Jen. I briefly wonder if her and Stiffy are on again. Or if it's Brad now. I can't keep up. Jen eyes Jay and if looks could kill. I glance at him and smile. He rubs my arm with his thumb and then gives me a bit of space. Rheas not here yet. I hope she'll turn up soon.
"Hey, I forgot your drink, I'm sorry" Rach says to Jay.
He shrugs sipping his brandy, I look down. Just waiting for it all to play out.
The bottle is on Matty. And it lands on another girl that I don't know. She's got blonde hair and she's wearing next to nothing. She's not attractive just saying. Jealous pot that I am.
"Matty" she says by way of greeting him.
She knows his name?
I turn to Jay.
"Whose that?" I ask him super quietly.
"Fuck knows" he faces me, his lips close to mine.
I pull myself away from Jay to watch, and I take a shot of my cocktail as he kisses her on the cheek then returns and pulls his shirt off. I touch him instantly, my hands on his chest. I know that's clingy, but I can't help it.
"Whose that? Matty" I ask openly.
He smiles at me and shrugs.
I laugh out loud.
"I think she's in my media class" he adds.
"I dunno" he laughs.
"Matty you need to take a shot" Rach directs him and he does. I lean onto his chest and he puts his arms around me.
"Rach in a minute do you want to make some more" I say meaning cocktails.
"Definitely" she laughs.
"But first it's your go" she says pointing to the bottle.
Ah shit that's what I wanted to avoid. I grimace.
"Okay but I can't take anything off" I say laughing.
It lands on Ryan and I go and kiss him on the cheek.
I tell Matty I won't be a minute and I collect his glass. I head into the the kitchen. Alone.
I start mixing up my own cocktail, Rach is busy.
I pour it into my glass the radio is on out here and I sing along. Jay laughs at the doorway.
"Ohh shh" I tell him
"What's your problem anyways" I ask him taking his glass and filling it up.
"Are you trying to get me drunk Taylor" he says closing the door over and leaning on it. His shirt is off and I focus on anywhere but his chest. His natural blonde hair is scrapped back. His blue eyes are piercing.
"Not a chance babe" I tell him handing him a brandy. I sigh at his sour expression.
"Please don't call me that" he says looking down at me intently. His fingertip distractedly stroking my waistline.
"Why?" I ask him standing far too close to him.
"Because I'm not yours" he says simply and winks at me.
I smile confused. I'm drunk and it takes a while for me to process.
"I know" I say quietly biting my lip.
"And don't do that" he says touching my lips with his finger.
"What?" I ask innocently. I dare to touch his hand to move it away from my face.
"You know what" he says and his hand is now on my hips.
"I don't babe" I tell him looking directly into his eyes. His eyes penetrate mine and I can lightly feel his breath on my cheek.
"Shhh" he says.
"Please just show me how you feel about me" he says quietly. We're standing right behind the door.
If anyone comes in we will hear them first.
"I won't say shit to anybody I promise" he says in my ear.
"I don't need you to be my girlfriend, I just need you to admit that you feel something for me" he says.
He kisses my ear and then his lips move down my neck, his hand pulls my hips in towards him. God I hate him. I hate myself for betraying my own feelings for Matty.
"Mmm" I say in his ear before I can stop myself.
"Fuck" he says pulling away from me briefly.
"I need you Taylor." he says looking into my eyes.
And then he closes the gap between us again. And his lips are on mine. Invading my mouth. His hands are on my thighs brushing them. My body invites him in returning his kiss. My hands go in his hair and I pull slightly.
I start thinking about it all and I gently push him off. He pulls away from me and stares into my eyes.
"Jay" I say getting my breath back.
"We can't Jay" I tell him.
"I like it when you say my name" he smiles.
"I won't say a thing" he tells me and he lightly brushes my lips again with his own.
His eyes are searching mine. And this isn't just a conquest for him. I know that. When did this all change? I think to myself looking at him. When did he decide he liked me and didn't just want to get with me.
He brushes his hand through his hair, frustrated.
"Okay." He chuckles.
"I'm sorry" he says and I'm flabbergasted.
He steps back from me and raises his hands up as if to say see I'm not going to touch you.
"I thought, you wanted me to kiss you. And I'm sorry, that wasn't the case. Sorry for forcing myself onto you. Won't happen again" he says smiling. He lights up a cigarette, and passes me one. He leans back on the table and smokes watching my reaction.
I don't know what to say and I must look very shocked. It's the last thing I expected him to say. Jay doesn't usually say sorry especially for coming onto a girl. Plus my body is currently just screaming for him to come back to me.
"Would you mind avoiding me completely for a little bit. Just because you ugh have a way of getting under my skin and into my head and I'd rather not see you like that" he says eyeing my legs.
I inhale my cigarette.
"Sure" I tell him quietly finally speaking and processing what's going on.
"Or just don't look at me" I chuckle.
"Yeah I tried that" he says smiling back at me.
I grab my drink and Matty's and head back into Ryan's living room. Jay walks closely behind me his hand brushes up my lower back casually and I smile briefly.
When I head over to the main group Rhea has arrived and she hugs me.
"Please sit with me for a minute bestie I haven't caught up with you for time, Matty is fine look" she bats her eyelashes.
"Of course, let me just give him his drink" I laugh.
I go over to Matty and give him his brandy.
He winks at me. He's quite drunk and I haven't seen him this drunk since well the first day we ever met. I laugh and turn around to go to Rhea. He catches my hand and sits me on his lap.
"Where are you going babe" he asks me in my ear
"I just need to talk to Rhea" I tell him sweetly.
"Am I more sober than you!?" I ask him.
"Possibly fuck" he says laughing stroking my hair back over my shoulder.
"Yeah Tay, I think he's going to need a lap dance soon" Rach laughs and I wink at her.
"Okay" I say standing up.
"You're gonna need some music for that" I laugh.
"Actually yes Ryan, music please" she calls over to him. She stands and heads over to help him as he's drunk. She stumbles half way but somehow manages not to fall.
I marvel at how she completely ignores Jay all the time, even though they're together. Well at least she's not as bad as me I tell myself. I just kissed Jay back, and I'm very much with Matty.
I look at Jay and smile. He winks at me as always and I laugh. I stand up and walk towards Rhea and consequently Jay feeling quite tipsy. The music comes on, it's makes me smile and I almost turn round and start dancing on Matty straight away. He's following behind me and I hold onto his hand.
"Hey" I tell Rhea sitting down on Matty's lap next to her and Jay.
"Wheres Malachi?" I ask.
"He's working" she says and when she sees my shocked expression she adds "he's got a job now" she laughs.
"Ohhh that's so good" I say stroking Matty's hair with my hand.
"What is it" I ask.
"He's a backup security guard, learning on the job" she says proudly.
"Wow fantastic, say congrats to him. If I don't see him soon" I say.
"So what have you guys been doing?" She asks.
"How's Ross" she adds eyeing new warily.
"He will be out in a few days" I say.
"It's all my fault really I should have stopped him because of the snow" I add.
"It's not Taylor, and you saved his life going and searching for him like that" Jay says.
Matty agrees rubbing my back.
"You did babe, I'm sure he will thank you somehow it is Ross"
"He's going to be fine, and you did all you could babe. Now drink up. I've never seen Matty more drunk than you" she laughs.
"A shot?" She says passing me a shot of tequila.
"Ah fuck it" I say to her. And down it. Matty watches me and chuckles.
A good song comes on and I can't help it my body reacts.
Matty clears his throat "ugh babe, please that's not fair" he laughs.
"Shh" I tell him facing him.
"You're literally bouncing on top of me" he defends himself.
Rhea is talking to Jay and I'm really happy he's making an effort with her, as a friend of course. Rhea looks great tonight, she's wearing all black.
"You keep doing that and I'm carrying you upstairs right now" Matty says. I can see Jay watching me and I feel slightly self conscious.
"Go on then" I whisper in Matty's ear. I stroke his hair with my hand and he closes his eyes briefly.
"You are not taking her anywhere Matthew" Rhea laughs. We both turn to face them.
"Ah why not?" Matty complains.
"I have not been in her company for too fucking long" she says smiling at him and his angelic looking face.
"And we are dancing the night away" I add smiling at Rhea and taking another shot of tequila.
"Okay fair but can you stand up and do it, preferably in front of me" he laughs stroking my thigh.
"Ohh it's like that" I laugh kissing him.
He lights up a cigarette and smiles at me. Daring me to dance in front of everyone.
"I dance for you what do I get in return" I ask sweetly.
"What would you like? You have everything already?" He says cheekily rubbing my bare back.
"I would like your undivided attention for the rest of the night babe" I tell him.
"Easy, that was not a good bargain Taylor. You always have my attention" he laughs and kisses me sweetly.
Rach comes over and sits on Jays knee. He welcomes her into his arms and kisses her.
I briefly feel sorry for Rhea, after saying hi to Rach she goes to get a drink discreetly.
"So Tay teach me some moves" Rach says laughing and I smile at her.