***Taylor's POV***
Matty and I spend the entire day together, just us. We both leave our phones on silent too.
We do some boring stuff which with him isn't boring at all. We get our food shopping, I drag him around the clothes and makeup aisle to refresh my makeup bag. I buy myself a few new pairs of black tight trousers to wear to uni with my leotards. And a short skirt and shirt to look smart in.
I need to get excited for uni tomorrow, so that I don't bottle it. And I decide a pale pink blouse and short black skirt will do that for me. I'm going to wear it with my high ankle boots. I have psychology tomorrow and that's it. Then I am finally going into the gym. That will help me feel in control.
I get us lots of food, and top up all of our toiletries. I buy the ingredients for curry and tell him I'm making it tonight, we even buy a few bottles of wine. Rach emptied my stash. I'm not sure how though in such a short space of time.
Matty insists on loading everything into the car while I sit in the passenger seat. It's snowing and it's cold. He gets in the car and turns the heater on high.
On the drive back, it's almost 5. We woke up so late, and left the house much later than normal. He drives slowly, yawning. He puts his fog lights on.
"Did you sleep" I ask.
"Nah I was making sure that you didn't I dunno choke or stop breathing" he says watching the road.
"You were that worried?" I ask.
"Babe you're the love of my life and when you suddenly tripped out I decided it wasn't normal and that I needed to monitor your pulse and breathing all night" he says laughing.
I brush his thigh and gently squeeze it.
"You're the love of my life too, Matty" I tell him.
It's dark but I can sense his smile.
Marty unpacks the shopping and I organise it in the kitchen. When we're finished I have a shower and put his clothes back on rather than my own. I hang up my outfit for tomorrow and let my hair dry wavey.
I head to the kitchen to make that curry. As I walk past the sofa he's asleep in front of the fire and I can't help but to smile at him.
I don't wake him, I'll wake him with food later.
I put the radio on and start cooking. I'm not drinking tonight I've decided to get it out of my system. I wait for the meat to brown and check my phone, finally.
I have a few texts. Jay, Jay and Jay again.
First one is an apology, confirming what I thought that he didn't know it was laced. And just asking if I was alright.
Second was sent four hours later, explaining that he was a dick last night and that it's all good to just forget about everything if I want too.
Third one was sent twenty minutes ago. It says "hey I'm sorry, please don't ignore me". I text him back telling him I understand and that I will forget about it all and not mention it again.
I laugh at him, being insecure. I mean why is he so worried about me not talking to him. I assume he's with Rach, they were dancing all over each other last night when we left. He was kissing her and touching her and that's okay. It's normal they are together.
He does that with girls, he's just a flirt and over affectionate. My phone buzzes as I stir the rice. It's a call from him. I'm shocked. I turn the music up slightly and push the kitchen door shut quietly. I continue cooking and answer.
"Hey" I say quietly.
"Hey, are you really okay?" He asks concerned. I've not spoken to him on the phone before. He breathes out a sigh of relief.
"Yes I'm fine. Jay, are you okay?" I laugh.
"I guess" he chuckles. "Are you sure? I feel like shit.
Are you aching like I am?" He asks and I smile.
"Yeah I'm aching too" I say.
"I just wanted to hear your voice and that way I would know how you're feeling and that you are okay" he says.
"You don't have to talk to me but thanks for accepting my call" he says and I'm shocked all over again.
"No it's okay you're my friend." I tell him.
"What are you doing?" He asks and I can tell he's smiling.
"I'm cooking babe" I tell him.
"Ohh nice what are you making?" He asks. Well this is bizarre. He's just talking to me. On the phone.
"Lamb curry. What are you doing, Jay?" I laugh.
"Wow you can cook that? And feeling like this at the same time? I just ordered takeout." He says.
"Rach not cooking you dinner?" I say and kick myself that came across as bitchy.
"She's ugh not here" he says.
"What happened?" I ask.
"I happened. Every time I get any chance with any girl I find a way of ruining it. Don't ask." He laughs.
"Ah well you know how to cook right?" I say trying to avoid that blunder.
"Actually no I don't" he says laughing.
"Come help me" he laughs.
I snort.
"What did you order?" I ask.
"Chinese. Why you want some?" He laughs cheekily.
"Not so sure about your lamb curry cooking abilities now?" He teases.
"Ohh shhh" I say.
"What happened? Between us last night? My memory is fuzzy" I say, this is a test. I remember it all, I think.
"I was a dick, after you ugh kissed Rach I gave you my spliff and then we were dancing. All of us. I was watching you and you looked spaced out and left. I was worried I don't know why but you looked upset. So I gave it a minute then I followed you just to talk I swear. As I was going upstairs I kept seeing shit that I don't think was there. I realised you were in the bathroom and tapped on the door but you let me in." He says, and this is all correct so far.
"I just wanted to talk. Alone I promise. But you kept biting your lip and it does things to me. And then you said about your dream and I asked first before kissing you this time around because I didn't want you to slap me" he laughs.
"I know I thought so. I'm sorry, I can see it all from your side but, where did you touch me?" I ask.
"Taylor I didn't rape you Jeez. I would never ever do that. I kissed you because you were waiting for me too and you snogged me back. I literally asked you first. I kissed your neck and chest and you said my name. And I stopped because the first time I get with you will not be while we're tripping out in Ryan's bathroom. That's not okay" he says.
There's a pause.
"We won't be doing that at all" I say quietly.
"Okay that's fine too. I just wanted to clear the air. I'm sorry" He says.
I don't reply to him and after a while he breaks the silence.
"Okay well now I know that you're okay and not... I will let you get on with cooking babe. And I'll see you tomorrow?" He says.
"Okay I'll see you then" I say. Looks like I will be sitting with him in psychology.
"Have a good night Taylor" he says softly.
"You too" I say and he hangs up.
How strange. I don't spend anymore time unpicking that conversation. He told me the truth. He didn't lie and he's not with Rach, he will find another girl to bother.
I plate up dinner and sigh. I turn off the hob and put the food on the table.
I walk into the now dark front room and see Matty still asleep. I sit next to him and rub his side, he opens his eyes slightly and I smile.
"Hey, come eat with me" I ask.
He stretches out and sits up slowly. He hugs me tightly.
"Sorry I fell asleep" he laughs.
"Thanks for dinner" he kisses me.
"No problem least I could do" I say.
I take his hand and he walks behind me into the kitchen.
"It smells incredible" he chuckles.
I just smile.
He eats heartily and I eat slowly because my tummy still doesn't feel right.
"You all good? This is delicious" He asks glancing at me.
"I'm just feeling a bit funny" I laugh.
"Probably a come down" he explains.
I look at him confused.
"It's when you've been on a trip and your body and mind returns to normal and it's why people end up taking more drugs because it's a bit shit" he explains.
"How do you know?" I ask smiling at him.
"I took a few drugs before I met you, at parties" he laughs.
"But I ugh wouldn't do that again, made me feel shit." He adds.
"Not worth the come down either" he says.
He's finished his food and I barely touched mine. He eyes my plate and looks back at me.
"Taylor yesterday I was so fucking scared, that something had happened to you. I love you so fucking much babe" he says.
I don't reply I'm sore and tired, I just stand up and go over to him. I sit in his lap straddling him.
"I love you Matty. I know that it's been a bit shit, with all that happened but actually I really enjoyed myself last night despite the drama." I add laughing.
"I want to let you know though that Jay just called. He just wanted to say he was sorry and that's it. And that he didn't know that it was laced. He feels shit and they broke up over it. So don't give him too much of a hard time tomorrow" I say looking into his gorgeous green eyes.
"Now though that's enough talking about our friends. I want to talk about us" I say and kiss him.
He smiles, "all good things I hope" he says laughing.
I grab the pills from the table and he sighs.
"Thoughts?" I ask. Again this is another test.
"Babe, I'm happy either way" he says smiling.
"I ugh don't think I've had a period yet, by the way" I say openly.
"The website says it may be delayed because of the break in the pills. But I would normally be on by now" I tell him.
He looks down at my tummy grinning.
"Are you telling me that there's even the slightest chance that we've managed to make a little baby in your tummy" he says smiling.
I brush his hair away from his face, affectionately.
"I'm saying that I've not had a period, It could just be my body reacting to the lack of pills or it could be the unprotected sex" I say and I place my hands on either side of his cheeks.
"It was really irresponsible of me smoking and drinking yesterday I know, but if I was I wouldn't be far along at all anyways" I say smiling.
He grins at me, his hands going to my waist. I laugh instinctively.
"'Matty it's a long shot at best, and plus there is no way I would have a tummy yet. What I am asking is what do you feel about me taking the pill tomorrow? Thinking about having your baby inside me, has sort of thrown me off track" I laugh.
"Honestly? No I don't want you to take the pill. What we could do is wait a couple more days and then take a test. And then we could go from there?" He smiles.
I kiss him feverishly, that's what I wanted to do. I had my heart set on that already. I break away from him and stare into his eyes.
"Imagine if I was, Matty? What would that mean?" I ask smiling.
He brushes my hair back and cradles my waist.
"It would mean the world" he says simply.