Xavier was still thinking hard on how he greet his new friend- he has only ever had one friend
and he had fell in love with her- and now he was going to go through it all over again-
but it was different- he knew this man loved him- but he still is unsure of his feelings-
he's learning and he's willing to accept it-
but this new to him- it doesn't have to do with the fact that he's a man- just loving someone else and someone who truly loves him back
he knows that Lorain's feelings for him were complex- she loved him- but it wasn't the same level as him and he realizes- it was dumb to think she loved Callus- he was just projecting- he doesn't know why it took so long for him to figure this out- he was so blindly in love with her and now that he's moved on he's able to realize it- and he will learn to love Callus just as he does
when Xavier saw Callus he was nervous
but he had to talk to him- but he wasn't sure how to act- and let his instincts kick in
he wrapped his arms around Callus
Callus hugged him back and noticed his tears
Callus lifted his head up
"Xavier? what's wrong?" He asked
"I'm- so sorry- I left like that- I was such an idiot" Xavier replied in tears
"Hey- you're not idiot- I know you were scared-
but you don't have to be and we can take things slow- we started over- that's in the past now-" he replied
"Yeah- I know- I'm not scared anymore- I- want- to try it-" Xavier replied wiping his tears
"try what?-" Callus asked
"You know- letting you in - and trying it out- I'm still unsure of my feelings- but I still want to try-" he replied
"and you said you were straight-" Callus replied
"You- know I was lying- I'm not sure what- I am- I loved Lorain with all my heart but it was never- sexual- and then- when I met- you it- was-" he replied
"so you're admitting it?- and how can you be so shameless?" Callus replied
"You're the shameless one- you were the one who shouted- out- that I did things to you and made you want more - you made it seem like I was some ex- and we had sex-" he replied
"I- didn't mean for it to sound that way I was just letting my feelings out- and I realize how dumb I was- f*ck- I barely know you- but I know we have a connection- and I couldn't stay away from you-" Callus replied
"how can you even be more shameless?-but-
I understand what you are saying- I feel it too the connection- and I couldn't stay away from you either- and now I- don't want to lose you-" he replied
"I don't want to lose you either- I don't ever want to feel that pain I did- and I know you didn't die but it felt like it I was scared I would never see you again that you hated me-"
Callus replied
he felt as if he had just been stabbed in the chest - those words hit him hard he felt that for Lorain- but he was scared of the same happening to Callus too - he had lost Lorain twice and he almost lost Callus again even though he barely knew him back then- he still felt it- but now he had the man he wanted
he hugged him tight
Callus hugged him back
"You're not alone anymore- I'm here and I always will be because I love you- but I don't expect you to return it back yet- I will wait for you" he replied
"Callus- I know- and we are friends- now but maybe we could be more?" Xavier replied
"are sure? please don't force yourself for me-" before he could finish his words Xavier put a hand to his lip
"I'm not forcing anything- I made you this way and I need to take responsibility- I- want to try it " he replied
Xavier put his hand down he looked at Callus's neck- it still had his mark-
Xavier couldn't help but blush when he saw it-
and he realizes the things he did were intimate- and he wants- to do it again someday- but maybe not when he's thirsty-
he was thirsty in both ways- he became redder
"You know- I was thirsty too- and you didn't give me enough-" Callus replied
"Dammit Callus- how can you be so shameless?-" he replied
"You're fun to tease- zavi-" Callus replied
"zavi?!-" he replied
"What do you not like it?- friends give eachother nicknames - and thought it was cute like you" Callus
"cute?!- Dammit Cal - so I didn't imagine it- you did call me cute-" he replied
"of course I did you are cute" Callus replied
"call me cute one more time and I'll skin you alive" he replied
"alright- sorry zavi - you're handsome" Callus replied
Xavier turned a even brighter red-
first he says- he thirsty- then he calls me zavi-
and called me cute again- and now he called me handsome- f*ck I can't breathe- I might die from embarrassment-
"would you two stop flirting already?" Lorain replied
the both of them separated when they heard her and turned around
"we weren't-" Xavier started to say
"we were" Callus replied shamelessly
Lorain just rolled her eyes
"come on boys it's time to get to class" she replied
and so the two of them went to class
"Wait we have the same class-" Xavier replied
"Yeah you went to everyone I did like a stalker- and you still believed you liked Lorain" Callus replied
"I did like Lorain-" Xavier replied
"I know-but you- like me now" Callus replied
"did I say that?" He replied
"You thought it" Callus replied
"Hey don't read my mind it's not cool" he replied
"I can't help it but I'll try" Callus replied
Lorain who was watching pushed the two into class
"I told you boys to stop flirting- and why is my name in it when you two flirt?" she replied
"because he used to like you" Callus replied
"hey!-" Xavier replied
"What it's true and she already knew - she remembers everything-" Callus replied
"Hey! You weren't supposed to tell him that!" she replied
"I figured as much- and you can read her mind too?" He asked
"No she told me everything-" Callus replied
"Well I knew he would be your future husband so I trusted him" she replied
"husband?!" Xavier replied
"so- that's what you ment- so you can see the future?-" He asked
"No- I can not but I can see what's in someone's heart- and you have eachother- and that's how I know how things will turn out-"
she replied
"Lorain how long have you had that gift?" Xavier asked
"I've always had it-" she replied
"so I have two people who can tell when I'm lying-" he replied
"that's why I died faster if you didn't lie I would have lived" she replied
"I lied?" He asked
"there was someone else in your heart- but you still couldn't admit it- that very person is the one you're with now-" she replied
"but I barely knew him how could he?-" he replied
"he was- the two of you connected that night-" she replied
"I- don't get it we didn't even f*ck- I just bit his neck and licked him-" He replied
"You gave him a hickey two?!- what the heck is wrong with you zavi?!" she shouted
"Hey calm down-and don't call me zavi-" he replied
"why not I'm your friend too" she replied
"Yeah but I don't love you anymore-" he replied
"so you love him?" she replied
"Hey! It's too soon to use that word- I'm still unsure- but I do like him I think- just not love yet-" he replied
"What do you like about him then?" she asked
"I like how honest he be and how caring and his shamelessness -" he replied
"You two are perfect for eachother-" she replied
"You really think so?" He replied
"I know so- future husband-" she replied
"don't say it like that it makes it sound like we are still together" he replied
"he's your future husband better?" she replied
"how is it- you both have cool abilities and I don't?" He replied
"maybe you do you just don't know what it is yet" she replied
"maybe-" he replied
"Ok ok- your husband has already gone in I took up your time -now go go" she replied
with that he walked in and sat down next to him-
"hello husband-" he replied
"we- skipped to that already?- you can't even say I love you-" Callus replied
"well- um- it's just Lorain called you that -"
he replied
"I know I was there and I was just teasing you- my little zavi" Callus replied
"Cal-" he couldn't finish his sentence- he was too embarrassed- and everyone has been watching them- he stays quiet as the class starts-
and once it's over they talked again
"You know- I know that you can't help it- but you're confusing me-"Callus replied
"Well you're the one confusing me-and your teasing and flirting- isn't helping-" he replied
"but doesn't it make you like me more?" Callus replied
"maybe- but I still don't know you that well-"he replied
"but you have a basic idea of me- and you don't have to know everything about me - I know nothing about myself-" he replied
"You don't know anything about yourself?"
Xavier asked
"Well not really- I know I was a sick kid and that's how I ended up in the ward- and because of the blood loss- I don't remember much before I was turned- I could only remember you-" he replied
"I think that's my fault- I didn't stop- and because of that you loss your memories-
I'm really sorry" Xavier replied
"Hey don't be if you didn't take my blood I wouldn't be here today and I would have never met you- you saved my life do you know that?"
he replied
"I saved your life?" Xavier asked
"Yeah I was really going to die- I was scared but I couldn't do anything as I was losing consciousness- and then you bit neck and I woke up- and then you licked me- I mean I liked it alot but why did you do it?" he replied
"I- I-just read my mind I can't say it" Xavier replied
Your blood was delicious-
"Oh- so you really did like my blood-" he replied
"why do think it was so hard to stop?" Xavier replied
"there wasn't any other reason?" he asked
Xavier was bright red again
"Oh-wow- you should have told me" he replied
"stop reading my mind you pervert" Xavier replied
"You're the pervert thinking those things" he replied
"hey!- It's your fault" Xavier replied
"You're the one who licked me-" he replied
"can you stop reminding me?" Xavier replied
"why? It's not like you'll do it again" he replied
"I might if you don't shut up" Xavier replied
"lick me then" he replied
Xavier leaned in and licked his chest
Callus eyes widen in surprise
and as Xavier wiggled his tongue
Callus moaned-
Xavier moved his tongue up and licked his nipples
Callus let out another moan-
he traced over his collar bone
Callus moaned once more
he licked his mark and then he stopped
"Ah- f*ck Xavier- I really liked that-" he replied
Xavier turned bright red-
he had done it again - what was wrong with him?! - but he couldn't help it- his teasing was just too much-
"Hey no need to be ashamed- if you like doing this to me I don't mind - and I think it's called friends with benefits?"- he replied
"um- what is that?" Xavier asked
"it's what we are friends with benefits- it just means we can do- things to eachother - with no consequences " he replied
"I- does- that mean you would do the same to me?" Xavier asked
"only if that's what you want zavi" Callus replied
"I- give me a sec-" he replied
"alright" Callus replied and backed up
Xavier was in full panic mode -
I- am turned on help me someone please save me from this embarrassing moment
"You know I could help" Callus replied
"No-I'm not letting you do that" Xavier replied
"Ok- so what do we do then?" Callus asked
"forget this happened?" Xavier asked
"ha No- I'm never forgetting this-" he replied
" I don't remember this at all - but you doing that to me sounds hot-" [Real Cal]
"Dammit Cal you tease!" [Real Xavier]
"Dammit- you never forget when it's me-" Xavier replied
"I couldn't forget you babe" he replied
"Dammit Cal- don't call me that" Xavier replied
"should I call you daddy then?" he replied
"I will smack you if you dare" Xavier replied
"so just zavi then?" he replied
"Yeah-" Xavier replied
"if you call me husband then can I call you wife?" he replied
"NO- I REFUSE- YOU'RE NOT GOING TO CALL ME THAT" Xavier replied
"then Master?" He replied
"do you really want me to slap you?" Xavier replied
"then I can't call you wifey?- it's not fair if you call me hubby-" he replied
"I'm not calling you that-" Xavier replied
"but you will-" he replied
"stop it will you?- I've had enough of your teasing" Xavier
"Well I can't help it Zavi when you're so fun to tease" he replied
why did this guy like him?- even after he's done it twice?- he still couldn't understand him
but he liked him- he wants to say- love but he's still unsure- he likes being teased by him and he wanted to do more to his body-
but did he want the same? he wasn't sure- he liked doing it to him- but does he?
he never thought that way- he isn't comfortable with touch in the first place and the fact that he likes touching someone is new to him -
"so that's why you understand why I don't like it- you are the same way- but you're comfortable with my touch-" [Real Cal]
"Yeah and I'm sure it's the same with you-" [Real Xavier]
and he remembers the hug and how he held his head up - he felt safe- and he liked it-
but those other actions- he wasn't comfortable with that yet- and it wasn't right if he did those things to him- but didn't want it in return-
"I'm not going to force you I just want you to be comfortable with what you do- and I'm OK if you don't want the same- I won't force you"
he replied
"are you sure? what if I hurt you?" Xavier asked
"You're not going to hurt me- you aren't like that" he replied
"but I hurt you before- I'm the reason you don't remember anything-" Xavier replied
"is that true? did you cause my memory loss?" [Real Cal asked]
"Not this time Cal but I still feel responsible for it-" [real Xavier replied]
"Hey it's not your fault ok Zavi? I remember you and that's all that matters-"[ Real Cal]
"I remember you- and that's what's important" he replied
"but I'm not- I'm not important- I- I'm worthless" Xavier replied
"You're to me! don't say things like that-" he replied
"why do you care so much?- you don't even know me-" Xavier replied
"I know everything about you- how you only lie when you're nervous- that for some reason I'm always on your mind and it drives you crazy-
how red your face gets when I tease you-
I know you like tasting my body- and you want more- and I know you're venerable side too
you apologize alot and put yourself down so others don't and you blame yourself for everything- even if you blame someone else first- I know you don't feel comfortable around others - and are most comfortable with me-" he replied wrapping his arms around him and hugging him tight [the real callus did the same]
Xavier hugged him back sobbing
Callus petted his hair stroking it -
Xavier isn't used to this sort of affection but he likes it- and he doesn't want to let go
he loved Lorain but he could never do this with her- even kissing was hard- the most he could handle was holding hands- he couldn't hug her- he loved her but it was hard- he didn't understand why he couldn't do it- but he feels more at ease with Callus and he- wasn't sure-
but when he knew he wasn't comfortable
he didn't understand- did he not love her?
no he did- but it wasn't the same as he felt now- he likes that this man cares about him-
but he is unsure how to return it-
[he doesn't want to lose him- he so scared of losing the person closest to him-
again- and he- caused his pain it's his fault that he ended up this way- he doesn't remember much- and that concerns him- he knows he won't forget him- but he wants him to remember who he was but at the same time he's scared that if he does he will forget him-[this was still true and Xavier's current thoughts]
Callus lifts his head up and wipes his tears
"I will never forget you- I know you are worried about me but there's nothing wrong with me-" he replied
"but you don't remember-" Xavier replied
"and I don't need to all I need to remember is you- you are the most important thing to me- and I don't want to lose you" he replied
"You are important to me too- and I don't want to lose you either- I'm so scared- I'll lose you-
just like I lost her- and I almost did- " Xavier replied
"You're not going to lose me I'll always be by yourside - and we're vampires remember?" he replied
"there's plenty of ways you could still die-" Xavier replied
"stop thinking of the worse and look on the bright side- you are supposed to be bright- that's what you're name means" he replied
"and you are good- so good- both literally and and as a person- and I never want- you to leave me- alone- I don't understand why you are so good to me when I have made your life worse-" Xavier replied
"Xavier- you have made my life bright- before now I didn't have a life- what ever it was-
I stay in a bed and unable to move- I was completely paralyzed- but thanks you I was able to feel and move again-" he replied
"I was paralyzed?" [real Cal]
"ha- Cal- you weren't paralyzed but you thought you were so your body reacted that way- you'll learn the reason you did that to yourself later" [Real Xavier ]
"is that true?- I really saved you?" Xavier asked
"Yes- like I said before I would be dead- if it weren't for you-" he replied
"but what if I had killed you? because- that was my original plan- I didn't care- I was hungry- thirsty-" Xavier replied
"you really wanted to kill me?" he replied
"Yes- I didn't care- I had hoped you were dead-
but- now everything is different- this why they say don't play with your food- because it will become to like you-" Xavier replied
"I had hoped that it wasn't true- but I was wrong at the time I was right- you really did think of me as food- but do you still think of me that way?" He replied
"No You are more than that you are my everything and I couldn't live without you-" Xavier replied
"neither could I, you are also my everything
my new house" he replied
"Cal- I'm am this close to wanting to murder you-" Xavier replied
"but you won't- you care too much" he replied
"Yeah your right-I love you-" Xavier replied
"You- didn't- am I hearing things?- did you just say the l word?" He replied
"maybe-" Xavier replied
"So you did my zavi- said it-" he replied
"I didn't-" Xavier replied
"so you're in denial again?" he replied
"No-I-but I can't-"Xavier
"but you do- and I'm glad- I love you too" he replied
"I-fine- I- deeply care about you-" Xavier replied
"So you're not going to say it again?" he replied
"No-" Xavier replied
Callus gave him a peck on the cheek
Xavier turned bright red- but he didn't dislike it-
could they become more than just friends?
"I'm pretty sure we just did- and Zavi?-" Callus replied
"Yeah Cal?-" He replied
"can I- kiss you?" Callus asked
"um- Cal you sure? you can't exactly see my face-" he replied
"I know but I can feel it- and you can guide me to your lips-" Callus replied
Xavier knew he couldn't see it but he smirked at that remark
"Dammit Cal you're so adorable- come mere-"
so Callus leaned in reaching up and Xavier grabbed his face and brought it to his
his lips fit perfectly over his