Curtis takes easy steps towards me with his hands forward in a pleading manner like he is approaching a wounded animal.
"Brianna, please! Five minutes I swear" he says. I decide to leave him and go sit where Alice is with a sigh
"Talk," I tell him and he comes from the back to face me again
"Alice can we have a minute please," he says to Alice and she looks to me for an answer and nods to her. I just want him to say his peace so that he can leave
"I will be in the bedroom and I will probably be eavesdropping so don't try anything," she tells Curtis with a finger as she leaves
It is silent for a while before Curtis begins to talk as he replaces the place Alice occupied and tries to reach for my hand but I retract mine
"I'm sorry Brianna. I never meant for you to find out that way. Madison can be mad sometimes and I know it not an excuse but you need to know that's Maddy and I were separated when I met you. I fell in love again I wanted to have a life with you. I was in the process of negotiating a divorce with her. She went to France and I was waiting for her to come back so I could ask for a divorce" He bites his teeth look me in the eyes and continues
"I didn't even know that she was back or that she was pregnant. I was shocked when she told us today just as you were" Tears are falling and he holds my hand trying to comfort me but all I feel is pain
"I love you, Brianna. You're the woman I want to spend the rest of my life with and our baby. Just let me deal with this so I can finally be free and we can move on with our life together" he insists, he tries to bring me to his warm embrace but I refuse him
"You want to divorce her while she is pregnant with your baby for what? so you can be with me? Your mistress?" I find myself shouting at him and abruptly stand up as my childhood flashes right before my eyes
I see how my mom suffered. I see those groups of women whose families were destroyed and how to hurt they were. Curtis just turned me into a home wrecker. A person I swore to myself I would never be. I'm disgusted with myself and I blame him for putting me in this position that he just did. I told him about my childhood and my parents and yet he disregarded everything I told him that was so hard for me to admit and turned me into what I hate. I can't believe he betrayed me that deeply
"You're not my mistress. I love you" he answers quickly after seeing that I have become upset
"I'm not breaking up a marriage. A family. Leave Curtis we are done" I shout at him as I move to the door but he stops me by holding my hand
"You are not destroying anything. The marriage was already done before you came in. Please let's just talk it out" he urges me
"You betrayed me and my trust. You made a complete fool of me. How can I ever trust you again? What's worse you turned me into the worst person in my life someone I despised. How could you?" I ask him as tears threaten to start spilling again.
"Brianna I am sorry. I never meant for you to find out. I..."
"Stop! Just stop it Curtis" I yell at him with my hands and he lets me go and looks anywhere but at me. There is a sad silence that passes before I take control of my emotions and give my judgment
"I don't ever want to see you again Curtis. When you want to come to take your things I will arrange for Alice to help you. Don't call me don't text me just don't try contacting me in any way this..." I say pointing to him and me "Is done. final. what you have done is enough. I will hate myself for the rest of my life because of you. Just leave" I say pointing to the door while fighting my tears and wiping a few that have gotten away not looking at him
"You can't mean that," He says as he stands and approaches me
"I do. Leave. Now"
"We're going to have a baby. You are pregnant. I won't abandon my blood" he answers as he takes my face in his hands so I can look him in the eye. I know he is trying to achieve some kind of reaction from this but I have already made up my mind.
"No, we are not," I tell him removing myself from him while he looks at me astonished by my answer
"Whatever do you mean?" he asks
"We are not going to have a baby. So you have no reason to stick around. I won't subject my child to this pain" I tell him with conviction.
"I won't let you keep my child from me, Brianna. I am its father and I will be in its life however way I have to" he says to me as he starts getting upset
"We won't be having a child because I won't be having this child. I'm going to have an abortion the first thing tomorrow morning"
"Your joking" he saves getting angry
"No. I'm doing whatever is necessary and saving your marriage in the process. I hope I can be forgiven for my sins. I want you out, completely out of my life. Now please leave"
"I won't let you get rid of my child," he says to me angry
"You can't let me or not let me do anything. I don't need your permission to do anything. It's my body and I have made my decision. Your wife is having twins go and take care of those first" I say in finally and start leaving heading for the bedroom he follows suit shouting at me
"That's my child. I don't care what happens to us but you can't get rid of it"
Alice gets out and I get in closing the door behind me. I hear a long commotion between Alice and Curtis until Alice threatens to call the police and that's when Curtis reluctantly leaves. Alice makes us dinner that we have quietly and she urges me to rest.