She sleeps over that night and holds me when I cry. I'm so glad for her right now because I'm very confused. One time as I am drifting off to sleep she slowly whispers
"Are you really having an abortion?" I'm silent but then tears fall over and I have to wipe them while keeping myself from crying
"I'm sorry I didn't mean to upset you but whatever you decide just know I'm here for you," she says wiping off my tears and like that, I fall asleep again
Alice goes to work the following morning but I decide to take a sick day as I'm not up to it. It's ten o'clock when I wake up again and do a pee rush to the bathroom. I have just finished peeing when I notice the blood on my pants. I check my pyjamas and there is a slight pinkish to them. I get worried and call Alice so she can take me to the clinic. I grab a shower real quick and by the time I finish Alice has arrived and we head to the clinic together. We're coming out of the clinic and heading for Alice's car later after we are done at the clinic when Curtis shows up out of nowhere
"What are you doing here curt?" I ask as I never thought to meet him today here. Is he here with his wife? I really don't want to meet her again. Not today
"Stalker much?" Alice says to him
"The real question is what are the two of you doing at the clinic today? We just went yesterday remember?" Curtis asks with a grim face. He looks angry and tired. His question seems to be accusing me of something but I have no energy to find out
"Leave me alone curt," I tell him as Alice helps me get in the car. Then she gets in and we leave him there standing as he watches us and we go home as he keeps biting his teeth.
It is later that evening when Alice has gone back to work and I'm in bed that Curtis walks into the bedroom. He looks tired and sad and for a moment I feel sorry for him. I wish I could give him the comfort he needs but I can't not right now and not ever. the silence drags on and on without either of us saying anything until the bed dips with his weight as he sits beside me on the edge and looks up at me
"Did you do it?" he finally asked
"Do what?" I know what he's asking but I pretend not to understand
"I followed you to the clinic. I never left. I was downstairs I was waiting for you to come down so we could talk"
"Okay" I answer him as I don't know what he wants and what he expects from me
"Did you have an abortion?" he asks again slowly
'I don't see how that's any of your business" I answer back
"Did you get rid of our baby? My child?" he asks as his voice has risen up
"Yes" I quietly answer
"You did it. didn't you? How could you? That was our child. I loved that child and I wanted it and you destroyed him or her without giving it or me a chance and for what? your pride? I know what I did was wrong and I hurt you but what you have done is far far worse. I didn't know you had such a dark heart….. I meant to kill your own child….." He sniffs like he's fighting back tears and retrieves keys from his pockets and places them on the bedside table beside me.
"here are your keys. I will send you your stuff tomorrow. I don't need anything from this house. Throw, sell, burn I don't care. I just hope you can live with what you have done to that innocent poor child" he says then he stands up and looks me straight in the eye
"I never knew you were so cruel. I mean I saw you going in but I told myself it could be something else because I couldn't believe you wouldn't actually really do it" He sighs and looks up then continues "You have your wish. Goodbye Brianna" he pretends to smile and it's the worst smile I have ever seen on such a sad handsome face. I look away and hold myself in check so I do not break down in front of him as he turns his back and slowly leaves.
I hear the front door is closed and that's when I let myself out. I release my sadness and tears and let them show up. I am hurt by so many things and going through too many emotions right now. I feel my heart is going to burst right out of my chest and I won't be able to control it even if I tried.
That is how our love story ends. In tragedy and pain, alot of pain. I really loved curtis and i guess i will never know if he really loved me and if he saw this ending in our relationship before today. And thats whats broken beyond us, one of the things thats broken. I can never trust him. I cant believe a word that comes from his mouth after all the lies he has been feeding me non stop.
I know its hard and that its going to take alot but i trust that it will pass and in a few months or a few years , i will feel as brand new as a babby. I trust my decision. It was the. Right thing to do for all of us involved, its going to save alot of heart ache, drama and pain that could be avoided. Most of all i wish he finds his happiness. I know i will find mine. Goodbye Curtis