I couldn't sleep at all last night. I was worried about Evel. I've never seen him in this situation and it was really a tough one for him. I'm also hurt but this is not the time to think about myself, maybe I should just help him and get over him, although I don't think it's easy. Funny how a relationship starts and ends even before twenty-four hours are over. I think I'm getting used to it because he has never looked at me the way I saw him look at that bot the other time. The first thing I did when I woke up was to check my phone. I was hoping to find a reply from Axel but there was none. It showed that he had read the message but he wasn't repkhnknv. Is it possible that maybe he doesn't know me? Because I know a lot of people would go crazy if I texted them, it was much more impossible that he would know Evel and then not know me.
"Hey... Why are you pouting?" I was distracted by Evel's voice and I turned only to find him looking at me. His eyes were swollen and you could tell that even from afar.
"Morning... why are you up it's still early," I said trying to cut off the conversation about why I was pouting.
"Oh, about that... I need to go to the gym, guess I need some distraction... I'm broken, I thought after I woke up the pain would be over but ill just have to live with it I guess..." he said sounding much more broken than he seemed. He woke up and headed to the bathroom. I know he was going to brush his teeth and I followed him. I hadn't brushed mine either. Oh, it's like he lives with me because he has almost everything in my room, including a toothbrush.
"What did you say to him yesterday... Or rather what did you guys talk about ?" I asked and he stared at me through the mirror. We were still brushing and I had asked it out of nowhere. After some time we were done, and we always finish at the same time.
"I didn't tell him anything bad... But I wanted to spend some time with him, I told him about you, and the other day I had texted him about you and he said that I am lucky because you are cute... So I just told him that we are dating, that's what he wanted right? He didn't even seem to care much about that all he kept on saying was that I was lucky because you are perfect... that he wish he could be like you... Oh and he apologized because he thinks that I didn't finish the song because of him and also he said he knows I like him but he said it's not worth it....total bullshit right? I even deleted our conversation...." he said and then left me there. So they have been conversing and the reason I couldn't see any text was that he deleted the chats right? He is just lying to himself
.Evel knows how to keep secrets, he is the best at hiding things but if he managed to tell Axel about us then the boy meant something. Even the other members didn't know yet. There was nothing to tell them anyways because it was already over before it started. He is such a stupid boy, right? It's obvious that even though Axel didn't show it he was hurt right? If Axel told him that he knows how he feels and it's not worth it doesn't mean he doesn't feel it too right? Maybe something is stopping him or maybe he is afraid of being hurt or maybe needed assurance from Evel. It's not his fault anyway, he has never noticed that I've had feelings for him for almost a decade how could he realize what he was being told?
"So about the song are you still writing it?" I asked after following him. He was seated on the bed and once I asked he stood up to leave.
"I don't think I have the interest right now... I'm gonna have a shower in my room... Wanna go to the gym with me?" He asked when he got to the door.
"No... I have to go somewhere important... and don't forget that you broke up with me if I keep on going or doing things with you I might never let too go back to him" Ghags all I needed to say and the door was banged.
"Careful... you don't wanna spend the whole day repairing the door," I said and he didn't talk although I know he had heard it. I checked my phone once more and there was no reply from Axle. So the gut knew me huh? Why wasn't he replying? Was he mad at me or something?
I texted him again and this time it was a rude one. "If you don't wanna talk to me then at least be worried about Evel, he is hurt by what you said to him and this might end up causing damage to his career, he is supposed to release a solo song but he is not doing it anymore and it's because of you. I've stayed with him and I know he is rebellious and if he doesn't release the song then he might be in a problem... I know you don't wanna see me but can you do it for his sake? I'm worried about him" I send it and then I went to the bathroom. Honestly, I took some liner time in the shower. This is the meanest thing that I have ever stayed to someone in my entire life and I was regretting it. I just hope it's worth it because I don't want Evel to be scolded by the company. Plus this is about his career, something he has worked so much for and I wasn't gonna let it be destroyed that easily.
Getting out of the shower, I dressed and then took my phone to see if he had texted back, but with zero expectations.
"I don't like noisy places or places filled with people, I prefer silence" That was the reply I got. I wasn't that stupid and I knew what it meant. So this means that he cared about Evel too right? He was indirectly telling me that we should meet in a quiet place. I don't know why but I like him already. At least ill get a chance to look at him and try to figure out what Evel saw in him that he couldn't find in me, not in a bad way but in a good way. I have to be happy for him right? One thing about me, if I do something I do it with one heart and I dedicate myself to it. I just hope that this works. I send him the details of where we were gonna meet and then left the house. I don't like breaking any rules so I had to go with my bodyguard. I don't like being scolded too, unlike Evel who finds it fun.