Love comes from blindness
Friendship from knowledge.'
Comtelde Bussy Rabuttin.
As I stare at the disappearing figure of Kai, I let out a defeated sigh as I also get on my feet and follow him into the office like he just told me to do.
I reach his closed-door office and knock twice before pulling the door open and walking inside.
He is standing beside his window looking outside.
I walk and stand a few feet from him and sensing my presence he turns to look at me.
"Samantha." I usually don't care but am starting to like the way he calls my name all the time.
He does it so many times that every time he wants to say something to me, he starts with my name and goes on progressing with whatever he wants to talk to me about like now.
"Are you okay?" His question takes me by surprise and it doesn't faze to raise a frown on my lips.
I think about it as it takes me a moment to think of an answer but then, I realize I don't have to think much about it I am okay.
Aren't I?
I compose myself and nod my head before answering. "Yes sir, I am perfectly fine."
Bringing his hands together and clasping them in front of him.
He looks at me directly in the eye and asks again. "Well then Samantha, do explain then why you aren't attending to your duties like you are supposed to be doing if you claim you are perfectly okay."
I look at him and am left with no explanation not because I don't have any but because am feeling all these types of feelings that keep wanting to isolate me from people.
The first ones at the very top of my family— more specifically my sister then him, the person standing one feet away.
"Samantha? What is taking your mind in all seriousness?" I blink as I realize I zoned out and look at Kai taking in his question.
"Talk to me?" He presses and I just stare at him thinking about a million reasons why I shouldn't but he seems to not want to let it go that easily.
"Samantha, apart from being your boss here. Do you remember you pressed me to be your friend at our very first meeting? well, I have taken you as mine so please tell me what is crowding your mind?" Still, he receives no reply from my side.
"Is my work becoming overbearing? Are things not going well at school? Are you facing a bullying situation?" The last question has me scoffing and rolling my eyes at the same time.
'Why does everyone seem to think that the only problem I could be having is of bullied as if I have an announcement at my forehead for being a nurd in search of a bully.'
God, I have much more pressing and serious issues than those bullies everyone keeps asking me about.
I look at Kai and roll my eyes the second time before I turn and walk to lean my lower body on his office table facing my side at him.
"It's not about a bully Kai, it's…" I pause as I tilt my head to look at him not believing am doing this.
But the desire and attentiveness I find in his eyes kick my doubt to the side of not talking to him because now I realize the truth to his words of him being my friend here.
If not him then whom am I going to talk to? I can't go to Leila to issues regarding his brother nor can I talk to Lucas himself. And these two are the only souls I know here including Kai which leaves him as my safest person here.
I look at him and bite my lips wondering where I will be starting from. "Uhm yesterday when I left your suite."
"Wait." He says to stop me from talking any further and a frown comes on my face.
"While we are still on that subject, yesterday? What made you rush out after confessing you liked me?" Hearing his questions makes me turn my head to the side biting my lips so hard that it scares me that they will fall off.
"Samantha you don't have to shy away because I like you too." I look at him with wide eyes not believing him at all. I feel a flip of butterflies deep down in my belly.
But as I give it a second thought I don't let it flatter me, 'Maybe he is doing it out of obligation to make me feel better or maybe he means it as a friend.'
"So yesterday after you left me like that, you were saying?" I look at the beautiful smirk on his lips and I don't dwell on it much more than I have.
It brings a smile of my own before I continue telling him everything starting from where I left his suite and ending at how my day went at school.
After a minute of breaking my heart out at him, I turn to look at him and he also does the same.
"Well, that is one hell of a day and situation." I frown my lips at him.
"You can't be serious." He lets out a laugh but a scowl makes a way on my face.
He seems to catch up on my mood swings, I look away when he clears his throat.
"Samantha you need to let loose and start to try to live for yourself because to me it sounded like the only problem here is you caring more about the opinions of others in your life." I shake my head at his words because they don't get in my head.
"How can I?
I would try to be like that if I was on good times with my sister but am not." He looks at me as he puts his hands in his pocket.
"Samantha allow me to share some advice that I wished one would have told me at your age." Am annoyed by the fact that him implementing me as young but then aren't I?
Mustering my annoyance with an annoyed smile I nod my head at him.
"If you must."
"Relations are strong but are not maintained by obligation. The will to maintain and sustain comes from both ways and not just one way, your sister if she feels you have wronged her am sure you've already shown her your willing to be forgiven and get move over everything, so what's left is to let her come to you because trust me on this one persistence won't do anything to someone who doesn't want to change."
His advice is very heavy and I hear it in every corner of his office very loud and clear.
It leaves an overbearing silence in between as I think about it.
Can I do it?
Can I regard my sister's feelings towards me?
Can I be selfish?
"Being selfish isn't always a bad thing when it regards putting our well-being first. And I know right where to start from?" I look at him and ask. "And where is that?"
"You start by following your heart and mind like how you did when you came working here due to your interest, what you did was for your own peace of mind. Keep doing that, follow your desires Samantha. We are only young once." His words make a lot of sense but to me, they are much heavier than I intended to my ears.
I look down at my shoes not knowing what to say after that.
I feel footsteps coming closer to where I am leaning on the table and I don't have to raise my head to know who it is.
"Samantha you need to learn how to live and not hold yourself back anymore." I can feel him right so close to me that it makes a nerve run down my spine.
"You told me you liked me well I am also heading over hills for you little one?"
"What?" If I had no goosebumps, his words did that to me.
'He can't be meaning what I guess he is meaning.'
"I want you to let me show you how to live no matter when the universe is also against it." My head is no longer functioning anymore, I know that for sure because am not listening to what Kai is saying.
I feel daggers from every side of my head, voices yelling at me to run, run far away, and as much as I can because I know that would be the right thing to do because what Kai is saying is crazy.
He isn't head over hills for me he is run mad over hills.
I look at the side to where he was standing before seeing the beautiful rays of sun radiating through his office window i know then that I don't want to be in here.
I should be out there feeling the beautiful nature of the sun pretending like nothing is going on in my life.
I try to step on the side to walk away but he stands in my way.
"stop resisting Samantha! You want this I can tell," raising my head,
I look up to stare at those capturing eyes that are trying to offer what I think I want but at the same time, I think I don't.
"I don't know Kai," I say in my small voice trying hard not to stutter with my words.
I feel one of his fingers under my chin raising my head to look up at him and I find myself drowning in those blue eyes
"You do know sweetheart!" He says looking straight into my eyes while grinning down at me
I find myself again not being able to pull away from staring at those full lips and when he catches where my attention is, he smirks.
I turn my eyes away quickly when I am caught staring but that makes him chuckle.
I turn my head to the side but I feel the tips of his lips lingering beside my cheek, all the way to my ear and it brings goosebumps all over my body once again when he leans in and whispers in my ear.
"I know you hate this place princess and I also know that you don't want to make good memories here but try me sweetheart and I will make you feel like you are back home in America."
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