Hey guys writing today to fulfill the promise of not disappearing. So where did I left of last time....Oh right! The training started and just normal days lots of things to learn so I started to see that girl which I mentioned. Sorry no name till now so for now let's give her an initial Dewdrop. So I was happy at home getting ready because I will be seeing her but the next day what happened was The first pick up was of Sheetal after that was Dewdrop's pick up and then mine. She was there when I boarded I said Hi to Sheetal and to her too and when I went to office in the training Paras and Vatsal were already there so we sat and then Sheetal opened her mouth. One thing that I till now am not able to understand she exactly know what I feel for someone? She was right about Deepali too and this time she told Paras and Vatsal that too. But as you know I denied completely and Sheetal said " But Rahil I'll tell you one thing there's a boy who comes to drop her I think that's her boyfriend" and my intuition is at point correct I said " That will be her brother" The best part is that no one believes me until what I say comes true.
Our trainer asked something related to it and she answered that her brother comes to drop her off and Damn! I was once again correct about that ther was one more boy that cared for her and he always sit with her and always block questions for her in him somewhat I saw myself doing same for Deepali at that time I thought that he is also attracted but soon realise I tried to guide him through but stupid of me later I realised that he was her boyfriend...
I know I know again brokenhearted but that's life you know the saying if something's yours it will return and if something's not it will never stay. The good part about that time was that the Ramzan started we were given time to do the morning routine and she was one giving me company so it really helped me. I haven't kept the fast for long long time and that too maximum was 13 that I kept but just to spend time with her seperate with the team and everyone I kept the fasts but I'm damn stupid I didn't had a topic to talk so I kept talking about Deepali and that mislead the thing so soon time passed and ramzan ended my love for her increased and I friend to help her in bounds tried to talk with her but just normal conversation and at that time too I showed the photos of her to my relatives and everything and they approved I till now don't know what they approved for but they did.
So my training time ended and started working tried to keep my system as close to her as I can and also tried talkimg with her but still the same. You know what's the worst part is to put efforts where there is no hope I have made lot of things possible in the past but this time I didn't have the courage for that because whenever I do that something breaks either me or the other person and I don't wanna hurt her at all too precious to hurt. So left the unrequited love for her sealed as it is and focused on the development and then after sometime what happened mwas that her boyfriend was terminated due to a mistake he did. Mostly it was like someone highlighted that and complained and our team leader was holding grudges for him when he left she cried a lot like a lot and seeing her like that I wished I had a chance to hug her and hold her like that for a long time until she felt warm.
But it's just that I was no one to hold her like that so I just stopped and was about to cry myself and felt weak in the knees but couldn't help on that so tried to calm myself and she was fine after a few days never left her side and tried to calm her and was successful in that thought of giving a chance at it again but once I was in the lift with her with paras and one more female colleague and Paras asked her " How's he? Is he still with you?" I wanna know about that but didn't had the courage to ask her so I didn't and she replied " That where would he go. He's my baby" It just struck me like a nail was hammered in my heart and with each beat the hammering got faster and thought about it a lot. I told you impossible comes with a price either me or other person I would never hurt her but I was getting damaged so the best route I chose was to leave it and stopped interacting with her so that this feeling leaves and coincidentally we had a fight I got chance so I stopped talking .
But life doesn't goes the way we want it to go so let's leave it like that for now that's would be my all for today there is a lot of stories behind it. Will tell you next time. Tilm then Sayonara