(Mint POV)
"Love can vary from person to person and culture defines it in another way. Each of the debates about love may be accurate in some time and someplace, might be true. but no one knows exactly and can explain the correct definition of Love. I am even not aware of that. you can find further details on the internet. if you are willing to go there.
If I say more further. love is a mixture of emotion that contains commitment, understanding, trust, Faith, care, co-operation etc.
For short example, in some instances, love may be a choice for some individual. it may not contain the necessary elements that I have stated. if that the case, he or she only get attracted to the person, that's not true love. it might be lust or just a temporary attraction like you have for a crush for someone for some time."
I can sense a pure angelic feeling coming from his vocal cord. so I keep myself listening to his words, my impressed face was glowing with joy but, I feel pity for myself now. if we meet before, I might have fallen for him instead.
"you might not experience that now because you are not sure about your true feelings but when you acknowledge what you feel, keep it in mind. if you have affection towards that person more then anyone else in the world, you have fallen in love."
"!!!..."
"P it's not complicated at all"
"so, basically you wanna say these emotions are interconnected and I am the one who decides what is it? a temporary attraction or pure affection."
"Ya kind of."
"if I have feelings for someone I shouldn't hold it. right?"
"yes, don't do this, your need to completely understand the circumstance. for that, you have to let flow the emotions."
"What if I get rejected?"
"that may be a little harsh. but, P I already stated the consequence of being in a friend zone. if the person has not mutual feelings as you have. the things might be different like, if it's a friend it might get a chance of losing him/her after you confess. but at least it doesn't allow a regret in your heart, like, if I had said it that time things have been different.
P just I wanna state that chances were 50%-50%. so don't hold it back. its ok be rejected everyone does, at least one in a lifetime."
"Long thing for short my primary goal is to find my true feelings towards that person."
"ya kind of."
"Hmm"
I can know to acknowledge what is was trying to say. the thing is not the fear of getting rejection that doesn't let me open enough. to break the chain that binds my winds under some old social laws that don't allow me to follow the direction of love.
"Hoff, thank you so much. I appreciate your help."
"Ah! no P, if a friend is in need I have to be there indeed.
I never mind helping friends."
I have to appreciate his advice about what he taught me today. for sure this was a new experience to share with a complete strange. sometimes it's better to speak off to an unknown. not always but sometimes. you share withstands with each other and who knows you might find a new friend instead. after all, it's not that stranger too, I trust Freddie so I can trust him too. making me a new friend isn't bad after all.
On the next day when I will meet Martin, I should try to find the truth.
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This morning is quite sweet and I can see those couples of birds sitting over the tree branch near where we were sitting, I was taken the place over the table and Martin was asleep while lying his half body over the table beside me. the sugar like sound making this movement more cherished the leaves over his sleeping face can make someone's hearts more flutter. it was so close I can even sense his breath clearly beside of my left leg. maybe I have to consider about my feels toward him more. and I think its take time.
"P, sorry I fall asleep."
"it's ok, no need to worry. you can sleep."
"Fine."
He was so sleepy that he directly bang his head over the table. I laugh after he gets a little red spot on his forehead. ok let it go. I don't have to explain everything. you can imagine the scenery yourself.
Many of the men are generously toward their feelings. they don't have to think a lot about this. despite we have lot of things to do too. but the difference between them and me is they can say directly, and I don't, at least about this topic, I feared. Fine!
I'm shy.
What can I do? I don't understand. but I have to, if they can do I can too.
as a fellow guy, I should have to clear towards my feeling. and when I get myself clear I will ask him out for sure.