(Eric POV)
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look at this guy. so pale and dumb. glances of his face make me feels pity for him but at the same time horrified. sadness and vain surround him given and special aura to his self surrounding. if it's an anime it would be like the scene where the main character loses its hope and faith. his face turned blue and face was down facing the ground while having lines drawn over his head. and the total atmosphere surrounds him turns grey. actually, his face was looked like a ghost face, that ghost that has lived a life in grief and an unexpected death that didn't end well. while seeing him in this condition, I don't know why if somehow he looked at me and I glance on his, I'll definitely die with a heart attack.
at this movement at the football ground. people were cheering the players of their own facilities. even though not of these two are my faculty's match. my presence was for cheering engineering, even if he is with me, feels like I'm here alone because his mind is somewhere else present☹.
oh! what a poor man. I don't what to say to him. oh! right I forget to tell you. today is the match between engineering and business administration. mine was all out the second day it played😅.
I'm not present here and cheering because I hate my faculty but to support his today. especially, when Kim asked me to come today for cheering his team.
I know from the day he failed, his attempt. P'Jasmine didn't accept his proposal. he has a sad mad type of expression, a few dull looks like he hasn't slept nights for days. might happens to people when their love becomes one-sided. and fell in a love with that person who doesn't give a crap and rather surround you in a friend zone, is like to destruction of once world. in my words, nothing is more painful than a friend zone. you keep expecting that one day the person you like will accept you and don't think you as just a friend will come, but waiting for the same answer took long times. you push yourself more and more but the outcomes always come the same. I.e no progress🚧. it's pain in the ass.
but despite that, I knew he is a confident guy he will manage. I just don't wanna him to be in that. state.
he keeps those things to himself.
but that doesn't make him any better. right? he screwed up everything himself. who the hell in this world directly speaks like this. I know he has feelings for her but even though who speaks like that?
he should understand the situation before reacting.
what I heard, P'Jasmine is suffering from Philophobia (fear of falling in love) he knew that thing even his action is such an irresponsible.
oh! God save him, please.
I sometimes think about🤔 what happens if I take my hands off. is it make him more depressed for not having a girl he wants? or he will be all right. Nah! he definitely goes through in vain on this process. and I don't want him to suffer.
so,
the burden has come into my shoulder now. why? I don't know why? I have to be his love angel😑. even he doesn't want me to. but it can't be ignored, you know he is my best friend. I can't deny even he want my hands off.
"excuse me. can you give me side pleas I need to go to the t
another side."
"sure"
I pulled my feet in order to give her space.
I turned my face around and see. I saw her. the woman who was asking for the path is P'Sammy. this woman was the ex-girlfriend
of Freddie's late elder brother Frank. yes, I forget she is also a senior of our college medical faculty. she and P'Frank were at the same class at the School. if I remember correctly, they were friends form class 7. she looked at me and Freddie. Freddie was in his own world. so he didn't respond until I asked him.
"P'Sammy."
he spoke out out of grief for some time. his glance was not energetic after seeing his late brothers ex-girlfriend.
"Hey, Freddie. how are you?"
she said it with a hesitate in her voice as she was not expecting his presence today.
"Hey, P we are fine. what are you doing here? your faculty's match is not today."
I said it is a matter of asking her presence today.
"Ah!... I know but I'm here with my engineering friends."
she just responded to me and didn't look around Freddie. neither Freddie looked at her. her expression feels weird.
she doesn't seem comfortable when she was around Freddie. neither Freddie was comfortable to talk, even looks at her. I know it feels slightly different when someone so close before, now looks like a stranger because of one incident. I remember she makes her last contact with Freddie at that funeral of late P'Frank she was crying a lot at the funeral.
after Freddie's brother died I can rarely saw her. I can understand why. Freddie reminds her of late her love.
she took her to leave, to her friends. she left us with a small but sad smile.
things got so changed after he died that day.