How can someone acknowledge the Scent of death? this question is something, that only a person who face against it may answer. who,
let go the idea of living willingly, accepted his defeat, nothing more to dream not more goals to achieve, no more further bucket list to complete, and no more self-pity.
for some, having no regrets it's a happy ending. while for others, the opposite.
In this case, the opposite. giving up is not an easy job. the guts come in senses of a living being when he lost all hopes and lights.
you know what?
the person who may feel like this make a conclusion of ending his life, in the hope of finding a better way to avoid his pain. but this is never the end of his suffering but get some other people who he loves in greater sorrow.
yes, what if someone dies do harm to others? that's a great question I guess.
suppose if someone you love dies by any mean by suicide or with an accident. may I ask you a question?
losing him, is that feels pain in your chest?
I'll guess your answer is yes. of course. you loved that person a lot. like more than your own life. your eyes automatically open the tap of water in shot, tears. other people might not get affected by that, but you will, you were his family. who loved him and cares for him. you were his good wishes whom he considers as the family.
if I take one more example. it will be like this.
consider
after losing something,
there come 2 angles of crying. crying for what you are willing for and crying for what you once have. which one is more painful?
I'm sure you might think it's more painful for having something once you have lost. because you have an emotional attachment with it, you have it all the time, you care for it, and most you loved it. you may cry for your entire life. on the other hand, the thing that you never have you may cry for it but not as much as the thing what you once have. you may forget about it in small time too. this is the main difference between crying for not having things and crying for things that once you have.
likewise on that day when Frank was at his limits to give up on living and Freddie ran for his brother's life. Frank might have not seen the consequences comes after he dies. he might never think about that, or if somehow he feels that he might not care or may not see as big as his own grief.
when Freddie find him at the terrace, he was shocked. he can see that his brother was stand at the edge of cliff. he can sense his brother inner screaming talking a lot about his losing his reputation as a normal human being. and feels totally trash, garbage, decomposing corpse, or like a nuclear waste that no one wants or see. even touch it may not possible for people. that leaked clip destroyed him completely.
Freddie cried a lot while standing on the roof. a little far away from the area where Frank was standing to jump off. he tries and tries to convince Frank a lot not to jump but somehow his prayer is getting denied every time.
(Eric POV)
when I arrived at the spot, I saw them both. Freddie was trying to convince P'Frank who was standing at the cliff of the hospital building. P'Frank was giving us a warning not to come close to him otherwise he will surely jump off to die. I do not understand what should I do? if this not stop in time, unwilling he may slip of the cliff.
[Frank was giving them signal not to come closer, otherwise he will jump. Freddie and Eric knew the sensitivity of the case but they just don't stand there and see him taking his life and do nothing.
at random.....
Franks feet slip.
luckily Freddie ran into him and grab his one hand. Eric ran too when he saw that. but he sees that Freddie has jumped to grab his brothers hand and somehow was also hanging in between life and death. His half of the body was in the hanging between cliff and air. if you can see it from behind you can only see his lower half from his thigh, waist and but was bend and hanging with his upper body. but luckily Eric and the security hard has grab him from his waist. they were trying to hold him and helping him to pull up.]
"please hold on don't let my hands slip away. please be with us. I promise P I will take care of you."
"Let me go Freddie. I'm not worthy of living any more. I am a trash."
"Please don't speak like this you life is more worthy than you thought."
"no Freddie there is nothing left for me to desire to live on."
"of that so what about your love P'Sammy? is she can handle the pressure of your absence."
"What happened to me. I'm now impure I'm not suitable any more for her. tell her to find some other guy better than me."
"Do you think she want that? she love you a lot P, What ever happened we will face it together. please don't go."
his request is denied. he won't listen or might be... when I observe, the weight was too much to handle. my grip was losing too. I don't know if we can pull both of them up. but if I wouldn't pull him up within 3-2 minutes they both might fall for sure.
"I am not doing for my sake, it is for all. if I lived you all may suffer from the bad words from the society they will surely criticise our family. so let me go."
"No."
Freddie cried out more then his limits. but couldn't afford to convince him. and Frank was full of tears in his eyes.
[even Frank change his mind the current situation doesn't support that. he was all hanging in air and he notice Freddie was also hanging by holding him. slowly but he was dragging Freddie too. if he didn't take action Freddie was pulled to death with him. instead of climbing up he thought it's better to let his hand go.]
"Take care of yourself good bye...."
[Frank's hands slipped and he falls.... he dies at the spot when he fell on the ground.]