(Mint POV)
Is it alright to tell him everything? if yes then up to what extent? if he misjudged me? then?
I should keep faith in Freddie if he says he this guy is the right person maybe it's true.
No,
how could I share my problem with a complete stranger?
this type of portrait was forming inside my mind. I was worried and wasn't sure to share the information. if it's a casual problem I can speak with him. but, this. I don't think it's a good idea.
"P what happened?"
I looked at him. as he speaks I assumed he can see through my flaws. and maybe that's true.
I'm not good at hiding things.
he might saw my wearing a doubt expression. so he speaks.
"P I know it's hard for you to talk openly about your problems to a complete stranger. it's casual, faith can't exist between two unknown, people. I'm just here to comfort someone who is dealing with personal hesitation.
I may help if you want.
but if you're not comfortable with me to talk I can understand."
I tried to make myself believe in him. I should trust him. after all, he doesn't look like a bad person. so I speak.
"Eric I don't know how to say."
"Say it P I can listen."
I swallow my fear of being judge and asked it clear out.
"Can you tell me, what is the meaning behind seeking someone and feels your heart rate completely go crazy."
he bends a little bit closer to me and looked at me. wiping His lips with his tongue, he nodded as he seems to understand the situation. I was ashamed and felt shy to share this question of mine.
"Can you elaborate more on what kinds of feelings you have been experiencing?"
"Amm! like that kind of heartbeat when you feel like, wanted to touch, look for more repeatedly and wishing for seeing that person again."
"ok! have you experienced this before?"
"No, this is the first time. it's just happened recently"
"oh! so you are not sure if it's a crush, love or just a like. am I right?"
"Ya," I nodded my head in rapid that if I don't stop it, may break off from my neck.
"I ain't sure about my feels."
"it's ok P everyone has this kind of feeling once in a while. don't be panic about that."
I know that you Fool. can you come up with something? or just you teasing me for having experienced this for the first time.
"so basically you are not optimistic about the matter at all. for your problem I can help with it let me think how can I explain this."
he takes time like about one minute. maybe he was prepared according to what he was observed by my words.
"I will not explain it in a scientific statement. if I do instead of understanding what is it, things might get more complicated. P for your condition. I need to first clarify what love is. listen P,
Love has been always been sensible, sensitive topic. you might have watched movies read poets, writing fictions and listen to songs and about how people deal with it, from generations.
different people and groups have often state differently about the definition of love.
but despite that, one thing is true. all agree that love implies strong feelings of affection towards the individual."
I don't get it at all. what do you wanna say bro?
"you might not get what I'm saying let's take it this way.
when an individual say's the word 'I love you' it has a probability of 50-50% chance. either it might be mutual or not be mutual for the person he speaks for. but if not, that doesn't count possibility for not having a future with that person. sometimes it just takes time, but if not, let it go man. mutual feels should be there in love life. if there was an absence of that and you force yourself in one-sided love and maximum this happens to a friend zone people. it will create a toxic relationship with an ill-fated mind, and the individual may suffer."
ok, I get it now. his words were trying to explain the complication related to this matter.
"in my words, I can define love as
-your willingness to the shifting off your own prioritizes, well-being or happiness above all for that individual.
-Extreme feelings of attachment, affection, and need to want love in return.
-Dramatic, sudden feelings like sad or miss when you can't see the person that you have an attraction for and have respect for the individual.
-A fleeting emotion of care, that affection that makes you remind of what the individual likes or dislikes and you sometimes change your preferences I don't say that is right. but you do that for that person so you two can make a better understanding.
-self-choice to commit yourself to help, respecting, and caring for that particular individual. and willing in certain cases such as when you are having a partner. you want a marriage or want to have a child with the person. this one is an example of commitment.
by the combination of all these emotions. you and the person you love if having mutual feelings might feel secure and your love will grow stronger."
I now trying to get that, is it a lecture? or is he trying to manipulate me or something? but whatever I like his concept about love.