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I inhale through my nose a sharp breath as Colten's hands reach up and wrap over my waist and the other comes around to grip my chin.
I lean more forwards and decide on crawling into Colten's lap, without breaking our kiss, I crawl into his lap and Colten sits up to allow me to sit in his lap.
Once settled inside his lap, I reach up to grip Colten's dark locks and feel his arms wound around my waist and slide up and down every so often.
I open my mouth when I feel one of Colten's hands reach up too far and brush right underneath my boob. Even through the fabric of our clothes, my skin was lit on fire where Colten touched me.
"Colt." I whimper and feel Colten break apart from our embrace abruptly.
"What the fuck am I doing...?" Colten whispers out staring at me as if for the first time.
Not like a friend, not like a disgusting body, he wouldn't even glance at attractively, but as a man looking at a woman who actually sees her as being who she is; a woman.
It's like he was seeing me, as if meeting for the first time, like a fresh start.
"I..." I opened my mouth to say something but as soon as I did everything I had in my head to say disappeared and I forgot everything.
Colten's fingers tightly pressed into my waist and he dips his head closer, "You feel...." Colten whispers but trails off in a daze as he stares at my neck with his eyes.
"What?" I hedge and tighten my hands around Colten's neck.
"I don't know..." He says in awe.
I take this moment and take advantage of the pull I had on him, I didn't know this would be his reaction. He likes it, he likes my kisses. My touches.
This was unfamiliar territory we were dipping into but as I grip the back of his neck tightly in my hand and slam our lips back together, I knew it was far too late to go back.
I pull away as he breathlessly stares into my eyes, I lean forward and reach out to his bottom lip with my own lips and very slowly run my teeth on his soft lips.
When Colten hitches a breath I couldn't control myself any longer, I kneaded his bottom lip between my teeth as Colten's grips on my waist loosens and his hands shakily reach up.
Colten hesitates, I could feel his hand hovering by my chest the warmth spilling around my upper body and I pull away to stare into his dark eyes.
"It's okay, you can touch me." I say gently but my heart was racing and my legs were quivering.
"I-I don't know how. What am I saying Vien-"
Colten was panicking, I could tell.
So I did the only thing I knew I could do to shut him up.
I took my hands from around his neck and took his own hands in my firm ones and placed them on my chest. I was wearing a thin tank top and felt his big warm hands envelop my breasts. It felt so much better than I had ever imagined and so I broke apart momentarily to yank my tank top over my head and let my breast spill out.
I heard Colten let out a low groan as I see downstairs twitch slightly beneath his sweatpants and I swear my heart just about jumped out of my chest upon seeing the little action.
I leaned up and got a couple of centimeters taller than him while still sitting in his lap, legs over each side of him and I move my hips. I move my hips and dip low to brush my lower half against his hard and erect lower half.
Colten's hands reach up and shakily cup my breasts massaging them between his fingers, I open my mouth as a gasp comes tumbling out and I quicken my pace grinding on Colten. I feel Colten's hands kneading my breasts in between his fingers and suddenly his hands are no longer on my chest.
Colten stands up and I instinctively wrap my legs around his waist and cling to him no longer moving my body but sitting idly in his arms, feeling my legs nervously shake.
"C-C-Colten I'm so-"
"Sh." Colten says sharply.
Almost snaps at me.
Colten's arms fall from around my body and my legs go slack dropping me onto the floor with a soft thud, my arms unwound from around his neck.
"I'm-"
"Vien-"
"No I'm sorry, I shouldn't ha-"
"But you did." Colten interrupts but doesn't look away.
Colten's dark eyes hold mine with a smoldering intensity it would have had me standing in the exact spot and continuing what we just did but the hurt and betrayal swimming in his eyes behind the desire and pleasure stood out more than anything.
"Look you can just leave." I say not really knowing what to say and look down to the floor casting my eyes away from Colten's figure so there was no chance I could accidentally see the hate that was most likely on his face.
I just crossed a line. A line that wasn't supposed to be crossed. Ever.
I never thought it was possible to cross this line, Colten is gay.
Was. I don't know what he is and I don't think he does either.
"No I can't, it's like a blizzard out the-I think it's best if we just stay our separate ways for the rest of the weekend and when Monday comes around I'm leaving." Colten says and turns abruptly around.
"Wait, Colten."
He stops but doesn't turn around.
I walk forwards slowly with my heart hammering in my throat and reach up with my left hand to rest it flat up against Coltens back, feeling his breath quicken upon my touch.
"Don't leave it like this." I say, but I instantly regret it as Colten whirls around and his face was enough to break my heart into millions of pieces.
Agony. Pain.
But there was a dark swirl in Colten's dark eyes that had me walking forwards to meet his eagerly awaiting arms.
Somehow we went from getting drunk to making out and grinding against one another to fighting and now as Colten walks forwards and continues walking forwards pushing me backward and slamming up against a wall.
A fire ignited in me that caught on quickly and seemed to burn Colten as well as he grips my waist tightly, "Vienna, what the hell did you do?" He asks out before slamming our lips together elicitng a loud moan from me and abruptly left my body swinging his hurried body out of the room and slamming one of the upstairs bedroom doors.
What the hell did I do?