We had made out for another few minutes before eventually slowing down and stopping as we breathlessly stare at one another, not really sure what to say or do next.
Somehow, we ended up with more wine back on the couch and talking about anything other than him, me, or Brad. We talked about the day we had yesterday before Colten got here, the weather and what we craved for food the most.
We delayed any kind of subject about us until we were three glasses deep in wine and refilling our fourth drink. I was beyond loopy, but somehow I haven't lost complete control of my nerves and had a hold of the actual drunkenness I let show about my person.
It was quite possibly because my body was so shocked into being speechless and so confused I might have been too stressed to catch a buzz, but I knew the alcohol clung to me from the hazy blurs my vision made every so often as my body swayed from side to side slightly.
It was only a little after one o'clock in the afternoon on a Saturday and I'm already plastered.
Jeez.
We stayed away from the topic of any of us until Colten suddenly settles into the couch right beside me, facing me slightly but our knees also touched, the aura around Colten completely changed.
It went from awkward and light to intense and dark, a smoldering intensity sizzles in the air as Colten sits back and he casts his eyes towards me.
"So, I think we should probably talk about what happened...And everything else." Colten shudders towards the end of his sentence and his nostrils flare wide open as his dark eyes seem to turn a shake darker.
"Do we have to?" I ask looking away and towards my wine glass resting on the table, in front of us.
"Yes, we do." Colten says.
"Are you sure?" I ask.
"Yes."
"Are you really really sure we do?" I ask out and finally reach over to grip my wine glass.
"Vienna." Colten's voice went a couple of octaves lower than usual and the power it held made me move.
My head shot up and our eyes met instantly earning a shiver that racked my body.
"What?" I didn't mean to, but I snapped it out.
Colten throws up his hands his eyebrows knit together, "Don't be a little kid about this, we need to talk about-"
"I'm not being a kid!" I yell out, mid sip of my wine.
"Yes, you are." Colten argues and a small smile sweeps across his face.
"How am I being a kid about this?" I throw up my free hand in exasperation.
"I want to talk to you about what happened yesterday and today and you do not. But now that we're on the subject, I've known you for five years V, you have never done that before, or shown any kind of interest in that stuff with me. Was it a two-time thing, or a permanent thing to keep kissing me and making me feel the way I do?" Colten asks and sets his wine glass down on the table to sit closer to the edge and lean toward me.
Colten reaches out with his big tan hands and envelops my small hands and is instantly rubbing his thumbs on my hands, peering at me expectantly. He really wanted to talk about this.
I said nothing as I lean forward and refill my glass of wine with half a bottle of wine on the living room table. I bring the glass to my lips chugging it down and turn to Colten slowly.
It took a couple of moments before I could gather the strength to raise my eyes once again to Colten's intense dark ones, but I did and when I did my heart did a flip and my whole body zinged with a tingle that settled over my body with a hum.
"I have been in love with you since I met you Colt, I never did that to you before because I never wanted to put my feelings out there, considering your relationship with Brad..." I gave a pause and drew in a large breath.
"To be completely open, yesterday I was texting Brad to ask if you guys would come up for the weekend because I wanted to let out my feelings but then this happened and what do you want to talk about earlier? It's done. It happened." I say in a rush and look away from Colten's stare.
"Because I want it to happen again." Colten says and takes a sharp inhale of oxygen.
"Wait, what?" I ask, almost completely speechless.
Colten lets out a little chuckle, "Yeah, I never thought I would ever say that. I have no idea why, but I like your touches so much, your kisses...I can't deny what I feel for you. Thinking on it now, there was always something there. We are stuck here for the rest of the weekend, until Monday. I don't think I'm going to be able to avoid you all weekend, so I want to try something." Colten says and lets go of my hands to reach up with one hand and cup my cheek.
My heart started hammering over time making it impossible to breathe, but I somehow manage as my mouth falls open in shock, "What would that be?" I ask not wanting to ask questions and interrupt this dream-like state I've wanted forever now.
"I want this to be a thing, what we did and possibly more I want and of course we need to set ground rules, but I value our friendship I want to know your intake on all this and what you think about it." Colten says.
"A-a thing? What do you mean by that and what rules?" I ask, sitting up straighter and refilling my glass of wine.
"Well, not friends with benefits because I don't think friends feel this way and doing stuff with the other qualifies as not friends, but I never knew I could be attracted to a woman and I have this weird but good feeling whenever you're around after everything."
"Hm." I say in response and let him continue.
"And for the rules...Well the obvious one for starters, we used to talk about Brad but now it will be different so we agree to never mention him when we are together or keep it very limited, I can't say don't put your heart into this, because V we've been best friends for years, I love you. But yeah, that's what I was up all night thinking about." Colten finishes his almost rambling and stares at me his hands now resting in his lap.
"Colt, why? What I did was so out of the blue, why aren't you throwing me off of you or slamming doors in my face?" I ask curiously.
"I've said my reasons and you've heard my proposition. Now the balls in your court." Colten leans forward and places a chaste kiss on my lips and he stands up.
"I'm going to get some sleep, I'll see you before the sun comes up again V." Colten says as he walks up the stairs and closes the door with a soft thud, leaving me to my haunting thoughts and loudly thudding heart.