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I bring the phone shakily up to my ear and breath in deeply, "Susan?"
"Vienna? What in gods name was all that ruckus! It sounded like you were having sex with someone." I heard Colten's mother screech over the line of the phone call.
I breathed out a big sigh of relief, she didn't hear me yell out specifically Colten's name.
"No Susan, I am just doing a lot of loud yoga." I say and wince.
I heard Colten snort out soft laughter but my head still whirls around to see him with his eyes half closed, lips tightly pursed and his shoulders shaking.
"Shut up!" I mouthed at him but it just made Colten laugh harder.
"Alright honey, I'll let you get back to your yoga. But I just wanted to know if Colten got up here okay, he was supposed to let me know he got to your cabin safely, but he never did." Susan says.
"Yes, he made it here Suse, he's okay." I say.
"Okay, bye darling!" She yells as the phone clicks.
I put the phone down slowly, my heart beating a million times a minute.
I refused to look at Colten as I still lay on the floor, trying like hell to catch my breath.
"Okay, so. That just happened." Colten says and the gush of air that whooshes out of his body in laughter has me relaxing my body and a mischievous smile sweeps across my face.
"I cannot believe she didn't hear." I say as I gather my legs underneath me and use the couch as an object for me to push up off of and stand up straight.
"I can't either. To be completely open, I always thought hearing women's moans was disgusting, but the sounds you were making made every nerve feel alive, it was weird." Colten muses distractedly but when he glances at me and sees my eyebrows tightly knit together.
"Weird, but in a good sense." Colten quickly corrects and he himself stands up, throwing a hand through his locks to straighten them out some.
But nothing could make him look bad, he looked all around attractive no matter how you looked at him.
"Where are you going!" I yell at Coltens back as he recedes into the kitchen disappearing for a couple of minutes.
"I'm going to grab some hard stuff!" Was Coltens reply.
I walk towards the couch and plop myself down, taking hard steady breaths to calm myself.
Colten just gave me an orgasm by oral...
That was something, I never thought would happen and something I had always wanted to happen. But now that it has happened, something is different.
Maybe I was the only one feeling it, but within those very few minutes with Coltens head pressed in between my legs, it woke up something possessive within me. I didn't want him anywhere apart from me, I wanted to grip onto his arm, pull him close and never let him go again.
I wanted Coltens dark eyes to stare at me and me only, I wanted Coltens lips to touch mine and mine alone and I wanted Coltens body more than anything.
I had to steady y heart once again as my mind started to dip into no way territory. I knew this was it, I couldn't do this anymore. My heart seizes in my chest just thinking about it, this was more than I could handle.
But how do I tell him no, when every part of me wanted him?
How do you stop when your body is on an automatic drive and does what it wants?
Colten comes back with his hand around the neck of a bottle with some kind of alcoholic liquid in it and two glasses.
"What's that?" I ask as Colten comes around and sits beside me on the couch.
"Hennesey. A good year too." Colten says as he opens the bottle and pours the dark liquid into the clear glass.
"No ice?" I ask as Colten hands me one of the small but still medium-sized glasses.
"Nah, we'll skip the ice, plus I put this in the fridge earlier so it's cold." Colten says as he takes his own glass from the coffee table.
"Colten..." I say trailing off as I take a huge sip of the glass that turned into full bottoms up and I drank the strong alcohol within seconds.
The Hennesey already making itself known as a warm hug settled over my face and my body seems to come alive, my entire body moving all at once, my head swarming with an emptiness that filled more and more with intrusive thoughts.
Colten leans over and refills his glass as well as my own.
"What Vienna? I think we're past the point of holding back." Coltens voice had a hard edge to it.
Not snappy, but clouded with something. Maybe he was feeling just as horrible as I was.
"I'm not sure I can do this, this is a lot more than I ever thought possible. But I love you Colt, this is confusing me a lot more than anything else." What I said rang true.
This really was confusing me. Everything we've been doing was intensifying the emotions I had felt and made me fall even more in love and the thing was, I couldn't hold back anymore. I needed to distance myself away from him for the rest of the weekend.
"I think it's best if we stayed apart and-"
"Wait, what?" Coltens springs to a sitting position on the couch instead of slouching and he leans forward to grip my hand but I move it back too fast.
"My heart is confused and will no longer allow myself this indulgence. It wants you or nothing at all. I'm so sorr-" I try to rush out my lame explanation.
"Um, okay. If it's come to that, then it's probably best if we do leave it at that then." Colten says as he throws back his glass and finishes his drink.
"Well, have a good rest of your night V and I will see you tomorrow." Colten says after a very long stretch of silence.
My mouth drops open as Colten doesn't turn around, doesn't say anything more and walks up the stairs.
"That's it? Like that's literally all you have to say to me after all of that!" I yell out after Colten and listen as his footfalls pause on the landing.
"Yes V, you started this, now I'm ending it." Coltens cold and monotone voice greet me, slapping me in the face and making me fall completely shocked and silent trying to wrap my head around the turn of events.
What in the hell just happened? That was too brief for it to be a true ending, but what more was there to say?
I had said it already. I am in love with Colten but put the hammer to whatever physical relationship we were having and basically shut off the only source of desire he was feeling.
I deserved everything coming to me, but what I didn't think I deserved was an ignorant friend ad that was what I got for the rest of the weekend.
Nothing.