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I woke up and immediately went into the kitchen and broke out the hard liquor. I needed it. I couldn't sleep much last night, the guilt kept eating at me.
I would rather have had years of suffering with my feelings than have let it out and let him know, or let him know and did all that. Tears kept welling in my eyes and spilling over, my nose not having a moment to dry up as I drink my vodka mixed with Pepsi.
I needed to forget my actions, forget that I kissed Colten and made a huge mess of everything. I just broke my friendship and possibly his and Brad's marriage.
I tossed and turned for hours at first thinking of the tingle Colten's body left on mine, but then the haunting guilty thoughts settled in. What I did was wrong and I won't do that to Colten again.
He wanted me. Colten did want me but it might just be the fact that he hasn't been with a woman before. My heart broke for everything I did to Colten nonetheless,
I sit down on the couch and sip my third drink just as I hear a door creak open upstairs.
When I sit, I almost spilled my drink as I heard Colten's footfalls descending the stairs. It was completely silent, you could hear a pin drop if one did. Colten walked silently behind the couch and into the small bathroom located just outside of the livingroom.
I closed my eyes slowly but tightly and tried to stop my heart from thudding in my chest, but it was useless as it hammered not letting up and I got up from my position on the couch. I lean over and grip my drink and go to the kitchen to refill it before I retreat back to my room.
I made a mistake, I won't be making it again. The feelings I had felt this whole time had never been reciprocated. My throat clenches together tightly as an emotion overtakes me again and makes my eyes well up and my shoulders shake.
"Vienna." Colten's deep voice startled me and made me spill a little bit of pepsi but I continue pouring the soda into the glass.
"Vienna, look at me." Colten says directly behind me.
I shake my head finish making the drink and bring my hand up to take a sip when Colten latches a hand around the wrist that held the glass and he took the glass out of my hands with one hand and spun me around in one fluid motion.
Before I could look, hear or process anything, I felt Coltens lips on my own and my resolve broke. With a small cry, I throw my arms around his neck and kiss him back with the same intensity as he was kissing me.
His lips felt soft against my own but pressed tightly against mine and opened at the same time as my own did and our tongues fought for dominance as Colten's hands drag up and down the sides of my body.
My heart going haywire, sweat rolling down my body and an intense warmth spreading throughout my body made it hard to breathe but I heavily pant through our makeout session, gripping the back of his neck tightly.
"W-what..." I went to ask 'what was this for?' but I got the question lodged in my throat.
Colten broke apart from the kiss and leaned away a few inches to stare into my face, peering intensely, his dark brown eyes seemed lit up, "I was up all night thinking about the way you felt. Your body. Your lips, were unlike anything I've ever felt, Vienna. You did something to me, I have never felt this way, so possessive, the way you tasted, so sw...What the hell did you do?" Colten asks out half in a plea and half with a deep growl to his words that had my knees shaking.
"I-I don't know Colten. This was not how I saw this going, can we please just go back and forget everything. Please." I ask unwinding my arms from around his neck and instead placing them to rest on his hips.
Colten's hands came up to cup my cheeks in his hand, "My body can't forget, it's forever burned with the way you touched me, my lips sting with the way you kissed me...I want you, hm." Colten says and ends his confession with a dark vibration that emits from his chest and comes out of his mouth.
I have never seen Colten like this before, with dark hot sex oozing from his pores and turned on. The pure sex waves coming from Colten almost brought me to my knees and had me begging for him to take me right then and there.
Colten's frame seemed many inches taller than before, more muscular and his skin seemed to sizzle hotter than it did last night, his rigid stance, chiseled taunt jaw and flared nostrils told me he was having a hard time controlling himself and it shocked me.
This was not what I was expecting, I was expecting Colten to be stand-offish with me and cold, until Monday when he was leaving, this was unlike anything I had ever hoped and his reaction had wetness pooling between my legs instantly.
I so desperately wanted to give action to my very high needs as I could feel my legs begin to shake and my stomach begins to rattle with hindered desire and pleasure, but I reign it in as I begin to lose myself in the feel of his raw power sending me in hot fits.
"How do you want me?" I ask, half giving in to the challenge and half curious to see what he does or says.
"I want to take you on every piece of furniture in this cabin. I want to taste your sweet delicious lips. Feel your body with my fingers." Colten says trailing his hands over my exposed skin.
I had on a small pair of dark red shorts with no underwear on and a small white tank top with no bra on, I like to sleep comfortably and this morning I really wasn't thinking about what I was wearing.
Colten's hands in a whisper trailed a fire-like path over my exposed hips, circling his thumbs around my hip bones and leans his head down to brush his lips over mine, claiming them in his instantly and making my body overcome with tingles that went down to my toes.
His dark eyes holding me captivated as he pulls away and leans back in to clamp his lips on my neck and trailing his lips and occasionally, his teeth lightly scraping down my chest to the swell of my breasts peeking out of the dip in my tank top.
I really didn't see any of this going this way, but as I respond to Colten's touches and kisses the tingles intensify and the responding shakes from Colten's body propelled me to grip him and throw him down onto the couch as we stepped back the more we made out.
I was thanking the alcohol for giving me such courage, but I knew I was a loose cannon now, I've been in love with Colten since we met, it was instant.
And finally, I am doing what I've always wanted to do; Be with Colten.
I threw caution to the wind as I climb onto Colten's lap and kiss all my worries and lasting gnawing guilt and ran head first into the fiery pleasure that was sprouting from our colliding bodies.