With a pounding heart I tried to reply to Ami's voice note with my voice note, I hope that Ami can understand my current situation, after she hears my reply.
"Letta!! I'm happy to get an answer from you! Honestly right now I'm really scared of your father, not afraid of being hit but I'm afraid if I say the wrong thing about Hansen to your father..!".
It didn't take long for Ami to reply to my Voice note, and Ami's reply made me feel even more crazy, because I didn't know what Dad was actually doing there, because from Ami's voice she seemed scared because of Dad.
Honestly, maybe at this moment I thought that Dad was a cold-blooded killer, because Dad seems to have turned a blind eye to Hansen.
"Wait a minute.... Ami, please give the correct explanation! What do you mean by that? Why are you scared like that in front of my father, what was your father doing there? And it looks like you already know Hansen?! Ami, honestly I'm so confused now!! please tell me in more detail about the situation there".
To be honest, I am now increasingly uncertain about this turmoil in my heart.
There are feelings of anger and also feelings of anxiety and what makes me even more wrong is that I can't do anything to help Hansen and my friends there.
"I must be afraid of your father, because there was no wind and rain suddenly your father came and interrogated us all, so how did it feel... he he he. Oh yeah!! I also know who it is now Hansen! because he is now famous because of your father. That Hansen turned out to be an employee at one of the shops on the 2nd floor, I didn't believe it at first... but after I proved it with my own eyes, it turned out to be him work in the sports shoe shop downstairs". Ami's voice now sounds excited but it still makes me erratic. I also feel my heart beating faster when I tell Ami about who Hansen is.
No wonder he can know all about me because it turns out he is also one of the employees at the same Mall as me.
"Letta, why don't you reply to my chat? I hope you're fine right now, don't worry about me, things are fine here, no problems have happened. Letta I hope we can meet as soon as possible because honestly I Admit it if it turns out that I really miss you right now!"
My cellphone almost fell out of my hand, because I was surprised by the incoming message from Hansen.
Honestly, I feel that Hansen has a 6th sense so he knows that Ami and I are currently talking about him.
I read over and over again, sentence by sentence, what Hansen wrote for me.
I seemed to have lost my mind and my mind because I felt unable to reply to messages from him.
I couldn't control this feeling even more when I realized that Hansen wasn't telling the truth about Dad, he was still able to comfort me who was almost crazy right now.
Hansen has made my hands even more unable to repay him because the feelings in my soul are full of guilt and very ashamed of him. I can't imagine if I met him again.
Even though I tried to avoid him, he still managed to find me because it turned out that he worked in the same mall.
"Oooh God..... why is my life like this???" I shouted in a low voice because I was currently still in an immeasurable sense of fear.
I'm still afraid if I meet Mom.
And when Dad comes home, I don't even know how to deal with it anymore.
Because Father has done something without my knowledge and also without my permission.
Maybe what Father did in his eyes was the right thing to do, but Father did not understand and understand me if his actions had destroyed me and also my future, because what is inside of me, I have brought shame and guilt that is infinite in front of all my work friends at the mall.
Without realizing it, I was standing right at the door of my room, because there was a little plan in my brain to be desperate to get out of this house. because I can no longer hold all the feelings that are raging in this heart.
"It looks like you're not in the living room, maybe you're in the room."
I said while peeking at the situation outside the room through the keyhole of this room.
"Hopefully my guess is right!" I said as I walked over to my closet.
I intend to take my backpack which is on top of my closet because I intend to put clothes that I can carry running with me.
This time my determination was made up, I really wanted to go because I couldn't stand the treatment of my father and mother who seemed to have gone too far for me.
Maybe today is the last day I will see Mom and Dad, and I'll let them think about me with what's on their mind.
I have allowed myself to enter into sin because I already feel that sin is a friend and a place for me to take shelter.
If this is all Mom and Dad's wish then I have a wish for myself too.
That is... I want to be free and I don't want to feel guilty anymore if I make Mom and Dad hurt.
"It's just like this! Later when I get paid I can buy a new one!" I said while tidying my backpack so that it could be closed neatly, I only brought my clothes as needed because I brought more books for my college, for me it was more important than my clothes.
After feeling settled with my backpack, I stepped closer to my bedroom window, my eyes were far away from the road in front of my house, for a moment something crossed my head if I left this house through my bedroom window only.
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