Suddenly my brother's voice was heard from behind the curtains between this living room and the living room where we could eat together. I smiled a little seeing it because At least I felt helped by the sound of a small rebuke to Mom and Dad.
"Never mind, ma'am, it's late tonight you will become sick with high blood pressure if you keep getting angry with this child who doesn't know yourself."
said Dad while hugging Mom to stay away from me, Dad and Mom finally walked into the room leaving me who was still standing frozen in silence. Honestly if I had so much courage I definitely wouldn't have experienced something as funny as this. Because I must have gone free to enjoy the beauty of the stars in the sky and didn't care anymore about the face of Mother who would cry in front of me and also the look in my father's cynical eyes.
"Sis, come on in...! Alright... don't take it to heart, just think of it as an encouragement so we can enter heaven he he he he...".
Julian's words brought me out of my thoughts, he helped me close the door after that he took my books which had been in my arms then I walked behind Julian because he helped me carry my books.
"Julian, thanks," I told him.
"Never mind, I hope you wake up tomorrow morning with a beaming face because you have forgotten what happened tonight."
With a smile that looks warm Julian said to me, even though he is only 16 years old but his maturity and way of thinking already exceeds Father and Mother. At least Julian's words made me smile a little for the second time tonight. Even though I know that it is impossible for me to forget all this incident but I must still smile and answer Julian's words.
"Go to sleep! Don't forget to pray before you go to sleep!" I said as I pushed him out of my room.
"Brother too huh..!" he replied as he came out of my room and did not forget he closed the door to my room.
I lay my body directly on the mattress that I bought from my salary. If it didn't happen before, usually before laying my body on this mattress, I have to clean my body first because I really love this mattress I don't want my mattress to be dirty or smelly because my body is sweaty and dusty, but this time I'm really lazy and very tired, not tired because of my work today but tired already in my mind because I have to always hold back the annoyance and anger that I can't get out.
I never know how long Mom and Dad will treat me like this, whether I really shouldn't be free or I shouldn't feel the meaning of maturity of a child who this year I am almost 20 years old and it's not an age that can be said to be a teenager anymore but me It is necessary to be able to live independently. I'm already working and my studies are not in vain, but why are Mom and Dad still restraining me?! I really can't think anymore. Actually, my problem with Hansen earlier was just a trivial matter because I accepted Hansen's invitation to have a short chat with him, but in my father's eyes it was like committing adultery, so that all accusations against Hansen were also spoken by Father and Mother. It's really sad when I remember Hansen because his life will now be unlucky because he has met me.
"Aaaaah.... God, WHY....!! why can my life be this bad?! Until when God.... how long!!" I shouted in my heart.
No more tears will come out of my eyes, because now, my body feels like it's being cooked on a fire stove, my blood is heating up and my head feels like it's about to burst because I want to scream to say I really want to. free and loose!.
Time continues to roll but these eyes can't be closed either, not because my body still hasn't showered or because it still smells of sweat but I'm afraid of this morning, I'm afraid of what will happen to me again and also what misfortune Hansen will face today because of the behavior of my father and mother. I am very sure that Hansen will not be easily forgotten by my father and mother.
"Sis.... sis! Knock... Knock... Knock!"
The sound of the call and the sound of knocking on the door began to ring in my ears, it was a sign that I had to get up early.
"Knock... knock... knock...! Sis Letta... wake up sis...!".
My youngest sister Laurent's voice is very soft, it makes me a little bit meaningful in this family.
"Yeah... Laurent is awake!" I answered the call.
How should I wake up from sleep if I can't even close my eyes even though I've tried even if it's only for a moment.
Honestly, my heart is now starting to pound, my hands are starting to feel stiff and it feels like they can't be used to reach the doorknob of my room.
Instantly my body was shaking, it felt like I couldn't stand it anymore if I had to pretend to be silent in front of my father and mother later.
I know that last night's problem is not easy for Mom and Dad to forget because I haven't admitted my mistake.
I know very well what Mother really wants for me and also what words Dad wants to hear from my mouth. It was very difficult for me to understand because they were both too eager to hear that I had to make a promise in front of them.
Promise I won't do it again.
Promise me not to make another mistake.
Promise that I can be a dutiful child and not disobedient anymore.
and the last thing is that I have to promise to be a child who must be able to make his parents happy.
Those were all words of agreement that I had to say in front of Mom and Dad. I don't know how many times I've said this agreement and how long this agreement was made.
Because trivial problems like this happen almost every year and are always noisy because I have never dated or made friends with anyone but Mom and Dad are too easy to accuse me and also blame myself for all my actions.
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