Three years of waiting for this moment. Only to be flat out avoided again. I was so happy to finally have a chance to be with her, but it seems that she's trying her best to distant herself from me. I know it's awkward after three years. What could we possibly talk about? I didn't know what's so urgent for her to cancel our dinner, but I didn't have that much time to ponder. After meeting with a possible investor and going to a business trip; I never really had time to contemplate about the situation.
The China project went longer than I have anticipated, the plan of only staying for 2 days became almost 5 days. I got an email from Nan-do Wednesday about meeting with her on Friday. I have heard from him last time that she handed a proposal to be an in-house researcher at Namdo, and I have read her request to participate at events in Namesis as well. I have not answered the PR team yet, I wanted to be the one to talk to her personally about it.
I was excited to see her again, so Nando is also surprise that I asked to be a part of the meeting on Friday. Although, I don't know yet how to act towards her again, I know for sure I wanted to see her. I miss her. I'm longing for her. I might be acting childish pretending to be cold and dismissive towards her, but I felt really disappointed to see her acting all cool and fine. Like I don't matter at all.
It has been a hectic day meeting with the directors and trying to convince them to give more budget on our security projects. Although it went well with the investors in China, we can't use the same quality of servers if we want to expand. I invited her for dinner, but she is going to a company dinner. I know how this company goes and she probably know it too, isn't this all part of her research? I have been uneasy the whole time while working with the R&D team trying to come out with a possible solution to our server farm.
I received a video message from Seo-hyun while still in the meeting. It was her, looking so drunk and singing so passionately at a Noraebang. I smiled watching the video, I didn't know she's fine with this type of things. I instinctively feel that I have to pick her up. I can't imagine how she will be after this. Now that they are in a Noraebang, it means they have already started drinking a while. I asked Seo-hyun to call the team leader so I could pick her up. Joon picked up her car and delivered it to my apartment, she forgot to give the parking code in her apartment.
She is almost passed out when I arrived outside the Noraebang place. I knew Team Manager Lee, since he started interning at Namdo 10 years ago. He was still surprised when he saw me, I know he had questions, but he is polite enough to hold it in. I smiled at him and thank him for keeping her company. She still managed to greet me and probably recognize my presence that's why she passed out right after. I am smiling with the thought of how relaxed she is with me that she easily trusted my presence with her.
I was debating to call Soo-ah to ask to bring her to her place. But it's already late so I decided to take her to my place. It's probably not the best idea, since we have not really had a normal conversation since she was here, but the thought of being with her gave me the assurance that I can finally have an excuse to talk to her.
For the first time in my life, I am about to take care of a drunk woman passed out in my bed. I started to undress her, it's awkward undressing a woman who doesn't have any reaction to my touch. But for some weird reason, this felt natural. I have never look at her this peaceful, I felt like I'm intruding too much of her, so I put on a shirt and just let her sleep.