January 8, 2018
Two days later, we got the news that Gio and Kit needed to return to the main pack house, as there were problems arising. I guess rogues have been becoming a problem around the borders, and being the Alphas of the pack, they needed to go there and deal with the problem. And well, then there came me, who was very unsure about following them right now, and not just waiting till later.
I sat in my yard, leaning against the large tree in front of my house as I stared off into the distance, trying to decide what I was going to do. As I had become the Alphas' mate - although we have not mated fully yet - I would need to be introduced to the pack on the summer solstice as the Luna of the Shadow Claw pack, but Gio and Kit and I would have to be fully mated to do so. And to make things worse (but at the same time not really because it's not a requirement), many of the older pack members are going to want to see that I am pregnant with the heir, the next Alpha of the pack. If I wasn't pregnant, there would be questions brought up if I was truly right to be the Luna of the pack. I never thought of this until mom and dad sat down with me yesterday and told me what was expected of the Alphas' mate, and I was scared and nervous. Kit and Gio had made it perfectly clear that they would not force me to bear any babies yet, because they didn't want me to do something that I did not want to. But what would the others think, would be my question? If they did not accept me as the Luna, would Gio and Kit stay with me, or would they sever our bond?
And by severing the bond, I would more than likely die…
I pushed those dark thoughts away, knowing that for whatever reason, Kit and Gio would not do that to me, no matter what anybody else thought. I should just go with them, I thought to myself, frowning. I understand mom and dad are here, yes, but that doesn't mean we can't visit each other. My responsibility is being with Kit and Gio, and learning what it's my job to do as Luna. That is my obligation to them, and I should see to it. But why am I so scared to do it? What is holding me back from being the Luna that they need? I want to be with them, I want to be their Luna, and hell, I bare their marks even though we haven't fully mated. So why can't I just pack up my things and leave with them? Mom and dad have already given me their blessing to leave, to make a home with Gio and Kit. But they did tell me to do what I thought would make me happy, and they would back me no matter what. I remember crying in their arms for a good ten minutes, happy that I had parents who supported me no matter what I wanted to do. But I wanted to appease them as well, and show them that I was mature, and that I could do this. That I didn't need someone else making the decisions for me. But until mom and dad sat down and talked to me about this, I never truly understood what the meaning was to actually be their mate.
I don't regret it, but I just happened to realize now that maybe we rushed this, but it is too late to back down now. The deed has been done. But it is up to me to make that decision now.
I was so lost in thought that I didn't see a man approaching me until he was towering over me, blocking out the sun. My eyes met his, and I did not recognize him. I could see the hatred and pain in his eyes, and it was confusing. I tilted my head to the side, wondering why he was mad at me. I have done nothing to him, but he's looking at me like I had kicked his puppy. His eyes looked me up and down, and he scoffed. Before I could ask him what his problem was, he turned around and walked away.
What the hell is his problem?
"That was Erik Olson." Silas murmured, practically appearing out of nowhere, "he's Eren Olson's brother."
My eyes widened a fraction, recognizing the name of the Wolf who had tried to play Kit and Gio, and get Gio killed. But why the hell was Erik mad at me? I didn't do anything.
"Let me tell you a little story, Kai, about how the Alphas, Eren, and Erik all came to me." Silas said softly as he sat down beside me.
And honestly, I really wanted to hear it.