Later that night , we texted a bit longer then usual . It was normal talks only. Wasn't so much to tell if whatever I am thinking is not a misunderstanding but he did give me a strong vibe that it wasn't only from my side.
Later that night I didn't talk much with my boyfriend because I didn't feel like it.
While I was on call with my boyfriend, he kept texting if I was done talking to him or not. When i told no for the third time , he stopped waiting and wished me night. I did the same. After fifteen minutes or so , I wished my boyfriend good night and slept.
Later things went same for next two to three days. Now it was one Fazid's birthday. We all wished him in college.
It was lunch break. So we all gathered in canteen as usual. After our lunch , we stayed in canteen for a bit longer to catch up with each other .
Suddenly Fazid had a challenge in mind for me. I agreed to it and if i lost , I had to give him a birthday gift. However I lost it. So I had to give him a gift.
Later , we all left for a near by cafe to celebrate Fazid bhai's birthday. It was the first time I went out with them and second time I went out with Ayan. After class I found him waiting for me in his bike outside of our college gate while others had already left for the cafe. We both were the last to arrive.
We found our friends waiting for us at the parking which ment we weren't late . Then we entered the cafe which had great atmosphere and good enough space . We could have open yet private time to spend with each other.
Initially we couldn't decide where to sit so we randomly picked the one in front of us. Then they ordered some snacks and drinks according to their choice.
Later we found ourselves a proper place to sit which was quite friendly space. Ofcourse we both sat together. We had some chat with one another in group while he offered his drink to me which I gladly agreed.
After sometime , when I had. chance to speak to him privately..,..I told him that my boyfriend wanted to speak to him as he wanted to visit me. Ofcourse I didn't want them to speak but I didn't really have a choice as I couldn't afford to let my boyfriend get suspicious of us. So I just agreed to him.
Surprisingly, he agreed to talk to him. Later when everyone was engaged to one another. We both left for washroom and called my boyfriend. They spoke to each other and i kept staring at him and each time I handed my phone to Ayan to speak with my boyfriend, I felt guilty and felt like I was betraying Ayan and hurting him constantly. However, at the end my boyfriend decided to come and I had to arrange the tickets for him. But I wasn't ready to spend time talking to him over the phone instead of being with Ayan .
However I checked the train tickets as also tried to contact my usual agency responsible for getting us tickets. But the agency seemed to be busy and unsure about the tickets so he asked me to call later.
After talking to the agency , I called him to inform that I will see about tickets later as I came to a birthday party with friends. Yet he kept calling me. So I was disturbed by him again and again. Ayan on the other hand didn't look too good and I felt guilty for it. However I had to deal with it and I know he understands. Or was I thinking too much? Did he actually feel anything for me? Or it was just a wishful thinking of mine? I couldn't help but question otherwise so that I wouldn't be hurt later. But if i judge by his and his friends actions, I think the feeling goes both sides. But I couldn't risk my heart.