Chereads / The Darkness in my mind / Chapter 4 - Chapter 3: The Voices

Chapter 4 - Chapter 3: The Voices

May kept looking at me, concerned... I just said I must've fallen asleep and it had been a dream (although I knew none of this was true.). She still stared at me with concern. I said " Please just go, I'm tired and I need to sleep. When she walked away I could hear her still yelling the exact same thing. I was confused and I didn't know what was happening. As the day went on I heard more and more voices. The voices were screaming, they were whispering, some sounded close to death. I was worried the voices wouldn't stop; they just kept talking and talking. I tried to go to sleep. I really did but it was impossible with all the voices talking and talking and talking. Its been 3 days since that night and I have gotten no rest at all. So I did the only rational thing in my tired broken mind and screamed too. I just screamed and screamed until my voice broke. If anything I needed to scream. A lot has happened in the past week for me. Tears once again started falling and then I was crying again.. No one seemed to hear me scream or cry, which must be usual in the hospital. So I sat up and put my knees through my hands and my head in my knees. Sitting there I listened to the voices and rocked back and forth. Back and forth. The voices were just there now, background noise like a wave crashing down on you. I still wanted them gone. I needed sleep. I got a little more used to it. Then I started to hear what they were saying. It was worse after that since the voices became so clear and they weren't exactly happy things I was hearing.. Some of the voices said things like "I NEED TO TELL MY FAMILY I LOVE THEM'. But there were fainter ones too, like "I'm going to die tonight so let me see my family again". All the voices were morbid. It was torture. I couldn't bear it so I shoved my head in my knees and started screaming again trying to drown out the voices. It was now 4 Am, I needed to get to sleep. The voices were still there, I couldn't bear it anymore I had snapped. Without thinking I grabbed my lamp that was on the bedside and hit it full force on my head. The room slowly faded into darkness…....…..